Fuck you, self-editing. Get back in your place and stop nerfing all my posts.

[akeyoftime]

As I've already asked a few of you; next time I feel really ill because of the fibromyalgia, please tell me to take a hike. Or go swimming. Or do some martial arts. I swam for about fifteen minutes yesterday in the midst of one of the worst days I've had all month (and you know, that's really saying something) and it was like flipping a switch.

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[le_savant_fou]

we are kindred fear-its. the only reason why I casted myself in my own show is because I know that I may try out for every show, but I won't get into a single one. I have confidence when I'm on stage, but I never fail to blow an audition.

[akeyoftime]

I know I should be giving myself more credit, but my chronic fatigue just makes me feel worse about it. (How can I be a good actor when I don't have the energy to bring to bear?) But I always find it at LARP. I used to do film and television auditions all the time, so that part of the process doesn't really scare me (I'm more scared of the failure, I guess? Though being fatigued like I am doesn't do much for my self-confidence), but what does freak me out is the potential need to improvise. That right there will cause me to freeze and panic and blow an otherwise solid audition. Or maybe I'm exagerating, but that's how it feels!

[partytodamascus]

i love a lot of the audition process. it keeps me on my toes!
but the inbreeding, seriously. dear lord, theatrecest. which is why i never fail to sign up to do any tech work i'm offered... at least that way i'm still involved.
fridge would be fun to act in, it'd be the only time i'd really do it, but i'm not going to hold my breath for a part, and i'm not going to let any opportunity pass me by.
ah well.