Times of Change

[aldecoary]

The speaker (Winona LaDuke) last night was amazing. She and I are similar in many regards to perspective on the world, and through the entire thing, I wanted to get on my own soapbox and then, without saying a word, I'd grab any nearby people by the arms and explain things on the way to go do something. Some good quotations

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[blck_phnx]

Sounds like a good speaker. I'm glad you enjoyed yourself.

Must be nice.

[aldecoary]

Thankee.

Give it a couple years. Sheesh, it took me that long.

[blck_phnx]

It's already taken years...the years just keep piling up and the road stretches futher than the eye can see.

[aldecoary]

Hahaha. Then one day you'll wake up and realize things. Our family is different. None of us rebelled much--we're not like average families. It. Takes. Time.

[jsguardian]

Change is good. I'm all for the force of change. And what you are doing as a writing major is biding time and gathering credentials and resources. This is time consuming and rather unexciting. But it will be useful for you in the long run.

As far as this goes: No more updating alfewyn. There's just no need to have two journals anymore; I am myself together again; I will speak the truth where everyone may hear it. I may eventually move all entries over to aldecoary in the respective times and dates and then delete the journal, but right now, that seems like a lot of work I don't have time for. Bit by bit, I suppose.

You can't undo the past. I wouldn't recommend trying, even symbolically. Just keep going forward.

[aldecoary]

I feel no need to do this any longer. I only feel a need to get to work. I'm not going to have enough time as it is; I ought to get as much done as I can.

And I never really thought of it in regards to undoing the past--never crossed my mind. I am just obsessive compulsive sometimes with orderliness, and that's where deleting it comes in. If I have a journal I'm not going to use, I want it put away, so to speak. Doesn't mean I take back anything that was in there or think the reason I had for using it is now no longer important or such. But what you say has an interesting connotation to it that may be acting subconsciously. I will give it some thought.

[jsguardian]

Yes, I know. I know. I know your mindset because it was my mindset and in some ways, elements of it still are. We both know there's things that need doing, and we both know we need training we haven't got yet, and neither is getting done, and that is exceedingly frustrating.

But I don't think you're looking at the whole picture. Are you taking to mind insurance, which will run out if you're not at school? A license, a car, auto insurance? There are places you can train and people you can learn from. Do you have the money to go and learn from them? If they're far away, how will you support yourself while learning from them? I don't think you can do that with a deli job. Try getting something that pays better than that, you try it, without a degree, and see how far you get. Is it doable? Yes. But it will take you longer and thus in the long run you will have accomplished exactly what you're trying to avoid when it comes to there not being time to waste

[aldecoary]

...like you said, I hate it when people thrust cold hard reason in my face and I must admit, "I know that; I have to wait." As much as I'd like to transcend all these physical elements, I must recognize that I'm not nearly there yet and yes, more waiting will be beneficial as well. And as impatient as I am, I am not completely ready to leave classes just yet. For a good reason? Yes, I would. But I don't have much of anything planned of my path, yet, so it is better to wait. But I do not have to enjoy that. Eh, I might as well.

Why have you not gone back to school?

I am in the process of asking for a recommendation, and I think I'll try, over the weekend, to tackle those questions they ask. It will be very hard, I think, because they said they will take people from Vermont first and I'm many miles from there. But I will just have to work even harder to make them accept me.

[tawnykit]

Good speakers are wonderful things. I envy them. I couldn't do that. There aren't a lot of things that I can't do if I set my mind to it (What? It's true.) but that'd be one of them.

I'm glad you know who you are. Must be nice. *tease* But seriously, I'm glad. Identity crises are horrible things.

You are in school because it is a requirement to survive in today's society. We don't have to like it, but it's true. *hug* Just hang in there. Take things one day at a time.

You confuse wonderfully, my friend. It's one of your charms. And collapsing with a silly grin would do you some good. :D

[aldecoary]

I agree; same for me. Though some people would say never limit yourself because then you do, I am sometimes "realistic" and must admit my shortcomings to myself to focus more on things I can improve.

Mate, it certainly took me long enough. And if you mean what it sounds your undertone means, I never thought you didn't know yourself except in regards to one topic.

