12 | Voice

[all_heart_sano]

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[Voice]

[waning_moon]

[Quiet, somewhat hoarse sounding] ...Harada-san? It's okay... I don't blame you, I know it was just the owls making you say things like that. Don't... don't leave. You'd make us all very sad...

[Voice]

[all_heart_sano]

I'm sorry, Okita-kun...I don't...

It's too much. For what I did...I deserve this.

[Voice]

[waning_moon]

This would hurt me far more than any of those stupid words ever could, Harada-san. I wouldn't be able to forgive you for this!

[Voice]

[all_heart_sano]

I deserve this. Talking...isn't all I did.

I can't take back what I said or did. But I can make sure I never do it again.

[rapier_ex]

S-Sanosuke! Don't!

[all_heart_sano]

Please don't worry about it, Virginia-san. I just...didn't think it would be right to leave without saying certain things.

-voice-

[rapier_ex]

-obviously crying-

Sanosuke...please...I'm sorry for all those things I said...I can't take them back, but...that wasn't my voice! And neither was that yours! PLEASE SANO! DON'T DO IT!

-voice-

[all_heart_sano]

...Virginia-san, please. Please try to understand. Protecting the people I'm close to...is the most important thing in the world to me. If I'm something that threatens and hurts them, I should be removed.

Voice

[heyheisuke]

Wait. What? Don't you dare blame yourself for something that's all those fucking owls fault! And things are enough of a mess without you going to die on me too! Don't you fucking dare, or I'll feed your corpse to those fucking owls! I'm coming to get you. Where are you?!

Voice

[all_heart_sano]

[warm, quiet laughter; then, he speaks in a voice that's kind but full of regret]

I'm sorry, Heisuke. I know...this isn't how either of us wanted it to end.

Guess you were right to flinch away from me for so long after all...

I'm sorry.

Voice

[heyheisuke]

Then don't let it end, you stupid, over sensitive son of a bitch!

I... What?! So you're saying that I'm right in treating you like crap? That makes me feel so much better you know! Like, wow, I'll be totally, completely overjoyed when you're dead now!

Damn you, Sano! Don't you fucking dare to end anything! If you're planning on killing yourself because of me, then fucking have the nerve to talk to me first, or I'll never forgive you, ever!

SO. WHERE. ARE. YOU?!!

I... need you

Voice

[all_heart_sano]

[tired] I...I can't tell you that, Heisuke. I don't want you to have to see this.

I don't want to hurt you any more...

[nearly whispered, like he's trying to tell himself as much as Heisuke]

...You'll be fine in time. You're strong. You have lots of friends who care about you...

Voice

[disgruntledbrat]

What the hell are you playing at Harada? Running away just 'cause things happened you couldn't control?

Voice

[all_heart_sano]

Hijikata-san...you weren't supposed to see this...

I...you don't understand...

I'm not running from anything. I have to keep everyone safe...and if it's me posing a threat, that's no exception.

Voice

[not_blushing]

W-wait a minute, Harada-kun! What are you talking about?

Voice

[all_heart_sano]

...Kondou-san. I...apologize for my behavior. I've been a disgrace to the Shinsengumi and a threat to those I hold dear, and I won't trouble you any longer.

Thank you...for all of the kindness you showed me over the years. You and Yamanami-san and Heisuke and the others...you really were a family to me.

Voice

[not_blushing]

"Were"...?

...No. Harada-kun, you are not to harm yourself. Whatever happened this week wasn't your fault!

Voice

[all_heart_sano]

...I'm sorry, Kondou-san. I can't follow that command. I have acted unforgivably; I should die.