Comments | aefallen: Dearest Shi-O, was I really such a naughty boy?

aefallen

Dearest Shi-O, was I really such a naughty boy?

May 23, 2007 21:09

It's so strange when you chance upon accounts of the way you used to be, written by other people. Reading one's own LJ entries can still come as a surprise - case in point, I used to be like this, and though it was written one-and-a-half years ago, it's so irrepressibly genki and high-on-life that I'm amazed at how I've changed since then ( Read more... )

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*snug snug* orphen May 23 2007, 18:33:43 UTC

You used to live in Boston! Do you recall which area? I visit there regularly, heck, I'm going there in another month! Would you like pictures? <3

I think I've sounded the same all my life...actually, I might be the opposite. I think I sound more...energetic now than I ever have before. I emo a lot, but I did more so back then.
But you know what I think it is? I think you still ARE a happy, fun girl~
I just think the times have made you just a bit more serious and you've been so busy with things, but your energetic self is still there! <3 ( ... )

THAT. Has got to be one of the best childhood stories I've ever heard. aefallen May 23 2007, 19:50:20 UTC

Yeah! *grin* We used to live on Brookline Avenue, here. You go to Boston regularly? *grin* Isn't that really far up for you? (Your brother lives there?) !Thank you for the lovely offer, but I don't want you to go out of your way! *grin* I have photographs of my time there - of me as a kid, attempting to wear a pillow on my head, running around an apple orchard, attempting to grab a dandelion, playing in the autumn leaves - I was two and a half when I was there. XD You're going up again for the anime convention, right? ;) HAVE FUN ♥ Makes me wish I was still there so I could see you! ;)

*hugs you tight for the emo!* Still, I'm glad that you're happier and less-emo now: if only all of us did that in the course of our lives! *grin* And thank you for your kind words: it gives me hope in myself. *griiin* I like being happy and fun the best, and I want to be that way, because I notice that happy people make others happy best, and I really like making people happy ( ... )

Re: THAT. Has got to be one of the best childhood stories I've ever heard. orphen May 24 2007, 05:26:32 UTC

LOL! I've been there! We always walk that entire area. :3
Well, technically he's not related to me by blood or family ties, he's someone I met online 5 years ago and the only guy I trust. So, he's like a brother to me. :D
But, yes, he's coming to California with me June 29, then July 2 we fly back to Boston to bum around. I love visiting Salem, that's my sort of town. <3 ( ... )

aefallen May 24 2007, 16:07:28 UTC

You walk that area! *grin* The world, it is SMALLER than I thought it'd be! *grin* When you're there, just imagine tiny!me going all wide-eyed over the pigeons and running around in a scarlet parka ( ... )

risax May 23 2007, 20:54:05 UTC

I've been reminiscing a lot recently too - a couple of weeks ago I suddenly wanted to listen to FM93.3 again - and I haven't listened to that station since I was 13! The dedication programme that I used to listen to everyday was on and it was as if nothing had changed. Then they started playing this Jeff Chang song circa 1996 and that brought up a whole lot of memories ( ... )

aefallen May 24 2007, 15:34:17 UTC

The funny thing is - as I get older, I seem to reminisce more? Maybe it's just that as I get older there are more memories to reminisce from. And oh, man. Emil Chau songs have the same effect on me as Jeff Chang songs have on you. I hope that the songs bring back good memories, or even if they are bad memories, I hope that the passing of the years makes their memory better ( ... )

tinted_glass May 24 2007, 00:32:13 UTC

*smiles* We most certainly do change over time. Our life stories are always evolving. :) I'm actually taking a course on life stories and personal narratives at the moment, and it has been a real eye opener! I always used to think that everyone's life story, their "this is who I am and how I got here's" were simple collections of past events that shaped the person, that made them who they are in the here and now, but there's so much more to the construction of self-perception than that. There's the relationships between the events to take into account, not only between the ones in the distant past but between the ones that happened a year ago, a week ago, are happening in the present. It's about how a person in the present seeks narrative coherency first and foremost, and will, if necessary, reinterpret past events--will actually reinterpret who he used to be--in order to best illustrate who he is now, this person who he thinks is the "real" him, but who will inevitably change in the future. *smile* I think that's part of the ( ... )

actually, communication theory sounds fascinating! aefallen May 24 2007, 15:49:56 UTC

Actually, I really liked that! It was fascinating, and I wasn't aware of the actual theories and practice behind personal narratives before. And you're taking a course on them! ;) I hope that you're having fun, and even if the course seems like it can get tough, I think you're learning a great deal? *grin*

It's about how a person in the present seeks narrative coherency first and foremost, and will, if necessary, reinterpret past events--will actually reinterpret who he used to be--in order to best illustrate who he is now, this person who he thinks is the "real" him, but who will inevitably change in the future.I think that's incredibly intriguing. Our concept of self changes with time and is never static, and it seems that our perception of self changes with it, too. Reading this line actually made me think of Fight Club, as well. Reinterpretation is a fascinating word for this process - a layman might simply call it maturity, that we are now able to see ourselves more clearly when distance and time gives us perspective ( ... )

*griiin* IT IS, IT REALLY IS. And *smile* you have an angel!Dexter icon now, too! tinted_glass May 25 2007, 12:14:06 UTC

Reading this line actually made me think of Fight Club, as well
*LAUGHS* Either you know me TOO WELL (or the novel/movie too well!), or perhaps we think on similar wave lengths, because I WAS THINKING THE SAME THING. XDD I was so tempted to include the line "everything is evolving; everything is falling apart" in there somewhere. I am so geeky. :PP

Of course, we musn't forget denial.
*grins* No, we musn't. I actually think it's amazing how most people would say denial is a negative trait? (And I concede that it can be, if one denies such things as robbing a bank when one's prints are all over the money bag) but in terms of personal narratives, denial is actually a good trait to have because it is a mark of narrative coherency. XD; If a person actively seeks to deny a chunk of his past life story, it is probably because he recognizes a discontinuity between his "then" and his "now". Denial is the narrative tool used to FIX that person's perceived autobiographical disruption, and is thus an entirely HEALTHY practice so long as ( ... )