Fic: After the Camping There Was . . . Part 6/?
TITLE: After the Camping There Was . . . Part 6/?
AUTHOR: Sarah
RATING: PG-13
PARINGS: Addison/Izzie
DISCLAIMER: Not mine, otherwise everyday would be Izzie/Addie day :D
WORD COUNT: 2855
SUMMARY: Sequel to Camping in Luxury which was the sequel to The Clichés of Camping
NOTES: I am back and so here lies the update some of you have been waiting for . . . oh and there’s been a lot of Izzie/Addie love while I’ve been gone, I have some catching up to do!
“What?”
“Iz you hea-“
“No, say it again, I need you to say it again.”
“Izzie please.”
“Addison, just say it again.”
The red head sighed in defeat, throwing her head back against the pillow. “I’m pregnant.”
Izzie remained shocked beyond belief, her eyes were wide and her mouth was doing a great impression of a fish. “Ok, ok, so, how did this happen?” the blonde collected her thoughts, closing her eyes as she did so. “But more importantly, when did this happen?” Addison reached out to take Izzie’s hand, but the blonde pulled away albeit reluctantly.
“I’m 10 weeks, so, you do the math.”
“This isn’t the time to be smart Addison.” Izzie snapped.
“I’m sorry. I had a few dates with a guy, I slept with him once, I didn’t . . .”
“You had unprotected sex with a stranger?” Izzie said in disbelief.
“No, yes, no, I don’t know, it was once, I was drunk, I was in a weird place at a difficult time.”
“I can’t believe this.” Izzie finally said how she was feeling.
“Izzie.” Addison stated, she didn’t know what else to say.
“What does this mean for us?” the blonde asked, a small tear making a track down her forlorn face.
“That is up to you. My feelings for you haven’t changed Izzie, only the situation is a little different.” Addison reassured.
“Seriously? It’s huge, it’s life changing.”
“I’m sorry.” The redhead said, she was feeling lost and scared herself and really needed Izzie onside with this, but understood the emotions the blonde was experiencing.
“You’re keeping it then?” Izzie said, almost a little too blaze, she saw the flicker of hurt in Addison’s eyes at the mere suggestion of not keeping the baby.
“Yes, of course I am keeping my baby. I have wanted this for so long.”
“Did you plan this? I mean . . .”
“How dare you suggest I would do such a thing.” Addison’s anger apparent in her harsh tone.
“Right, I’m sorry, because you are the highest moral being.” Izzie folded her arms her demeanour challenging like she was spoiling for a fight.
“What happened in the past is just that Izzie. I made mistakes, and I paid the prices.” The attending explained.
“That’s evident.” Izzie smirked.
“I understand this is hard for you Izzie, it is for me too.” Addison was fighting back the tears, trying to remain in control of herself, but the stubborn blonde intern was unravelling Addison’s emotions with every word. Izzie looked at her girlfriend’s face, finally realising her reaction was a selfish one.
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said those hurtful things. You’re right, it is hard for both of us and I don’t know how to handle this. I don’t know if it’s what I want.” She explained sadly.
Addison could not hold the tears back any longer and silently let them fall from her eyes, like droplets of rain from the clouds. She wanted Izzie to be a part of her family, but it would be a huge commitment to the young blonde who had only just started out her career. The redhead thought back to when she was intern and the last thing she had wanted then was a family to hold back her career, perhaps Izzie would be thinking the same thing.
“He was blonde haired, brown eyed.” Addison said out of the blue through her tears.
“What? What are you talking about?” Izzie said, looking back up at Addison.
“The guy I dated, his name doesn’t matter, but he had blonde hair and brown eyes.” Addison spoke wistfully, daring a glance at the blonde. The significance of the attending’s words suddenly dawned on Izzie.
“Like me.” She whispered.
“Like you.” Addison whispered back. “I didn’t think I could ever have you.” She spoke a little louder.
“I, I don’t know what to say.” Izzie said honestly.
“You don’t have to say anything right now.” Said Addison.
