I love my husband very much ( Read more... )

eyesight nearly clear. coordination returning.

regular food and shelter and clean clothes and showers and beds is even nicer than they tell ya. this guy doesn't even beat me or shove screwdrivers up my ass. seems like i hit the jackpot here.

nat is so fucking good to me. we have so much fun now. just. aaaaah. he's so chivalrous he makes me blush.

so, i was asked properly to marry this time, and so i gave my yes. life is quite unnaturaly beautiful at the moment.

home vision still blurry minor to moderate residual pain slowed reflexes slurred speech lack of appetite muscle weakness constant shaking in bones

I told Godelieve that I love him. I have decided it is important to somehow differentiate between him and Father, and that is how I will do it.

you know how if you get kindasorta addicted to a drug, then dont get high on it for a while, its so much more better when you do it again? yeeeah im still bleeding. score.

i slept with nat in the woods, in his gas-guzzling, leather-lined car. silk worms were boiled alive in the process of retrieving the fiber for his tie. and i shut it out and moved with him and sighed against him and he came in me.  despite the conjunction, those two sentences actually have nothing to do with each other. do not be mistaken; nat ( Read more... )

nat and i are engaged. i conveniently leave out "to be married", dont i? i dont know. i guess just well see about that whole... other part, beyond me getting a piece of expensive jewelery. but i am not completely opposed. i guess its just... i never really believed that he loved me, and now that i know, im just really, really scared that he'll get ( Read more... )