009. Hurt - April/May - Rambles & Snippets - Fiction[NET]
Once she was out of the hospital, Ginny locked herself in the bathroom of her dorm, her roommates nowhere to be seen. Everyone had started to avoid her as soon as they had finished the customary visit to make sure she was okay and she was quite happy with that. Once again her brother, Harry and Hermione were the spotlight of the hour, leaving her in the shadows once more. Where she belonged. She was such a stupid girl, she was, she was. Ginny chanted this to herself over and over in her mind; it felt empty without him in it. For...how long had he been there for her? How long had he occupied her mind, whispering to her and keeping her company?
For that year almost, she had believed she actually had a friend, someone who would always be there for her, just like Ron had Harry and Hermione, or the twins had Lee and Angelina, or Percy had Oliver and Penelope...
For almost a year, she had almost felt happy.
Of course, when he had started hurting her, that hadn't been too good, but at least she still had a friend! And he was amazing, he still listening to every word she said, still gave her advice and led her on the path of what to do. Kinda like those God religious types, but he made more sense...
All Ginny could think of now though, as she stared into the mirror at her pale and ghost like self, was how she had been tricked, and how she was now once again alone, and that even though the twins had said they were taking her outside that afternoon for a snowball fight, her family were now ignoring her also. Even though she had been a captive of the boy who had become Lord Voldemort, even though she had painted school hallways with blood and freed the basilisk time and time again...even after all that she was still ignored...cast to the shadows...
Ginny broke down and cried, staring at herself while she did. She looked so ugly when she cried, and that thought made her cry more and more, ugly, stupid, unwanted. Almost a murderer, causing Hermione to be petrified, almost responsible for Voldemort coming back to life, almost causing the death of Harry, everything was just mounting up and up against her and she had let it all happen.
She was weak. And a fool. And a disgrace. Malfoy was right, she was an insult to the Pureblood’s name of Wizard, would she ever be able to make up for it?
Would she ever have a true friend?
That was what caused Ginny to cry really…it wasn’t everything she had done or almost caused…it wasn’t that she had nearly died…it was that Tom had betrayed her. Tom, her closest friend, whom she had told everything to…Tom had hurt her, and that was all that mattered.
<--- 008. Passion || 010. Morbid --->
For that year almost, she had believed she actually had a friend, someone who would always be there for her, just like Ron had Harry and Hermione, or the twins had Lee and Angelina, or Percy had Oliver and Penelope...
For almost a year, she had almost felt happy.
Of course, when he had started hurting her, that hadn't been too good, but at least she still had a friend! And he was amazing, he still listening to every word she said, still gave her advice and led her on the path of what to do. Kinda like those God religious types, but he made more sense...
All Ginny could think of now though, as she stared into the mirror at her pale and ghost like self, was how she had been tricked, and how she was now once again alone, and that even though the twins had said they were taking her outside that afternoon for a snowball fight, her family were now ignoring her also. Even though she had been a captive of the boy who had become Lord Voldemort, even though she had painted school hallways with blood and freed the basilisk time and time again...even after all that she was still ignored...cast to the shadows...
Ginny broke down and cried, staring at herself while she did. She looked so ugly when she cried, and that thought made her cry more and more, ugly, stupid, unwanted. Almost a murderer, causing Hermione to be petrified, almost responsible for Voldemort coming back to life, almost causing the death of Harry, everything was just mounting up and up against her and she had let it all happen.
She was weak. And a fool. And a disgrace. Malfoy was right, she was an insult to the Pureblood’s name of Wizard, would she ever be able to make up for it?
Would she ever have a true friend?
That was what caused Ginny to cry really…it wasn’t everything she had done or almost caused…it wasn’t that she had nearly died…it was that Tom had betrayed her. Tom, her closest friend, whom she had told everything to…Tom had hurt her, and that was all that mattered.
<--- 008. Passion || 010. Morbid --->