HALP

[actourdreams]

Okay, problem solved. I got a choice. We'll see how it goes.

But, all my mother's dire warnings about them making you crazy? Seeming true. Disturbed.

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[catsprite]

We love you! Love you love you!

[happyfishy]

<3 <3 <3 You are a spectacular person. <3 <3 <3

[mabaliciousness]

Reading through this, I was actually going to suggest you go for a bipolar med instead of an anti-depressant. I'm on Lamictal, though honestly my psych was kinda on the fence about whether I was actually bipolar (two) or just depressed. My symptoms were kind of manic, but not really clearly manic.

Basically, if you are mildly bipolar (I figure you already know this, but bipolar two is way closer to depression than bipolar one, which is more along the lines of the crazy and the complete inability to control yourself), treating you with antidepressants can actually make your bipolar symptoms worse, whereas if you're depressed but get treated with bipolar meds, they work the same way as antidepressants. That's why I opted for the bipolar meds.

So far, the Lamictal has been working out well for me. I still have mood swings, but they're not nearly as intense. I'm back to the point where I can vent my emo on Lj and move on, as opposed to letting the emo incapacitate me completely.

So uh, that's my two cents.

[outsidetheedges]

hey love love love.
such hard decisions.
seroquel was my hell drug. some of those things are really scary. but sometimes we have to take a step into the darkness, do something scary, and let it move us forward so that we can leap beyond it.
they'll make decisions. some of them might be kind of awful. cause this is a long road, but it will bring you out into the sun, even if it takes a while.
I am on more medication than ever I could imagine. antidepressant, antipsychotic, a funny parkinson's drug to counteract the seroquel I no longer take. It doesn't make me happy, but it helps me get where I need to be so that I can say the things that will help me heal.

You will heal. And you will be so so good. You are already so so good. embrace healing, even that which comes at some expense, because you deserve to smile at the things you like to talk about, at the flowers outside, at the sun, at life.

so much love. so much love.
♥

[rockychristine]

*hugs*
You are awesome and amazing. We love you and you'll get through this.