I had a disability hearing the other day (Lupus) and I think I won. (vocational expert said I'm unemployable)YOu'd think that I'd be super happy about that but it's actually taking some time to detox from all the stress.

I'm going to a DID conference in just a couple weeks. I can't believe that it is almost here. I can't believe that I'm going to be with a 150 people that have some clue what's it's like raising my adopted daughter with DID. this experience has been somewhat isolating ( Read more... )

The kiddo was so cute today. She filled an order of soap and took it to the post office with this grin on her face like she was sending out presents ( Read more... )

I took the kiddo to her massage yesterday. It still amazes me that my massage guy is so generous but he offered some time ago to massage the kiddo for free so she gets an hour long massage nearly every week. I'm so impressed with his kindness and generosity about the whole thing especially since he really didn't get how traumatized she is until ( Read more... )

I've known since last year that exotic animals were likely used with the kiddo. Today we were watching a commercial for extreme home makeover where they are doing a house for an exotic animal rescue place. The kiddo turned and looked at me and said that they 'usually slaughter the tigers'. Now the kiddo has a cold and she was very hard to ( Read more... )

L hit me today. She was mad that I was in her room packing for the trip. She is scared to go and doesn't want to tell me why ( Read more... )

I did confirm the other day that the kiddo is frequently switching when going down the stairs or out to the car to sit in the back seat. She said that she used to have to go down the stairs and there would be a monster at the bottom. I made reassuring noises that she never had to switch just because she was going down the stairs or for a ride in ( Read more... )

The kiddo was getting the dogs to fight today and so I had her put them in the kennel's and come up to my room. She was told to sit in the corner and be quiet. It seemed like the safest way to do a time out. Anyway she was very anxious to get out of my room and said several times that I couldn't keep her locked in. I would remind her that she was ( Read more... )

The kiddo has been tlaking about a horse alarm clock that she is interested in. Today she said that she wanted a magic wand to turn it off with. She has never spoken of a magic wand before. Probably kid talk, but it seems these days everything is related.

Oh and when my kiddo came downstairs I was in a dimly lit room. After awhile she told me how scary my eyes looked. I turned on the light right away. I felt awful because she has told me that she has flashbacks of their eyes and how scary eyes could be in general in the group. I of course never want any association between those monsters and myself ( Read more... )