*hug* You're right in a good sense. And you got the "don't have to like it" exactly true, too. Why do we have to be in the minority so that the world isn't catered to us?

*huge grin* This made me crack up. Thank you.

[tawnykit]

*nod* When I take over the world, I shall elect an orator to read my speaches for me. I will write them, and then I shall stand in next to the Imperial Orator and look imposing while they read it for me. I shudder at the thought of facing the PhD board someday. *shudders*

Oh, but I don't know myself! Except when I do. But that one topic is the big one.

Mmm-hmm. I'm willing to put up with ten years of being miserable if I can be happy -- or at least productive, which would in turn make me happy -- for the rest of my life after that. *dramatic sigh* I know! It's so not fair!

*beam* Good. It was supposed to. Even though I was being completely serious. ^_^

[aldecoary]

You can write my speeches, too, and then I'll hire someone to say my speeches that you wrote. XD Oh? Have you some inkling of what it's like? You'll probably be so nervous about it you'll do wonderfully. Not that that's very reassuring...

True enough. I think that was my main unknown topic and so, when it fell into place, I realized I did indeed know myself.

Two more years is more than enough. I refuse to contemplate any higher education. Even if it's beginning to grow required too. *scowl* I think you'll manage classes much better than I, though.

Thank you again very kindly, mate.

[nachzes]

Ah, we wouldn't care if you grinned sillily (?.? spelling?); we'd love you just the same.

[aldecoary]

Good, for I'm sure I grin silly all the time because I'm laughing at everyone and he/she doesn't get it.

[garowyn]

Glad you enjoyed yourself. Even if people don't always agree, no reason to hide your opinions and views. That's part of free will, otherwise we'd all be robots, and no one wants to be loved by force (well, most people don't!).

It might seem like a waste of time, but some of it will be useful, as I'm sure you know. Aside from the money issues we all have when it comes to education, things we want, etc, there's always time in the future to go back to school to get educated in something else, too, if you find you wish you would have taken something else. Heh, I talk as if I've been there. I can see where you're coming from, though. We do need something to fall back on while we write, just in case. You said you changed your minor to psychology; maybe consider an additional career in that field? I always thought of being a vet's assistant, but I'd probably be sad every day. I can get too emotional when an animal is hurt, even when I know it will be all right. Plus, my allergies. I guess, in reality, I can try to do it if I take a shot at

[aldecoary]

I wasn't conufsed or annoyed; I find myself in a similar state of things often enough, feeling I have something big to say and just not knowing exactly how to proceed. That is when I want to rip out my soul and mind and brain and just hand it over for them to experience what I meant

Darn this wind; it's disturbing the connection

[garowyn]

*grin*

Next thing you know, you'll be coming up with a different theory in psychology for a specific part, present it to the world, and pick up some cash along the way. ;) And then you'll be in textbooks! Yeah, I should think more about it. I do watch now and then on how some things are done for certain animals. When I was younger, I wanted to run a dog shelter and gather all the strays, abandoned, and abused, but that will cost a lot of time and effort, not to mention money and resources. Didn't realize those parts at that age. ^_^ Plus, they need exercise, room, and space to run around in, too.

Not only that, the prices and rents are rising, too, aren't they? Well, around here, homes are more expensive than before.

(I just thought of Kenshin while I read that first sentence of yours!) =) Thanks. I don't expect anyone to follow or run with whatever I give, anyway. Sometimes it may not always be the best choice depending on my inexperience or lack of wisdom.

*hug* Gee, you're making me all sentimental again!

Bit of rain here, but we lost the wind. *sniffles*

[aldecoary]

I always wanted to collect unwanted animals too! Such as all the ones that would be put down in an animal shelter. And I wanted to run a wildlife refuge, too. I wanted to do a bunch with animals. Study wolves, own horses...

Everything keeps going up and probably will continue to do so. Except the money we make on money in the bank. That income stays low, naturally. *has blanked out on what this is called*

(I thought of him while writing it, hehe.)

Some sentimentality is good. Not to have any is worse than too much, I think. But maybe that's because I'm a sentimental person...