Comments | agurlnamebob: I hate myself

agurlnamebob

I hate myself

Apr 27, 2005 20:56

Why do we as human have to be so damn selfish. My mom is sick, and I don't want her to die because i'm not ready to let her go. I know she is in so much pain, and God i don't want her to suffer. But i don't think i could deal with losing her right now. I love her so much, and damn it she's my mom. But the doctors said there's nothing else they can ( Read more... )

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saintmediocrity April 28 2005, 03:28:41 UTC

I know we haven't spoken in a long time, but you can still talk to me if you need anything

agurlnamebob April 28 2005, 21:06:45 UTC

Who are you?

saintmediocrity April 29 2005, 00:14:09 UTC

ross

Selfish or Normal? loginner April 28 2005, 12:43:19 UTC

Being on the other side of the fence-suffering from a terminal disease myself and father of eight children - ages 11 to 33- I can understand your feelings completely. It is not unusual and hardly selfish.

Believe it or not we are thinking along the same lines becuase there isn't a parent worth their salt that doesn't want to be around to see their children reach maturity and be well on their way to a good life and happiness before they check out.

I've known "children" in their 70's who cursed a parent in their 90's or even 100's for dying and leaving them. So don't think you are selfish-you are just reacting very normally. We can only hope and pray that you and your mother both find peace. With sincerest best wishes and kind regards. Tom

Re: Selfish or Normal? agurlnamebob April 28 2005, 21:07:06 UTC

Do i know u?

Re: Selfish or Normal? loginner April 29 2005, 03:23:49 UTC

I haven't got a clue who you are but it would be terribly selfish of me not to try and give some encouragement where all I see is discouragement. If I have invaded your space or privacy sorry about that. I will keep my thoughts to myself in the future.

It'll be ok chungsong21 April 28 2005, 21:28:47 UTC

BJ all you can do is be there for her and comfort her as much as possible. Spend time with her as much as possible these last few days of her life. Remember that no matter what happens she will love you, even in death. Be strong for her BJ. May the last thing she sees on this Earth be your pretty smile that I know you have.*hugs*

Re: Selfish or Normal? dreamcast_man April 29 2005, 01:18:22 UTC

That's my dad. I just now realized who this was. How'd you get my journal?

Re: Selfish or Normal? agurlnamebob April 29 2005, 02:06:51 UTC

Loginner replied and i was tryin to figure out who he was and i saw ur picture.