Now it means letting Orli get his innocence back- not shy innocence, but elastic innocence, the innocence of someone who's curious, experimental, but pure in some way, innocent of using pleasure to cause pain.
Not sure exactly what that means, exactly, but I identify with it. I think it's because I'm more like Karl ("How long's long?" Karl asks, always the one who wants, needs, to fix things before they scare him so much he can't function). I don't have the patience to wait for things to get fixed. I like them to be set right ASAP, and it's so disappointing and frustrating for me when nothing I do to make things better seems to be what's needed to work things out. I end up feeling like I've betrayed myself because I've jumped through hoops I should've left alone, just trying to fix things so everything is alright again.
LJ ate my comment, so I am going to try to repeat it again.
Now it means letting Orli get his innocence back- not shy innocence, but elastic innocence, the innocence of someone who's curious, experimental, but pure in some way, innocent of using pleasure to cause pain.
Not sure what exactly that means, exactly, but I identify with it. I think it's because I'm more like Karl ("How long's long?" Karl asks, always the one who wants, needs, to fix things before they scare him so much he can't function). I have to have things fixed, and until they're fixed it's like I can't function. My brain won't move on to anything else. Unfortunately, I end up betraying myself in the fixing, making promises I can't keep or saying things I later regret, just for the sake of restoring what was there before things got broken. Oftentimes I don't really understand what it was that I did to cause the problem in the first place. Like Orlando, I've given something my best effort only to find it fall apart, exploding in my face, and I'm doomed to repeat the
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wow. I'm actually gonna write those on my quote board. So beautiful.
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it's things like that i try to keep in mind when i'm struggling.
welcome, again. spend as much time as you like here. the men are very welcoming.
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Not sure exactly what that means, exactly, but I identify with it. I think it's because I'm more like Karl ("How long's long?" Karl asks, always the one who wants, needs, to fix things before they scare him so much he can't function). I don't have the patience to wait for things to get fixed. I like them to be set right ASAP, and it's so disappointing and frustrating for me when nothing I do to make things better seems to be what's needed to work things out. I end up feeling like I've betrayed myself because I've jumped through hoops I should've left alone, just trying to fix things so everything is alright again.
I LIKE string, yannow? *lol*
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Now it means letting Orli get his innocence back- not shy innocence, but elastic innocence, the innocence of someone who's curious, experimental, but pure in some way, innocent of using pleasure to cause pain.
Not sure what exactly that means, exactly, but I identify with it. I think it's because I'm more like Karl ("How long's long?" Karl asks, always the one who wants, needs, to fix things before they scare him so much he can't function). I have to have things fixed, and until they're fixed it's like I can't function. My brain won't move on to anything else. Unfortunately, I end up betraying myself in the fixing, making promises I can't keep or saying things I later regret, just for the sake of restoring what was there before things got broken. Oftentimes I don't really understand what it was that I did to cause the problem in the first place. Like Orlando, I've given something my best effort only to find it fall apart, exploding in my face, and I'm doomed to repeat the ( ... )
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I think LJ hates me.
But this little glimpse of the boys is deserving of two comments, really. Maybe more. :-D
Love you.
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