Why do you thin society hates you? Society has no reason to hate you :( I dont think its been too too bad so far, just hang in there stop being s down on yourself all the time.
You dont hide your love, why would you relate to that, no one Ive seen seems to be angry about it so why hide?
I also dont believe you shuld relate to the suicide one. Your strnoger than that so dont even think it.
Some people do.. you dont know how hard it is.. i mean you have lots of friends but your not actually there..
I hear names all the time.. and after a while it hurts... i hate it and the looks.. I can never be myself... unless it is just the two of us.. I mean it is easier to be myself when I with my friends like you guys.. who understand.. but not everybody is like you...
My parents hate it.. they make fun of me all the time.. so i can't show my love... cuz it hurts.. it hurt so.. bad *tears well up*
I have thought about suicide various times.. sometimes the hurt.. hurts too much... i have also thought about breaking up with her.. and lying to myself again... telling my self i was being silly.. but i can't do taht.. i can't be selfish.. cuz that would make me give up one of the best things that has happened to me.. and that would hurt too
Okay. I know perfectly well how hard it is. Not in the same way. But you think I dont get calle dnames and treated like shit? People are going to hate you know matter who you are in life. And other people are going to love you for you too. The trick is to just stick with those that love you and tell all the others to fuck off. So dont tell me I dont know what its like. I get glares and looks too, I get hate e-mail. My parents make fun of me for being a "fag-hag" or a "fatty."
Yo have to do whatever is best for you, Ive been there too you know, (well you might know if you ever talked to me) Ive been in the fucking kitchen when I was home alone holding a butcher knife to my wrists, just wondering what it would feel like to feel somthing other than hurt.(The phone rang and obviosly not much came of it) I'm not so different from you, you know. So dont think that I am
Wow... that seemed bitchy.... The only difference between me and you.. is i have actually attempted.. not once, twice, but 4 times....
I know you have it hard too.. my parents, some of my friends, and lots of people i know don't treat me nice either.. i wasn't saying we were that different.. I was just trying to tell you why i felt that way.. you seemed to be yelling at me for wanting to die.. so i was just telling you my point... just the names you get called and the names i get called are different.. and if you really think about it.. being called fatty.. can be fixed if you want it to.. being called lesbo.. cant.. unless i want to lie to myself agian.. unless and want to pretend something i'm not.. and i'm not going to do that again..
Ps.. just so you know.. I have been trying to talk to you again.. can't you see i made an effort?? i don't hate you.....
Did I sound mean when you left?suffering_angelAugust 20 2005, 03:49:52 UTC
Sorry if I did, I didnt mean to. I ad a really good time hanging out with you again too, finally. I was just tred and glad to be home and I figured you were in a rush and i really had to pee so I just sorta said "yeah" i Feel bad. I'm really sorry if I sounded rude or bitchy I didnt mean to, we need to hang out again soon
Re: Did I sound mean when you left?suffering_angelAugust 20 2005, 23:44:24 UTC
Did you make it home on time at least? you had 20 minutes I think. Anyways, yeah, what are you doing next weekend? (since my weekdays are officially out of the question now that schools up and running.
Re: Did I sound mean when you left?_twisted_monkeyAugust 22 2005, 23:53:42 UTC
Yeah i did.. i knew i would have.. well at least when i got to your house i knew i would have... I'm going to be in Green Vally visiting my grandparents.. we are leaving right after school friday.. sorry... maybe later
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You dont hide your love, why would you relate to that, no one Ive seen seems to be angry about it so why hide?
I also dont believe you shuld relate to the suicide one. Your strnoger than that so dont even think it.
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I hear names all the time.. and after a while it hurts... i hate it and the looks.. I can never be myself... unless it is just the two of us.. I mean it is easier to be myself when I with my friends like you guys.. who understand.. but not everybody is like you...
My parents hate it.. they make fun of me all the time.. so i can't show my love... cuz it hurts.. it hurt so.. bad *tears well up*
I have thought about suicide various times.. sometimes the hurt.. hurts too much... i have also thought about breaking up with her.. and lying to myself again... telling my self i was being silly.. but i can't do taht.. i can't be selfish.. cuz that would make me give up one of the best things that has happened to me.. and that would hurt too
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Yo have to do whatever is best for you, Ive been there too you know, (well you might know if you ever talked to me) Ive been in the fucking kitchen when I was home alone holding a butcher knife to my wrists, just wondering what it would feel like to feel somthing other than hurt.(The phone rang and obviosly not much came of it) I'm not so different from you, you know. So dont think that I am
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I know you have it hard too.. my parents, some of my friends, and lots of people i know don't treat me nice either.. i wasn't saying we were that different.. I was just trying to tell you why i felt that way.. you seemed to be yelling at me for wanting to die.. so i was just telling you my point... just the names you get called and the names i get called are different.. and if you really think about it.. being called fatty.. can be fixed if you want it to.. being called lesbo.. cant.. unless i want to lie to myself agian.. unless and want to pretend something i'm not.. and i'm not going to do that again..
Ps.. just so you know.. I have been trying to talk to you again.. can't you see i made an effort?? i don't hate you.....
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