At A Loss (Chasey)
Title: At A Loss (Chasey)
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em
Chapter: 9/9
Rating: N/C 17
Pairings: Chuck/Casey; Some Bryce/Sara; Morgan/Alex; Ellie/Devon
Warnings: Language, Smut, Angst
Spoilers: All of Chuck up through series finale, somewhat...
Summary: Something is going on with Chuck and Casey and Sarah has no idea what is wrong...
Link To First Part: http://alexisk11.livejournal.com/2867.html
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Smut. Some Talking. More Smut. No Excuses.
Last line is totally for Skyesurfer12.....If you haven't read her stories, you totally should!!!
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Casey heard a faint knocking at his door, but he didn't bother to get up. Anyone important would have a key, they could let themselves in. Sure enough he heard the familiar jiggle of the key in the lock and the door sliding open. He figured it was Walker coming back after she met up with her boy toy. He was surprised, however, when he looked up to see a fairly disheveled and determined looking Chuck.
“Listen, Casey I know I’m the last person you probably want to see right now but we have to talk,” he said so softly Casey could hardly hear him. “I know....I wish....Ugh I can't do this!” He desperately shouted while throwing his hands in the air. “Dammit Casey I love you! I only said I wanted to end things because I thought you didn't love me, but you do, don't you?” Chuck shouted, frustrated that he had an abundance of words at any given time, except for the time he needed them most. “John, I love you, don't you close up on me now,” Chuck growled after a long pause of silence from Casey.
Chuck was determined, he's been described as stubborn after all. He took Casey by surprise once again as he made his way over to the bed where Casey was now half propped up on his elbows, and pushing him back down again he started kissing him into submission. Casey was overwhelmed by the feeling of Chuck kissing him again and the fact Chuck was just there, with him. It took Casey a few minuets, and quite a few heated kisses before he could think straight enough to react.
“Wait, Chuck, wait.,” He said gently pushing him back “You mean it? I mean, I thought, I thought you liked Shawn? I thought, I mean, I'm me, how...”
“Casey, leave the babbling to me and Shut. Up.” Chuck said as he effectively cut Casey off mid sentence and started kissing him again.
“Yes, you.” Chuck said pulling back from the kiss. “I love you. I do like Shawn...as a friend. He's a good person and he's helped Awesome and Ellie out a lot. It's not him I want to be with though. That goes solely to you, John Casey. Your the one who's always there. Your the one who never let me down. Your the one that had to pick up the pieces one too many times to count. Your the one I fell in love with,” Chuck punctuated each sentence with a chaste kiss to Casey's lips.
Casey smiled slightly and closed his eyes. “Chuck.”
“Hmm?” Chuck asked with an adorable confused look on his face.
“Make love to me.”
“Case-”
“Shh,” Casey stopped Chuck by placing a finger on his lips, “I want this.”
That was the last words spoken between the partners for a while. Chuck bit his lip and nodded his head in agreement, before laying all his weight on top of Casey and kissing him senseless. As the kisses grew more heated, Casey started to unbutton Chuck's wrinkled dress shirt. As the continued their long, slow, passionate kisses, they continued to slowly undress each other, taking the time to really explore every little detail about the other.
Chuck was loving the time to finally get to take his lover completely in. Casey really was freaking perfect. Every scar, every testament to what Casey's gone through, just makes him that much more of a fucking beautiful man. Every little nick and mark was just another proof of how Casey has sacrificed for the greater good, for the good of his beloved country and it's constituents. Damn, it made Chuck proud, all the good that Casey has done, and all the good he has yet to do. The only difference is that from now on, Chuck will be by his side. He was so lucky that someone like Casey would open themselves up and fall in love with him and he wasn't going to let it go again.
