Comments | adellyna: fic: I Wondered When Your Countenance Would Change (From Sunshine and Vanilla to the Raven Tones of

adellyna

fic: I Wondered When Your Countenance Would Change (From Sunshine and Vanilla to the Raven Tones of

Oct 18, 2007 20:20

So I wrote this, like, forever ago. At least a month, but I never posted it because I thought it was kind of self-indulgent and, in general, I don't really feel like I have a valuable contribution to make to the angstscape, so it's just been lurking in my gmail account, waiting to rear its ugly head and call me names ( Read more... )

bandslash, fic, pete/patrick

Comments 39

natacup82 October 19 2007, 00:54:26 UTC

Ouch. I'm very glad I have a giant bag of Halloween candy to comfort me after this. Poor Patrick :(

adellyna October 20 2007, 13:41:45 UTC

*hugs* Ridiculous angst!

heyginger October 19 2007, 00:56:15 UTC

Paaaatrick! Oh, no!

But then again, yes. YES YES YES!

I loved Patrick thinking that his mom is going to mention sex, repeatedly, because it was funny, but also because. I think it's at the heart of a lot of uncomfortable coming out conversations. Like, being straight is all about who you want to hold hands with and kiss, but being gay is about fucking. IDK if that made any sense, but I'm basically incoherent from this story, so. That's my excuse.

You win at life!

adellyna October 20 2007, 13:42:41 UTC

No, it totally did make sense. I think it's because, like, heterosexuality is "normal" so it's just a part of life. But homosexuality is "deviant" and thus, about sex.

Thanks so much for reading my horrendous angst!

offtheceiling October 19 2007, 01:01:00 UTC

*wibbles* Oh, Paaaaatrick!

I want to take him home with meee!

adellyna October 20 2007, 13:48:40 UTC

I knoooow. Me, too. Well, ok, that's a totally normal urge that I have all the time every day, BUT WHATEVER.

Thanks for reading!

channonyarrow October 19 2007, 01:14:16 UTC

I am having a hard time not saying that "sometimes this is how it should be portrayed in fandom" because that's not the point. But it kind of is, to me. I mean, sunshine, roses, Bob Bryar fixing unicorns - but it's a female world and we, as a gender, like happy endings, particularly to romances. This is not merely me being sexist, you know I work as an editor and I have lots that I can say on the nature of "girl" books versus "boy" books, but I'm throwing that in as a "I am a professional" disclaimer in case anyone reads this comment ( ... )

And of course I saw this as I posted... channonyarrow October 19 2007, 01:15:56 UTC

By "stuff" I don't mean "writing". I was going to say "I hope your emo gets better soon" but that seemed excessively like you were making shit up or something. Then I was going to say "I hope your life gets better soon", but that sounded like I was saying you were somehow doing something wrong. So by "stuff" I mean "whatever made you angry and need to post this and to apologise for posting it" needs to get better soon.

adellyna October 20 2007, 14:00:32 UTC

Like, there's a lot of fic that treats things pretty realistically! I assume, anyway. I try not to read it, because it makes me sad.

Thanks so much for reading it! It's just. Like, it's just shameless misery, and I know it.

foxxcub October 19 2007, 01:25:49 UTC

*wibbles*

*clings to you and Patrick*

MUST GO READ HAPPY PORN NOW.

♥

adellyna October 20 2007, 14:01:43 UTC

PATRICK AND I CLING BACK TO YOU!!

Happy porn? LINK?