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[akuma_divine]

I hate my life right now. My mom thinks I'm crazy for "thinking" I'm transgender, I can hardly stand being trans anymore, I recently realized I'm at least ten thousand dollars (give or take ten years) away from top surgery, and I can't go unbound 'cause my chest is kinda huge

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[kitefeathers]

You can and /will/ get over this. Killing yourself is a pretty stupid option imho. Seriously. I've known a transgender that did off themself. It's fucking stupid/easy way out. Just find ways to cope for now, things will get better.

Also, forget your family. If they would abandon you just because you didn't behave/act/be the way they want you to be they're really selfish/closed minded (obviously). People put way too much trust/respect with their blood family just because their related, srsly. Why should you care about what someone thinks of you if they only want to push their own agendas/beliefs onto you?

Anyways, to sum things up. Don't kill yourself. Your family sounds pathetic, and I've got your back bro.

I accepted that I'll always be physically female. But I'm still a boy inside, my soul is male. That's good enough for me. I'm not saying that you should cope the way I do. But maybe small things like that could help you manage for now with not being physically the way you wanna be for now. Until you can get what you want.

[akuma_divine]

I can't forget my family. I know they're stupid, I know I obviously can't depend on them, but I seriously can't just cut them out of my life completely. It's like... some core, essential personality trait. I can't say for certain that they would abandon me completely, but they almost certainly wouldn't help me. I'm not saying I trust or respect them (except my grandparents, I respect them at least), but that they are unbelievably important to me. So is anyone I consider family, blood related or not. If I consider someone "family," I will need them in my life.

I won't kill myself. I know it's a really pathetic, selfish thing to do, so I really won't. I just wish this could be over sooner.

I'm just trying to take it one day at a time, so we'll see.