Chuck continued loving Casey, kissing his way across and down his body, making sure to place a perfect kiss over every scar he ever received. How he ever got someone so innocent, so pure, so loving like Chuck to love him he'll never know. Chuck wasn't overly built, but he had some muscle and abs as he knew from their previous encounters. He didn't have many scars but there were the few from the multiple incidents on missions gone wrong. Those scars hurt worse than his own, knowing what the kid did, what he gave up just because he opened an e-mail from an old college friend turned nemesis. In all honesty, he could have ran, he could have refused to co-operate with them, but he didn't. He put himself in constant danger to save his country and to protect his family and friends. Even those idiots at the Buy More, Casey figured. Chuck sees the good in everybody which is probably why he will never be able to actually pull the trigger on a real gun. Casey loves that about him, Chuck was one of a kind, if only the kid realized how special he really was, and not just because of the computer in his brain. Hell even that made him special, no one else could have handled it.
“Casey, what's this from?” Chuck asked while swiping his hand across the scar on his right cheek.
“Truck hit an IED, got hit with shrapnel, lost 20 men from our unit that day. They said I was one of the 'lucky' ones. Came out with nothing but this scar and a heavy heart.” Chuck then placed a kiss over that scar as well and it felt as though he was trying to kiss the pain away, all of it. It was so intimate, so tender, so Chuck, that Casey was feeling emotions he couldn't even explain if he wanted to. This is why he's so taken with the kid.
“Well I'm glad you were one of the lucky ones.” Chuck said before kissing his way down Casey's jaw and then down his body before taking Casey in his mouth. All Casey could do was close his eyes a let out a small moan of approval. His brain was in overdrive, this was Chuck, his Chuck, making love to him and it was absolutely perfect.
Fuck when did the kid get so good at this? He was already withering, starting to loose it. It wasn't much longer before looking down into the kids warm eyes, made him let go completely.
Chuck loved watching Casey so let go, so free. Nothing was more amazing than seeing the, John Casey, so unrestrained. Chuck held still and lightly rubbed small circles with his thumb over Casey's hip until Casey's muscles stopped spasming. He then looked up through his lashes and locked eyes with Casey as he pulled off and swallowed, because he knew Casey liked it. He got the effect he was hoping for, when Casey's breathing hitched and he bit down on his bottom lip. Right then, Chuck decided that flushed faced, messy haired, glassy darkened eyed, sexed up Casey may be the most amazing thing he has ever seen.
Casey just lay there, chest rising and falling with his heavy pants, as Chuck leaned over to grab the lube from it's well known place in the night stand drawer. Clicking the cap open, he felt extremely nervous as he coated his fingers and closed the lid, placing the bottle nearby. Normally the roles were reversed, well all except for the Chuck being nervous part. He still couldn't believe that Casey actually wanted this, not just doing it for Chuck, but he actually wanted it. Oh God, he needed to stop thinking and just start doing or he was going to freak himself out. Casey was still relaxed and half out of it from before, so Chuck took the advantage and circled a slick finger around Casey's entrance. Casey's noise of encouragement was all Chuck needed to push past that last bit of nervousness and he pushed a finger into Casey.
Fuck, he was so tight. Now a whole new bout of nervousness came on. What if he hurt him? Shit. He wasn’t so sure he could do this. He was scared, but now Casey was practically whining and grinding down on his finger trying to get more friction, so Chuck slowly and gently added a second finger. Casey's panting got even faster and when Chuck brushed against that special spot he let out a noise somewhere between a half moan and a half whine. Shit, if Chuck wasn't hard before he sure as hell was now. That was the hottest thing he had ever heard.
As soon as Chuck was sure Casey was ready he withdrew his fingers and generously coated himself before pitching the lube onto the floor out of the way. He looked down at Casey who's eyes were shining as he smiled at him and gave him a slight nod to let Chuck know it was ok. Chuck held his breath as he slowly pushed into Casey and waited for him to adjust.
It had been a long time since he had bottomed, but the burn was perfect as Chuck entered him. He wanted this so bad he could hardly stand to wait another second, but he was sure the kid was nervous as all hell.
“Breathe Chuck.”
