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[aetheldaeg]

T-Dog (our oldest daughter nick-name for Teddy) decided that 5:00am was a good time to get up today....Okay, not really happy about it but I figured that it would give me extra time to work a swap card

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[opakele]

You have my complete understanding and sympathy. I think you have it worse than normal right now. There is nothing wrong with that. I do it too. I have my ups and my downs. Every once in a while the downs are extreme. It is hormonal, except, we don't get to have hormones.

Almost 2 years, girl. Two years, No More Chemo.

I was complaining about turning 50 and someone said, "But, you are alive...". It stopped me. I was acting like I never had cancer, like my old self. How quickly I have forgotten?

I don't know, and maybe I'm not helping. Please, be gentle with yourself.

[aetheldaeg]

I wonder if some of our difficulty is seasonally driven. I've never been officially diagnosed with SAD but I had a very difficult time getting up in the morning during the dark winter months and I'm more moody too.

adventurine wrote this to me when I wrote about missing some "cancer" anniversary and was totally shocked. I liked it so much it's now in the sidebar of my journal. I share it with you:
Time has a way of taking the sharp edges off of *painful* life experiences...
And we move into a space in time where sunrises are brighter and sunsets more breathtaking...
We learn to be good to ourselves and not feel guilty about it...
We learn not to sweat the small stuff...
We laugh more...
We become more appreciative of what a precious gift life really is...
~ adventurineYou didn't forget but you have moved on. We have both moved on, moving forward believing and hoping that "cancer" will never walk with us again. There are still daily reminders like scars and chemo brain but cancer doesn't hang over us like the sword of Damocles