“I don’t know what to do.” The blonde’s tears started to fall from brown eyes once again. She stood suddenly. “I have to, I should go, I need, I really need to go, I can’t stay here, not like this.” She rambled, walking backwards towards the door, looking at the floor.
“Izzie please.” Addison pleaded.
“Not now Addie. I need to think.” Izzie said, glancing up briefly, catching the confusion and fear in Addison’s eyes. “Not now.” She repeated and turned, and left. The hospital room was now in complete silence, Addison contemplating the whole scenario that had just transpired, the range of emotions she had witnessed her girlfriend travel and the way she had gone through them too. She barely believed this was all real and all too frequently believed she would wake from the dream any moment, until the harsh reality reared it’s head with a wave of nausea.
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“Ohmygod, what happened? What has she done?” Meredith blasted out as she ran from the front door into the kitchen following the waft of baking hitting her nostrils as she turned the key in the door.
“I’m baking.” Izzie announced. “Why can’t I just bake?” Meredith raised her eyebrows disbelieving the statement.
“Seriously Iz? You don’t, ‘just bake’. Now, what has she done to make you bake.”
“Nothing.” Izzie dismissed, “We had words, that’s all.”
“They must have been some pretty strong words.”
“Meredith, butt out.” Izzie snapped, Meredith raised her hands in defeat.
“Ok, ok, I’ll zip it.”
“Keep it zipped, if I want to talk, I’ll talk, but just let me bake.”
“Sure, I’ll go clean the bathroom floor if you feel a need to stay in there a while when you’re done.” Izzie shot daggers with her eyes at her friends, if looks could kill, Meredith was gone. “Wrong choice of words. I’ll be at Derek’s” Meredith said, now realising Izzie needed some time to be alone.
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“Dr Montgomery, can I have a word for a moment please?” Miranda Bailey said as she walked up beside Addison who was heading for the hospital exit.
“Sure.”
“I didn’t get a chance before you left your room earlier. Are you ok?”
“I’m fine.”
“And the baby’s father?” She asked, Addison glanced around making sure no one had over heard her.
“Can we do this another time, preferably in private?” Addison asked.
“You looked worried when I told you and I would have talked to you more about it before I was beeped.”
“I understand, the father is not in the picture.”
“Oh. Ok.” Bailey said. “Is there anyone else?”
“What is this, freaking twenty questions?”
“I was thinking more along the lines of the Spanish Inquisition, but we can go with yours if you’d prefer.” Bailey’s response elicited a smile from Montgomery, she had a quick wit, it was the first time Addison had smiled that day.
“Thanks Miranda for showing an interest. But right now, I need to go home and have a long hot bath.”
“You’re going to need to move out of that hotel soon Addison.”
Bailey was right, she could not continue living in a hotel with a baby on the way, besides, Izzie was going apartment hunting with her. Or that had been the plan, maybe she would now have to go on her own. The thought dragged her down once again, her tired eyes hanging on to the tears. Bailey realised she had hit a nerve and made her excuses before leaving Addison alone just outside of the hospital entrance. Addison looked at the big building before her and thought about the significance and impact it had had on her life over the past few years. She remembered walking out a year or two previously willing herself to not look back at the eager young intern who she had left in the care of a critically ill quintuplet, then she had willed herself not to cry, to not look back at Izzie’s face as she left her to fight for a tiny life who had no chance of survival. She had thought it would make Izzie stronger, make her a better doctor and in some aspects it had, but she regretted causing the intern pain and the anguish she had gone through with the ordeal. Izzie was rapidly becoming a brilliant doctor, every day showing promise and proving she has what it takes. To Addison, her progress was outstanding and somewhat understated, Izzie was modest and carried out her duties with minimal fuss and one hundred per cent effort, no case or patient was bigger than another. Addison thought about her bedside manner, the rapport she had with the mothers and families and how gentle and caring she was with the babies. Izzie carried a natural motherly aura, Addison had witnessed on many occasions the ease with which Izzie would nurture and care for a baby and made a mental note that the blonde would make a wonderful mother, and secretly wished that it would be her children the intern would mother, but never did she realise it could be so soon.
