the minute i start to stablize something ( Read more... )

I used to think I might be good at something.

My confidence was grossly misinformed.
My major talent seems to be contracting disease and procrastinating.

I'm fucked.
Simple as that.

so

I accidentally died my hair grey

it isn't a terribly good look
it was supposed to be platinum...

but the parts that used to be really blonde are now... greyish.
fuck shit fuck.

ive dyed my hair probably 30 times.
seriously.
you'd think i would be done fucking it up by now.

i cant figure out why i care so much
uaghalkgl;h

And I swear to the stars
I'll burn this whole city down

coincidentally, i am feeling burnt out
i can't stop listening to that song
oh, valencia

also
i walked home from the mall in the pouring rain tonight
in a mini jumper and tights and very porous flats.

if you've ever wanted a good reason to have a myspace,
i believe i have finally found one.

today, i recieved this message;

dear teresa ( Read more... )

You Are Expressionism
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if there was never a rift in my parent's marriage,
there sure as shit is now.
if there wasn't a good enough reason for me to fight with my parents,
we now seem to have a plethora of them on our hands.

thank you, total kitchen reconstruction. for giving us a reason to yell and fight to our heart's content ( Read more... )

i'm going to vomit

i'm an extra.
a fucking extra.

in our town.
i already did this motherfucking play
when i was fucking 15
and i was the narrator

now i'm 18
and i'm an extra

i'm not skinny enough
drunk enough
rich enough
or fucking stylish enough for you

suck. it.

i'm such a hypochondriach.
i've convinced myself i have diabetes.
or menengitis.
don't be surprised if i lapse into some sort of coma sometime soon.

i sure as hell won't be.

so my date for today called

aaand he's pretty sick
but it's okay

because he actually called
and that never happens

and he told me to call him back if i was in seattle anytime this week
which i will be
so

there we have it, i guess.