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adpaz

LJ Idol, Topic 2 - The Terror Within

Nov 14, 2007 09:01

I've been reading over most of the posts made thus far and each one has brought me to a similar fear.

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flutterbychild November 14 2007, 16:30:31 UTC

I very much understand, as I struggle on a daily basis...

adpaz November 16 2007, 10:18:04 UTC

I know, love. And I wish there were more I could do to help you with it. You know my ear is ALWAYS open if you want to talk.

mme_furiosa November 14 2007, 17:05:49 UTC

Yikes, very scary. The Hamlet monologue "to be or not to be" is still the most oft-performed piece of theater for a reason: we all hold the power of life and death in our hands. It takes strength to live, knowing that you don't have to.

Thanks for this piece.

adpaz November 16 2007, 10:19:28 UTC

You're welcome. It's been an uphill battle, but I'm lucky enough to have very good people walking it with me and pulling me back when I get too close to the edge.

lordrexfear November 14 2007, 17:10:59 UTC

I can't think of many worse terrors then having a knife ready to off yourself and realizing "What am I doing?"

adpaz November 16 2007, 10:20:36 UTC

When Rich read this comment, he replied to me, "Only one. Having pulled the knife across and realizing 'What have I done?'" I've been there, too - though luckily I didn't cut deeply either time.

libra_dragon November 14 2007, 17:25:06 UTC

*hugs*
such a moving piece.
I have never had depression myself but have some friends who have it. I have always wanted to try and understand as much as I could so I could be there if they needed someone. Reading this has really opened my eyes.

Thank you for sharing.

adpaz November 16 2007, 10:23:11 UTC

I'm glad it was helpful for you. It's NOT easy for people that don't suffer from depression to understand. My husband has hurt me (unintentionally, of course) because he didn't get how difficult it was for me to sometimes just live on a daily basis. It's taken a lot of talk for him to finally realize that I don't just glide through the days.

*hugs*

spydielives November 14 2007, 17:59:15 UTC

I'm terrified of falling into that well and not being able to come back out.

I hear you.

adpaz November 16 2007, 10:24:39 UTC

Thanks. I know that I'm not alone in this, but it's always a mixed blessing to hear that I'm not. (On the one hand, I hate that anyone else has to go through this. On the other, it's nice to know that someone really does understand.)