I was trying so hard here, baby, so hard to give you a chance. God, if you would have just said...it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter! I'm just gonna go. And. Try to not cry, first, and then go find Leon.
I wish you would've just...
Okay. Okay bye.
*stands and starts to leave, pressing a hand to her mouth*
...Char. Wait. *groans, and finally sits up, hunching over and sighs*
*ttly refuses to look her in the eye*
Maybe.. maybe it did mean something. ... It meant a lot. To me, at least. I thought, I dunno, for a moment, maybe, you too...
*shakes his head and runs a hand through his hair*
Whatever, doesn't matter anymore. It was a stupid move anyway, and- and now you probably hate me, which is fine, because I just buggered up your relationship with Leon, but you know? That bastard should be thankful he has you anyway, so if he- if he does make you cry, like- like I made you cry then you tell me alright? Because I'd kick his ass, or try to, or try not to get my ass kicked, and..
*finally looks up at her, utter HEARTBREAK on his face*
..you can't say that. That's not fair, Char. I'm trying to be the good guy here, fuck.
I buggered up, alright? I was too late, Leon beat me to it, how right would that be for me to just.. to just.. do something! Something more.
Two years, Char. Two years I've been dealing with it, comforting myself by hating on the guy. But you know? I can't. I can't even hate the guy properly! He's bloody perfect, Char, which means he's right for you, and, fuck, have you seen the way he looks at you? Bloody sickening, he's so in love, shite.
And you. Why are you even telling me all this? You don't even want me. You- you don't want me, right? *gives her a look as if to say PLS TELL ME YOU DON'T, SO THAT ALL OF THIS I'M DOING IS OKAY D:*
*then, like a NINJA, he reaches out and grabs her wrist, tugging her down so he could kiss her PROPERLY-- all passion and caresses and TONGUE-- and then he's jerking away, breathing hard*
*suddenly springs forward to kiss him again on the mouth, returning his with all its passion and caressing and TONGUE, getting a little carried away with herself and pressing him back against his bed*
*pulls away slowly*
*bites her lip*
Just. In case, um. In case I don't get to do it again.
I asked you not to leave. And you did anyway.
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*carefully sits at the very corner of his bed*
I think you could have done better. I wish you would have done better.
Y'know. While I still thought it meant something.
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*DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS FOR HIM TO NOT TELL HER THE TRUTH?*
Can't do any better. Not after you've had the best.
*really, really hates playing a good guy*
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You know what? I should go.
I was trying so hard here, baby, so hard to give you a chance. God, if you would have just said...it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter! I'm just gonna go. And. Try to not cry, first, and then go find Leon.
I wish you would've just...
Okay. Okay bye.
*stands and starts to leave, pressing a hand to her mouth*
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...Char. Wait. *groans, and finally sits up, hunching over and sighs*
*ttly refuses to look her in the eye*
Maybe.. maybe it did mean something. ... It meant a lot. To me, at least. I thought, I dunno, for a moment, maybe, you too...
*shakes his head and runs a hand through his hair*
Whatever, doesn't matter anymore. It was a stupid move anyway, and- and now you probably hate me, which is fine, because I just buggered up your relationship with Leon, but you know? That bastard should be thankful he has you anyway, so if he- if he does make you cry, like- like I made you cry then you tell me alright? Because I'd kick his ass, or try to, or try not to get my ass kicked, and..
Fuck, look, I'm sorry, alright?
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So you're just going to let me. You are just going to let me go.
Okay. Fine. Alright, okay, that's fine, I'm okay. Whatever.
But baby I hope the next girl? I hope when you want her, you really want her. One day somebody's going to have to be worth fighting for, right?
Try Sadie. She's beautiful. I think she really fancies you, too. *looks miserable at the thought*
I'm sorry too, babe. I'm so sorry.
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..you can't say that. That's not fair, Char. I'm trying to be the good guy here, fuck.
I buggered up, alright? I was too late, Leon beat me to it, how right would that be for me to just.. to just.. do something! Something more.
Two years, Char. Two years I've been dealing with it, comforting myself by hating on the guy. But you know? I can't. I can't even hate the guy properly! He's bloody perfect, Char, which means he's right for you, and, fuck, have you seen the way he looks at you? Bloody sickening, he's so in love, shite.
And you. Why are you even telling me all this? You don't even want me. You- you don't want me, right? *gives her a look as if to say PLS TELL ME YOU DON'T, SO THAT ALL OF THIS I'M DOING IS OKAY D:*
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Do you want me to lie to you, or do you want the truth?
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*then, like a NINJA, he reaches out and grabs her wrist, tugging her down so he could kiss her PROPERLY-- all passion and caresses and TONGUE-- and then he's jerking away, breathing hard*
..There. That's the best I can do, Char.
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I want you. So bad. Baby, every day. Every day.
So tell me what you want me to do. Adam, baby, love, my best friend, tell me what I should do.
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*well shite*
*hangs his head and looks away*
....go to Leon, Char. Just. Talk to him.
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...Okay.
*stands there for a minute*
*suddenly springs forward to kiss him again on the mouth, returning his with all its passion and caressing and TONGUE, getting a little carried away with herself and pressing him back against his bed*
*pulls away slowly*
*bites her lip*
Just. In case, um. In case I don't get to do it again.
Okay.
Okay bye.
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*just lies there and wonders how something could feel so good, yet so so painful at the same time*
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