22 day writing challenge day four.

[adi_stroyer]

Today there was some healing, talking with Jacob about how he hurt me and feeling really seen. So that was good and also necessary. I also talked to Rob a lot today. Sometimes I worry that I'm doing him no favors by talking to him often. But I'm also being very honest about what I want from the relationship so can it be that bad? I'm still not sure

Comments

[belenen]

so glad to have a window into your life right now <3 What is the deal with talking to rob? what do you want from that connection? what do you talk about?

[adi_stroyer]

We're just still friends, we talk about video games and dates I've gone on and what's going on in each others lives and sometimes sex. But I want him in my life forever. I want to be able to be his friend and sometimes lover, I just don't want my life to be about him in the way that it is when I live with or around him. I just also wonder if maybe he needs more time before I should talk to him as much and as unguarded as I do now. I worry he won't be happy until I'm not constantly on his mind and that us talking fairly regularly is keeping that from happening.

[belenen]

Yeah i would imagine so, on that last bit. :-/ its nearly impossible to let go of something you dearly desire unless its out of the picture for a good while, or so i believe.