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Izzie ignored the shrill of her cell phone, she was elbow deep in some cake mix or another, the phone call would just have to wait. She was baking, and thinking and baking and even more thinking. She could not stop the tirade of thoughts rushing through her head, like a battering ram bashing through a barricaded door. There was resistance on Izzie’s part, but she could not stop the thoughts from crowding her. She was so happy with Addison, she wanted nothing more than to have a future with the attending, but now everything had changed, hadn’t it? She was young, starting her career, in a beautiful relationship with the most amazing woman on the planet, she smiled at that thought, she was head over heels in love with the woman, but had yet to declare it. And now this. Addison had slept with a guy, who may have resembled her a couple of weeks before they hooked up on the camping trip. And what a camping trip it was. She veered off track. It was strange, she thought, that Addison had admitted to the guy baring some resemblance to herself, maybe she was making the point she had been attracted to Izzie before anything had happened between them, which was a pleasant thought, but sleeping with a guy as a potential replacement? Very strange Izzie thought, but then Addison was right, she had been through a lot and she was lonely, of course she would date. But now she was pregnant with this blonde haired browned eyed fella’s baby. What were the chances it would be born blonde? That way, however odd it may seem, the baby would bare some resemblance to Izzie, even if it was only the colour of the hair. Izzie loved babies, that’s why she wanted work with them and their mothers and families, it gave her satisfaction and she loved her job, she especially loved working with Addison. Dr Montgomery was the best in her field and being her pupil was a huge privilege and an honour, and now she wanted Izzie to be a part of her family. Izzie didn’t know if she could give up her relatively free life to be tied to a child who in no way would be biologically linked to her. But at the same time she didn’t want to lose Addison. She sighed, there was far too much thinking to be done.
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Addison awoke startled, she heard a faint knocking and looked towards the door of her room. She glanced at the clock beside her bed, 11.30pm, not too late, but still, most people would be sleeping by now surely. The knocking failed to stop, she swung her legs round and stood from the bed, padding across the carpet in her bare feet and a beautiful purple and black silk and laced negligee. She didn’t think to look into the peep hole as she swung the door open in one movement. She squinted her eyes at the sudden burst of light, peering through the gap she made out a blurry figure, she slowly opened her eyes fully, adjusting to the light, a sheepish looking blonde holding a basket was stood before her.
“Izzie.” She sighed, almost relieved.
“Hey, I brought you muffins.” The blonde replied.
“Thanks, come in.” Addison offered standing back allowing the blonde to proceed into the room. Izzie placed the basket down on a table and turned to look at Addison who had followed her in.
“Wow.” The blonde let slip, immediately covering her mouth with her hand. “Sorry.” She mumbled.
“It’s ok Iz.” Addison was pleased Izzie still found her hot. “So, other than the muffins was there anything else?”
“I’m sorry it’s so late, I couldn’t sleep and I have a million and one things going on in my head, but I really, really needed to see you.” Izzie rattled. Addison smiled at her girlfriend and slowly walked over to her.
“Are you ok? You’ve been baking.” She stated.
“No and yes. I’m not ok, because, well, bombshell and yes, I’ve been baking, I had to think and the more I thought, the more I baked and then I tried to get some rest but more thinking.” Izzie laughed nervously. She rushed over to Addison and hugged her tightly. “I’m sorry, I just needed to touch you, to feel you.”
“Shhhh, it’s ok.” Addison squeezed back. “Would it help if we talked?”
Izzie nodded against Addison’s shoulder, “Yes, I can’t speak to anyone else, I thought I could deal with it myself but I can’t and then I realised you must be having a similar problem.”
“Yeah,” Addison began, “Bailey tried to get me talking, but nu huh, no way.” She smiled.
“Can we go to bed?” Izzie asked.
“Of course.” Addison said. The attending lead them over to the bed and climbed in, Izzie stripped to her underwear and followed Addison under the covers, laying her head on her girlfriend’s shoulder.
“This is all so surreal.” The blonde began, Addison nodded her head in agreement. “I can’t get my head round it. All I know Addie is that I am so in love with you, I can’t function properly without you.” Izzie admitted. Addison placed a couple of fingers underneath Izzie’s chin and gently forced the blonde to look at her. Izzie was afraid, but when she looked into the depths of Addison’s ocean blue eyes she felt nothing but love returned.
