I ponder leaving, at least once a day ( Read more... )

When Derrick Ford was born, he brought with him, from the chaos of the womb, a gift - and not much else. He brought with him a certain charm, a certain skill, an insight, as it were. A power with which he could find a way to overcome an innate inability to connect to any other born of different, more pleasant voids.Throughout a lifetime spent ( Read more... )

I bust into the room at around 5:30 am. Two women were sitting on the bed, talking, as a third man slept cradling the phone. The first words out of my lips were "You bitches must wanna go to jail". I think I had their attention at this point.... back up ( Read more... )

"you know, they say that tchaikovsky was insane... and he's your favorite musician?"

I suppose that's the way things work out. I have a tendency to be drawn towards the more eccentric persons in society; in art specifically. There being no greater writer than Hemmingway in my opinion, nor any man more venerable or wise (that I have met) than my good ( Read more... )

That I'm a socialist-democrat. A party spawned in the bowels of Europe that for years I have purported could do wonders in this country. Thank you to all democrats in this country who have lately been taking the principals of that party and perverting them to serve lobbyist's interests. I appreciate that epic failure, assholes. I'm voting third ( Read more... )

Against all my better judgement, I answered that confusing girls call. I'll never regret the decision to hang out with her again... beautiful night.

these are the days of our lives...

Insert Disclaimer Here: I can't sleep. This is a ramble post while I try to organize my thoughts, so maybe I can catch some zzzz...

wow, that was my gayest opener to date. so gay I'm going to leave it right were it is.

It's been an interesting week, between my knee getting worse, then getting better, then getting ( Read more... )

She's falling down a rabbit hole, into some unknown chaotic world were up is neither itself nor down but somewhere else and in-between another. I wonder whether I should follow desire into insanity or stay away until some eventual resurfacing or even halfheartedly stand with one foot in the hole and accept her terms which seem ill-fit to the person ( Read more... )

Lately I've been wishing I had one desire,
something that would make me never want another
something that would make it so that nothing mattered...

Back in touch. Yay, I think. Something is wrong, changed, missing here. Something I'm not being told. Something being held back... Intentional to allow time? An adjustment to avoid too much too soon? Hmm ( Read more... )

#1. What are the side-effects of this medication? "The FDA also advises that people taking antidepressants be observed for increases in anxiety, panic attacks, agitation, irritability, insomnia, impulsivity, hostility, and mania."

#2. Aren't those my symptoms, or at least some of my symptoms for which I am taking this? Yep. The chemical ( Read more... )