hello.  i really tried to be happy this winter.
i did.  i tried really hard.
i wear a santa hat to work.
i bought presents for people.
i even put christmas lights up in my room.
i'm trying to feel the holiday spirit... the holiday cheer.

but i can't do it anymore.
i can't put on a facade any longer.
it gets harder to fake a smile every day.
i just feel so ( Read more... )

as of right now.. this small sliver in time..
the rest of the week can only get better.

it has to get better.

please get better.

i have so much to say, yet nothing to write in here.  blah.

 2 hour delay.  woo hoo.

please close.
please close.
please close.

well this week turned out better than anticipated ( Read more... )

i have no school for the next 5 days.

then when i go back on wednesday..
i have wednesday, thursday, & friday.

then i have the weekend.
then i have a half day the following friday
& no more school until january.

& brittany comes home.
& i'm so excited.  :D

i'm sick of fighting.

if we all can't get along,
then i'd rather nothing.

if my car hit that guardrail 6 inches closer to my gas tank,
my car would have exploded on impact,
and i would have been scorched to death before anyone even stepped out of their house.

because if i didn't think i had the best luck before...
i believe it now.

(but that's okay because i deserve it, ya know?)

i'm so disappointed with so many people in my life right now.
i can't believe it.

& the two of you girls are being complete bitches.

the end.

well, last night was scary.. to say the least.

i'm really glad everyone's okay.
i don't think i'd be able to handle
losing either of those two.

i'm just really sorry that i'm an idiot,
and don't pay attention when i'm driving.

we should have died.  all 3 of us.
my car should have blown up,
& with a full gas tank, it would have
made one hell of an explosion.

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