*peer*

[aggression]

I went to sleep ok when I finally got there.
I woke up broken.
I felt an urge to be "here."
I also felt an urge to break things.....people....whatever.
My reset button is apparently broken.
Anyone have a spare?

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[n3m3sis42]

Did some specific external event happen to make you broken? Or is this an internal Beta thing?

Either way, I hope you feel better soon.

Also, I would like to see you soon. And I am living in Gwinnett again now (albeit the faraway BFE part), so there is no excuse for us not making time for each other! I don't have a lot of money to spend there, but I'd be happy to meet you at D&B (which is like 15 minutes or less away) and just follow you around while you game (and play a minimal amount myself).

[aggression]

It's both internal and external. There have been recent events which scrambled my brain. Coupled with internal voices that don't make sense and no real sounding board to bounce them off of, I got cluttered again.

It will all sort itself out eventually but in the meantime it's hard for me to wrestle with all the feelings I have rushing around.

I feel backed into a corner. I feel betrayed. I feel threatened.
These feelings make me uneasy and put me close to wanting to lash out at the closest thing I can find.
This is why I usually just go "anti-social" for a bit.
I don't want to "release" upon someone.

I almost wish I was still a bouncer.

[n3m3sis42]

If you want to talk (though it doesn't sound like you feel able to right now), my ears are open. Not that I'm really the best listener, but I'm not all that easily offended either.