Chuck took in a shuddering breath as Casey wrapped his hands around his hips encouraging him to move. Chuck started to slowly pull out and thrust back in until Casey started to pick up the pace. Being as this was all new to Chuck, everything was pretty perfectly clumsy. Despite previous assumptions, Chuck was pretty amazing in bed. Casey could so get used to doing this every so often.
Nothing was more amazing than feeling your lover inside of you. It wasn't going to be much longer till Casey was tipped over the edge again. He opened his eyes to look into Chuck's big, innocent, brown ones. Chuck lowered his head for a long sloppy kiss and Casey reached between them to take himself in his hand. A few good pulls and Chuck's sloppy, passionate kisses later Casey was loosing it to Chuck once again. A few sloppy thrusts later, Chuck lost himself to Casey. Collapsing on top of Casey despite the mess, Chuck placed his ear over Casey's ribcage so he could hear his heartbeat. It was one of the most intimate moments Casey had ever shared with anyone.
After a while of just relaxing and soft touches, Casey gently rolled Chuck to the side and sat up, pulling Chuck up with him.
“I'm going to go start the shower, we need to get cleaned up. You should probably call one of them and let them know we are ok, I know Walker was pretty worried.”
“Yea, they all were, I'll give Morgan a call and then I’ll be in.”
Chuck fumbled around looking in his pants pockets before he found his phone and unlocked it to call Morgan.
“Hey Morgan, buddy it's Chuck.”
“Chuck! Oh good, we weren’t sure if you two were killing each other or what, please don't exaggerate on the what. Your on speaker by the way and everyone is here, including Alex and your Mother.”
“Oh, ok. Well no we didn't kill each other and everything is ok. Everything is going to be alright.”
Chuck could hear a collective group of relieved sighs and “Good's” and “Thank God's.”
“Casey and I will be over in a little while, you want to order some take-out? Perhaps pizza, since we just had sizzling shrimp yesterday, I'm starving.”
“Ok buddy, will do. Good friends, family, beer, and pizza will be awaiting! Oh, and take your time buddy, no rush, no rush.”
At that Chuck could hear a collective group of “Ew's” and “I didn't need to hear that's.”
“Ok, you call in the order and we'll be there, I’ll see you all in a few.” Chuck said before hanging up, placing his phone on the bed, and completely mortified, scrubbing his hands over his face and through his sweat soaked hair.
Walking into the bathroom he could hear Casey laughing, a real, hearty laugh.
“Guess you heard that huh? I wouldn't be laughing if I were you big guy, your daughter was there.”
Casey just laughed again and pulled Chuck under the water with him. Kissing him soundly on the lips and threading his fingers through Chuck's now water damp hair, Casey couldn't have been happier.
“Mmm Casey, feels good.” Chuck mumbled while his eyes fluttered shut.
“Up for round two sport? Cause I gotta tell ya, there's just something about shower sex that is amazing.”
“More awesome sex with my amazingly, wonderful, handsome NSA handler? Yea I could go for that.”
“Good.”
“Mm but I did tell everyone we'd be over in a couple of minuets....
“Make them wonder eh?” He said as he ran his hands over Chuck's thighs and took him in his hand.
“Mmm Casey, yea. Ok let 'em wonder. Shower sex, good. Oh God Casey.”
“Mm you like that huh? Want me to fuck you up against the wall while the water pours down over us making everything so enticing, so wet? Want me to run my hands through your soaked, soft, hair while I'm fucking you into oblivion?”
“Gla-Glad to know I got the old Casey back.” Chuck stuttered out. “But God yes do that.”
“I will, and if you think that's hot just wait 'till I do the other things I want to do to you while in the shower.”
“Gah, Casey. Enough teasing, just mmpf,” Chuck got out as Casey pushed him up against the wall to have his way with him.
Somewhere through his lust induced fog Chuck heard Casey's low growl, “I hope you told Grimes to hold the green peppers on that pizza,” right before he dropped to his knees and with a leer, took Chuck into his mouth.
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Author Note: Thanks For Reading!! :)