“I love you too Izzie.”
“This has thrown me off balance you know?”
“Me too sweetheart, I never expected this. I was looking forward to slowly building a future with you, and then this.”
“I know, I wanted for so long for it to be just you and me and now . . .”
“Izzie, I’m sorry, I . . .”
“Accidents happen.” She said, “Addie, there’s something I need to tell you.”
“What, what is it?” The attending sounded panicked slightly.
“When I was younger, a lot lot younger, I had a baby.” Izzie paused. Addison gasped slightly at the revelation but urged Izzie to continue, “I gave birth, and I had her adopted. I couldn’t give her the life she deserved. I lived in a trailer with my useless mother and I was still at school.” Addison hugged her tightly and kissed the top of her head.
“Oh Izzie.” The redhead sighed.
“I wanted you to know, that I’ve been through this and I’m sorry I was so harsh to you before I was being selfish and I didn’t stop to consider how you might be feeling, especially when I walked out on you.”
“It’s ok.”
“No, it’s not.” Izzie stated, she leaned in and kissed Addison, she had longed to do so all day. “Let’s take one day at a time and get used to the fact we are going to be a family.”
“You sure you want to do this?” Addison asked cautiously.
“Yes. Addison Forbes Montgomery, I want to have your baby.” Izzie smiled.
“You do?” The redhead said, still not quite convinced.
“I do.” Izzie said rolling her eyes, and proceeded to kiss Addison, her tongue inviting itself into the redhead’s mouth, slipping past her lips and nestling into the warm cavity, seeking it’s mate and caressing it with gentle loving strokes. Izzie stroked her hand over Addison, gently squeezing her breast before skirting over her abdomen and rested firmly on her stomach. Addison placed her own hand over Izzie’s and broke the kiss, looking firmly into the soft brown, promising eyes of her lover.
“We’re going to be a family.” She whispered, a smile beaming across her face.
“We are.” Izzie confirmed, sealing the deal with another kiss.
AUTHOR: Sarah
RATING: PG-13
PARINGS: Addison/Izzie
DISCLAIMER: Not mine, otherwise everyday would be Izzie/Addie day :D
WORD COUNT: 2855
SUMMARY: Sequel to Camping in Luxury which was the sequel to The Clichés of Camping
NOTES: I am back and so here lies the update some of you have been waiting for . . . oh and there’s been a lot of Izzie/Addie love while I’ve been gone, I have some catching up to do!
“What?”
“Iz you hea-“
“No, say it again, I need you to say it again.”
“Izzie please.”
“Addison, just say it again.”
The red head sighed in defeat, throwing her head back against the pillow. “I’m pregnant.”
Izzie remained shocked beyond belief, her eyes were wide and her mouth was doing a great impression of a fish. “Ok, ok, so, how did this happen?” the blonde collected her thoughts, closing her eyes as she did so. “But more importantly, when did this happen?” Addison reached out to take Izzie’s hand, but the blonde pulled away albeit reluctantly.
“I’m 10 weeks, so, you do the math.”
“This isn’t the time to be smart Addison.” Izzie snapped.
“I’m sorry. I had a few dates with a guy, I slept with him once, I didn’t . . .”
“You had unprotected sex with a stranger?” Izzie said in disbelief.
“No, yes, no, I don’t know, it was once, I was drunk, I was in a weird place at a difficult time.”
“I can’t believe this.” Izzie finally said how she was feeling.
“Izzie.” Addison stated, she didn’t know what else to say.
“What does this mean for us?” the blonde asked, a small tear making a track down her forlorn face.
“That is up to you. My feelings for you haven’t changed Izzie, only the situation is a little different.” Addison reassured.
“Seriously? It’s huge, it’s life changing.”
“I’m sorry.” The redhead said, she was feeling lost and scared herself and really needed Izzie onside with this, but understood the emotions the blonde was experiencing.
“You’re keeping it then?” Izzie said, almost a little too blaze, she saw the flicker of hurt in Addison’s eyes at the mere suggestion of not keeping the baby.
