Saved, Part 4
Characters: Alex, Olivia, other
Rating: pg
Spoilers: none
OK, here is part 4 and trust me, things will just get more fun from here. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: Still don't own it, and don't plan to anytime soon.
Saved, part 4
"Hi Livvie," I finally said as I got up from the couch after glancing down at Sarah. Other than the fact that her now red eyes had suddenly grown to twice their normal size, I was pretty sure she was okay.
"Okay, now I know something is wrong. You only call me Livvie when you know I am going to get upset."
"Liv," I began, trying to gain courage through the oxygen I was taking into my body in great amounts, "This is Sarah Johnson… my daughter." And I froze.
Olivia looked at me, then down at Sarah and seemed to study her before moving her eyes back to me. " She looks like you."
I was startled- I wasn't expecting that. I was expecting an explosion, or at least some cursing. I just jumped into an explanation, ranting on in order to hopefully prevent the inevitable.
"I was 15 and scared out of my mind when I found out I was pregnant. I didn't even tell my parents. We had moved right after Brian and I broke up and my parents were gone for months at a time, so I figured they would never notice and no one at my new school knew what I was supposed to look like. I even begged and bribed the maid and nanny to not say anything. I was right, my mother just lectured me about watching my weight and the kids at school figured I was just a loner with baggy clothes and an eating problem.
" I contacted the adoption agency myself and told them my situation. I think they were shocked to have a girl from such an affluent family come to them, normally our parents would just marry us off. It was the "proper" thing to do. I didn’t want that, Liv. I wanted to go to college and law school and to grow up. I was still just a confused, messed up kid. But I love her, and thought about her everyday."
By this time both Sarah and Olivia were looking at me wide eyed. They weren't expecting that. Hell, I wasn't expecting to say all that.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
I glanced down at Sarah, trying to give her a small smile. She had tears running down her cheeks again, but I could see in her eyes that she was trying to imagine being pregnant at 15.
"She was mine. My secret. I kept her entirely to myself. I saw her in my imagination and gave her a name. I could pretend that I saw her first step and hear her first word and send her off for her first day of school. But it was my fantasy. I never actually expected to meet her."
"You still should have told me. We agreed no more secrets Allie. My God, six years Alex, and not one word except that you knew you were gay after sleeping with your first boyfriend. This is a little bigger than just sleeping with someone! Oh my God, I can't believe you have a daughter."
"Neither can I. And check her out, she comes in a pre-raised package. The hard part is already done."
At least that got half a smile.
While we were talking I had moved away from the couch to stand in front of her. She was now standing there, her hands gesturing wildly as she ranted. I reached up to cup my partner's face," are you okay?"
"No, Alex. No, I'm not. Elliot invited us over for dinner tonight. I'll go over there for a few hours, but why don't you stay here with Sarah. Get to know your daughter." She can barely get the word daughter out; I can tell she is trying to fight off tears. She always has to be so strong.
She turned to Sarah who was still sitting on the sofa, trying to not look uncomfortable with the fact that she was the topic of conversation. "Are you staying here sweetie?" She asked with a small smile. After receiving a small nod in reply she continued, "then I'll get to talk to you later."
With that Olivia was heading back towards the door, still in her work clothes and jacket.
"Liv…"
Without turning, she paused, twisting her head around slightly and said, "don't worry, I'll be back in a few hours."
I have never felt as helpless as I did at that moment.
Rating: pg
Spoilers: none
OK, here is part 4 and trust me, things will just get more fun from here. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: Still don't own it, and don't plan to anytime soon.
Saved, part 4
"Hi Livvie," I finally said as I got up from the couch after glancing down at Sarah. Other than the fact that her now red eyes had suddenly grown to twice their normal size, I was pretty sure she was okay.
"Okay, now I know something is wrong. You only call me Livvie when you know I am going to get upset."
"Liv," I began, trying to gain courage through the oxygen I was taking into my body in great amounts, "This is Sarah Johnson… my daughter." And I froze.
Olivia looked at me, then down at Sarah and seemed to study her before moving her eyes back to me. " She looks like you."
I was startled- I wasn't expecting that. I was expecting an explosion, or at least some cursing. I just jumped into an explanation, ranting on in order to hopefully prevent the inevitable.
"I was 15 and scared out of my mind when I found out I was pregnant. I didn't even tell my parents. We had moved right after Brian and I broke up and my parents were gone for months at a time, so I figured they would never notice and no one at my new school knew what I was supposed to look like. I even begged and bribed the maid and nanny to not say anything. I was right, my mother just lectured me about watching my weight and the kids at school figured I was just a loner with baggy clothes and an eating problem.
" I contacted the adoption agency myself and told them my situation. I think they were shocked to have a girl from such an affluent family come to them, normally our parents would just marry us off. It was the "proper" thing to do. I didn’t want that, Liv. I wanted to go to college and law school and to grow up. I was still just a confused, messed up kid. But I love her, and thought about her everyday."
By this time both Sarah and Olivia were looking at me wide eyed. They weren't expecting that. Hell, I wasn't expecting to say all that.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
I glanced down at Sarah, trying to give her a small smile. She had tears running down her cheeks again, but I could see in her eyes that she was trying to imagine being pregnant at 15.
"She was mine. My secret. I kept her entirely to myself. I saw her in my imagination and gave her a name. I could pretend that I saw her first step and hear her first word and send her off for her first day of school. But it was my fantasy. I never actually expected to meet her."
"You still should have told me. We agreed no more secrets Allie. My God, six years Alex, and not one word except that you knew you were gay after sleeping with your first boyfriend. This is a little bigger than just sleeping with someone! Oh my God, I can't believe you have a daughter."
"Neither can I. And check her out, she comes in a pre-raised package. The hard part is already done."
At least that got half a smile.
While we were talking I had moved away from the couch to stand in front of her. She was now standing there, her hands gesturing wildly as she ranted. I reached up to cup my partner's face," are you okay?"
"No, Alex. No, I'm not. Elliot invited us over for dinner tonight. I'll go over there for a few hours, but why don't you stay here with Sarah. Get to know your daughter." She can barely get the word daughter out; I can tell she is trying to fight off tears. She always has to be so strong.
She turned to Sarah who was still sitting on the sofa, trying to not look uncomfortable with the fact that she was the topic of conversation. "Are you staying here sweetie?" She asked with a small smile. After receiving a small nod in reply she continued, "then I'll get to talk to you later."
With that Olivia was heading back towards the door, still in her work clothes and jacket.
"Liv…"
Without turning, she paused, twisting her head around slightly and said, "don't worry, I'll be back in a few hours."
I have never felt as helpless as I did at that moment.