“Yes, of course I am keeping my baby. I have wanted this for so long.”
“Did you plan this? I mean . . .”
“How dare you suggest I would do such a thing.” Addison’s anger apparent in her harsh tone.
“Right, I’m sorry, because you are the highest moral being.” Izzie folded her arms her demeanour challenging like she was spoiling for a fight.
“What happened in the past is just that Izzie. I made mistakes, and I paid the prices.” The attending explained.
“That’s evident.” Izzie smirked.
“I understand this is hard for you Izzie, it is for me too.” Addison was fighting back the tears, trying to remain in control of herself, but the stubborn blonde intern was unravelling Addison’s emotions with every word. Izzie looked at her girlfriend’s face, finally realising her reaction was a selfish one.
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said those hurtful things. You’re right, it is hard for both of us and I don’t know how to handle this. I don’t know if it’s what I want.” She explained sadly.
Addison could not hold the tears back any longer and silently let them fall from her eyes, like droplets of rain from the clouds. She wanted Izzie to be a part of her family, but it would be a huge commitment to the young blonde who had only just started out her career. The redhead thought back to when she was intern and the last thing she had wanted then was a family to hold back her career, perhaps Izzie would be thinking the same thing.
“He was blonde haired, brown eyed.” Addison said out of the blue through her tears.
“What? What are you talking about?” Izzie said, looking back up at Addison.
“The guy I dated, his name doesn’t matter, but he had blonde hair and brown eyes.” Addison spoke wistfully, daring a glance at the blonde. The significance of the attending’s words suddenly dawned on Izzie.
“Like me.” She whispered.
“Like you.” Addison whispered back. “I didn’t think I could ever have you.” She spoke a little louder.
“I, I don’t know what to say.” Izzie said honestly.
“You don’t have to say anything right now.” Said Addison.
“I don’t know what to do.” The blonde’s tears started to fall from brown eyes once again. She stood suddenly. “I have to, I should go, I need, I really need to go, I can’t stay here, not like this.” She rambled, walking backwards towards the door, looking at the floor.
“Izzie please.” Addison pleaded.
“Not now Addie. I need to think.” Izzie said, glancing up briefly, catching the confusion and fear in Addison’s eyes. “Not now.” She repeated and turned, and left. The hospital room was now in complete silence, Addison contemplating the whole scenario that had just transpired, the range of emotions she had witnessed her girlfriend travel and the way she had gone through them too. She barely believed this was all real and all too frequently believed she would wake from the dream any moment, until the harsh reality reared it’s head with a wave of nausea.
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“Ohmygod, what happened? What has she done?” Meredith blasted out as she ran from the front door into the kitchen following the waft of baking hitting her nostrils as she turned the key in the door.
“I’m baking.” Izzie announced. “Why can’t I just bake?” Meredith raised her eyebrows disbelieving the statement.
“Seriously Iz? You don’t, ‘just bake’. Now, what has she done to make you bake.”
“Nothing.” Izzie dismissed, “We had words, that’s all.”
“They must have been some pretty strong words.”
“Meredith, butt out.” Izzie snapped, Meredith raised her hands in defeat.
“Ok, ok, I’ll zip it.”
“Keep it zipped, if I want to talk, I’ll talk, but just let me bake.”
“Sure, I’ll go clean the bathroom floor if you feel a need to stay in there a while when you’re done.” Izzie shot daggers with her eyes at her friends, if looks could kill, Meredith was gone. “Wrong choice of words. I’ll be at Derek’s” Meredith said, now realising Izzie needed some time to be alone.
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“Dr Montgomery, can I have a word for a moment please?” Miranda Bailey said as she walked up beside Addison who was heading for the hospital exit.
“Sure.”
“I didn’t get a chance before you left your room earlier. Are you ok?”
“I’m fine.”
“And the baby’s father?” She asked, Addison glanced around making sure no one had over heard her.
“Can we do this another time, preferably in private?” Addison asked.
“You looked worried when I told you and I would have talked to you more about it before I was beeped.”
“I understand, the father is not in the picture.”
“Oh. Ok.” Bailey said. “Is there anyone else?”
“What is this, freaking twenty questions?”
“I was thinking more along the lines of the Spanish Inquisition, but we can go with yours if you’d prefer.” Bailey’s response elicited a smile from Montgomery, she had a quick wit, it was the first time Addison had smiled that day.
“Thanks Miranda for showing an interest. But right now, I need to go home and have a long hot bath.”
“You’re going to need to move out of that hotel soon Addison.”
Bailey was right, she could not continue living in a hotel with a baby on the way, besides, Izzie was going apartment hunting with her. Or that had been the plan, maybe she would now have to go on her own. The thought dragged her down once again, her tired eyes hanging on to the tears. Bailey realised she had hit a nerve and made her excuses before leaving Addison alone just outside of the hospital entrance. Addison looked at the big building before her and thought about the significance and impact it had had on her life over the past few years. She remembered walking out a year or two previously willing herself to not look back at the eager young intern who she had left in the care of a critically ill quintuplet, then she had willed herself not to cry, to not look back at Izzie’s face as she left her to fight for a tiny life who had no chance of survival. She had thought it would make Izzie stronger, make her a better doctor and in some aspects it had, but she regretted causing the intern pain and the anguish she had gone through with the ordeal. Izzie was rapidly becoming a brilliant doctor, every day showing promise and proving she has what it takes. To Addison, her progress was outstanding and somewhat understated, Izzie was modest and carried out her duties with minimal fuss and one hundred per cent effort, no case or patient was bigger than another. Addison thought about her bedside manner, the rapport she had with the mothers and families and how gentle and caring she was with the babies. Izzie carried a natural motherly aura, Addison had witnessed on many occasions the ease with which Izzie would nurture and care for a baby and made a mental note that the blonde would make a wonderful mother, and secretly wished that it would be her children the intern would mother, but never did she realise it could be so soon.
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Izzie ignored the shrill of her cell phone, she was elbow deep in some cake mix or another, the phone call would just have to wait. She was baking, and thinking and baking and even more thinking. She could not stop the tirade of thoughts rushing through her head, like a battering ram bashing through a barricaded door. There was resistance on Izzie’s part, but she could not stop the thoughts from crowding her. She was so happy with Addison, she wanted nothing more than to have a future with the attending, but now everything had changed, hadn’t it? She was young, starting her career, in a beautiful relationship with the most amazing woman on the planet, she smiled at that thought, she was head over heels in love with the woman, but had yet to declare it. And now this. Addison had slept with a guy, who may have resembled her a couple of weeks before they hooked up on the camping trip. And what a camping trip it was. She veered off track. It was strange, she thought, that Addison had admitted to the guy baring some resemblance to herself, maybe she was making the point she had been attracted to Izzie before anything had happened between them, which was a pleasant thought, but sleeping with a guy as a potential replacement? Very strange Izzie thought, but then Addison was right, she had been through a lot and she was lonely, of course she would date. But now she was pregnant with this blonde haired browned eyed fella’s baby. What were the chances it would be born blonde? That way, however odd it may seem, the baby would bare some resemblance to Izzie, even if it was only the colour of the hair. Izzie loved babies, that’s why she wanted work with them and their mothers and families, it gave her satisfaction and she loved her job, she especially loved working with Addison. Dr Montgomery was the best in her field and being her pupil was a huge privilege and an honour, and now she wanted Izzie to be a part of her family. Izzie didn’t know if she could give up her relatively free life to be tied to a child who in no way would be biologically linked to her. But at the same time she didn’t want to lose Addison. She sighed, there was far too much thinking to be done.
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Addison awoke startled, she heard a faint knocking and looked towards the door of her room. She glanced at the clock beside her bed, 11.30pm, not too late, but still, most people would be sleeping by now surely. The knocking failed to stop, she swung her legs round and stood from the bed, padding across the carpet in her bare feet and a beautiful purple and black silk and laced negligee. She didn’t think to look into the peep hole as she swung the door open in one movement. She squinted her eyes at the sudden burst of light, peering through the gap she made out a blurry figure, she slowly opened her eyes fully, adjusting to the light, a sheepish looking blonde holding a basket was stood before her.
“Izzie.” She sighed, almost relieved.
“Hey, I brought you muffins.” The blonde replied.
“Thanks, come in.” Addison offered standing back allowing the blonde to proceed into the room. Izzie placed the basket down on a table and turned to look at Addison who had followed her in.
“Wow.” The blonde let slip, immediately covering her mouth with her hand. “Sorry.” She mumbled.
“It’s ok Iz.” Addison was pleased Izzie still found her hot. “So, other than the muffins was there anything else?”
“I’m sorry it’s so late, I couldn’t sleep and I have a million and one things going on in my head, but I really, really needed to see you.” Izzie rattled. Addison smiled at her girlfriend and slowly walked over to her.
“Are you ok? You’ve been baking.” She stated.
“No and yes. I’m not ok, because, well, bombshell and yes, I’ve been baking, I had to think and the more I thought, the more I baked and then I tried to get some rest but more thinking.” Izzie laughed nervously. She rushed over to Addison and hugged her tightly. “I’m sorry, I just needed to touch you, to feel you.”
“Shhhh, it’s ok.” Addison squeezed back. “Would it help if we talked?”
Izzie nodded against Addison’s shoulder, “Yes, I can’t speak to anyone else, I thought I could deal with it myself but I can’t and then I realised you must be having a similar problem.”
“Yeah,” Addison began, “Bailey tried to get me talking, but nu huh, no way.” She smiled.
“Can we go to bed?” Izzie asked.
“Of course.” Addison said. The attending lead them over to the bed and climbed in, Izzie stripped to her underwear and followed Addison under the covers, laying her head on her girlfriend’s shoulder.
“This is all so surreal.” The blonde began, Addison nodded her head in agreement. “I can’t get my head round it. All I know Addie is that I am so in love with you, I can’t function properly without you.” Izzie admitted. Addison placed a couple of fingers underneath Izzie’s chin and gently forced the blonde to look at her. Izzie was afraid, but when she looked into the depths of Addison’s ocean blue eyes she felt nothing but love returned.
“I love you too Izzie.”
“This has thrown me off balance you know?”
“Me too sweetheart, I never expected this. I was looking forward to slowly building a future with you, and then this.”
“I know, I wanted for so long for it to be just you and me and now . . .”
“Izzie, I’m sorry, I . . .”
“Accidents happen.” She said, “Addie, there’s something I need to tell you.”
“What, what is it?” The attending sounded panicked slightly.
“When I was younger, a lot lot younger, I had a baby.” Izzie paused. Addison gasped slightly at the revelation but urged Izzie to continue, “I gave birth, and I had her adopted. I couldn’t give her the life she deserved. I lived in a trailer with my useless mother and I was still at school.” Addison hugged her tightly and kissed the top of her head.
“Oh Izzie.” The redhead sighed.
“I wanted you to know, that I’ve been through this and I’m sorry I was so harsh to you before I was being selfish and I didn’t stop to consider how you might be feeling, especially when I walked out on you.”
“It’s ok.”
“No, it’s not.” Izzie stated, she leaned in and kissed Addison, she had longed to do so all day. “Let’s take one day at a time and get used to the fact we are going to be a family.”
“You sure you want to do this?” Addison asked cautiously.
“Yes. Addison Forbes Montgomery, I want to have your baby.” Izzie smiled.
“You do?” The redhead said, still not quite convinced.
“I do.” Izzie said rolling her eyes, and proceeded to kiss Addison, her tongue inviting itself into the redhead’s mouth, slipping past her lips and nestling into the warm cavity, seeking it’s mate and caressing it with gentle loving strokes. Izzie stroked her hand over Addison, gently squeezing her breast before skirting over her abdomen and rested firmly on her stomach. Addison placed her own hand over Izzie’s and broke the kiss, looking firmly into the soft brown, promising eyes of her lover.
“We’re going to be a family.” She whispered, a smile beaming across her face.
“We are.” Izzie confirmed, sealing the deal with another kiss.