you didnt let this happen. Im so sorry that this happened. Please get help. If you live in usa, you can go to planned parenthood and get the morning after pill. just incase. You dont even have to report it yet. Though i think you should. LEt yourself rest. dont hurt yourself. ITs not your fault!
I'm calling my doctors office in the morning. I'm 18 and I'm in the US. I don't want my parents to know and I don't think I'm going to report it. They will just ask why I didn't say no. I'm definitely going to get myself taken care of though. Thank you for your help.
it's not your fault that this happened. yes you did let it but sometimes people do things they don't want to when they're scared or feel like they can't say no for whatever reason. if he didnt orgasm or whatever inside of you then it's more unlikely that you could get pregnant. but there's always precum and stuff like that so there is a slight chance and you should definitely try to get some contraceptives. idk if you need to talk or anything i'll give u my sn. ♥
No, he didn't orgasm and he says he let all the stuff out on the blanket...but yeah. I don't think he coulda actually let all of it out. I know the chance is slight, but it's still a chance. So I'm scared.
I'm calling the doctors first thing in the morning. It still uncomfortable down there and it hurts when I use the bathroom...I dunno if that's normal or not. Plus, sense it was unprotected I think I should get myself checked.
Thank you for responding. It would be cool if we could talk. I have MSN...laurelflower87@hotmail.com
First of all this wasn't your fault. You *could've* said no but do you think he would've stopped? They way you described him I'd say I'm not too sure about that..
I'm so sorry you had to go through something horrible..I'm so sorry but it wasn't your fault and you didn't deserve any of this.
I know it's not going to help you but I know those kind of feelings too. I know what it's like to feel dirty...and it doesn't matter how much you wash yourself or for how many hours you're sitting in the shower, the feeling just won't go away. But it will...one day it will...I really hope it will cause we need it to go away.
Have you thought about going to a doctor? You're hurting and you're scared of a possible pregancy..please get yourself help and don't try to go through this alone. You don't have to, you know?
You're right I dunno that he woulda stopped. When he gave the anal...I pulled away automatically 'cause it hurt...he just push forward more. :/ I didn't even try though. It does help a lot knowing I'm not alone. It's just hard. I'll think "eh, I'm fine". But it isn't...my virginity is gone, and I had unprotected sex. I just want to stand in the shower and wash it all off, but it doesn't feel like it will come off. I'm scared right now. He didn't orgasm...but their is sperm in pre-cum. I do not want/ can not have a baby right now.
I keep telling myself too that someday this will all be gone...we will get better. Sometimes it doesn't feel like it, like now. But you have to keep hoping, right?
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I am going to see a doctor, I'm calling first thing in the morning. I think I need to get checked to make sure I'm okay(std's) and find out about a morning after pill or something.
Thank you for helping me...I'm scared right now and I can't tell anyone. :/
No,you're not fine, you *can't* be fine after this but I guess it's a usual thing to say *I'm okay*. The sad thing is that denial isn't really helpful...at least not in the long rung.
I know you're scared right now and it's more than understandable that you don't want to talk about it or tell anyone. And it's not up to me to say *But you have to tell anyone*. It's your choice and I'm sure you'll talk about it as soon as you're ready.
Right now i'm just relieved that you're going to see a doctor. He need to check if he's hurt you and you've to get the morning after pill if it's possible.
I wish *I* could do more though..:/
You're so strong and I know you can do it. You'll get through it, okay?
I know I'm not fine, it would just be so easy to be though. :( I keep pushing myself out of denial...but yeah. Being in denial about this wouldn't help anything at all.
I have a couple friend I could tell that would probably help, but at the same time I think "what will they think of me?" My parents would chop me up in little pieces...I definitely can't tell them.
I really hope they give me the pill...and I hope there aren't any std's.
You are doing a lot helping. I'm scared and exhasted and I can't sleep...I feel uncomfortable and dirty. I think I just need someone to talk to right now.
I hope I get through this okay...I don't want to have ruined my life.
*safe hugs* if you want them. beleive me i know all those pregnancy and std fears all too well. it was on my mind constantly on a daily basis for six months after my assault. i'm really glad you're going to the doctor. that's the best thing to do for yourself. i know it doesn't feel like it right now but you are stronger than you think you are. just wanting to go to the doc and get things taken care of is a step of courage and strength. keep it up and keep me posted on how you're doing. feel free to IM or email me. all the info is in my profile. take care hun.
He violated your boundaries. You didn't invite him to do something, and you felt awful anyway. Sex in my opinion requires consent, not just a lack of kicking and screaming, and many people that virginity can only be lost to sex. While saying "no" is a great thing, it's very normal to have difficulty saying it, esp. for someone who was assaulted before.
Okay, I'm way too tired to write out a coherent post... I really hope you'll be okay :S
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LEt yourself rest. dont hurt yourself. ITs not your fault!
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I'm calling the doctors first thing in the morning. It still uncomfortable down there and it hurts when I use the bathroom...I dunno if that's normal or not. Plus, sense it was unprotected I think I should get myself checked.
Thank you for responding. It would be cool if we could talk. I have MSN...laurelflower87@hotmail.com
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I'm so sorry you had to go through something horrible..I'm so sorry but it wasn't your fault and you didn't deserve any of this.
I know it's not going to help you but I know those kind of feelings too. I know what it's like to feel dirty...and it doesn't matter how much you wash yourself or for how many hours you're sitting in the shower, the feeling just won't go away. But it will...one day it will...I really hope it will cause we need it to go away.
Have you thought about going to a doctor? You're hurting and you're scared of a possible pregancy..please get yourself help and don't try to go through this alone. You don't have to, you know?
I'm here too if you feel like talking.
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I keep telling myself too that someday this will all be gone...we will get better. Sometimes it doesn't feel like it, like now. But you have to keep hoping, right?
::sigh::
I am going to see a doctor, I'm calling first thing in the morning. I think I need to get checked to make sure I'm okay(std's) and find out about a morning after pill or something.
Thank you for helping me...I'm scared right now and I can't tell anyone. :/
::safe hugs::
Laura
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I know you're scared right now and it's more than understandable that you don't want to talk about it or tell anyone. And it's not up to me to say *But you have to tell anyone*. It's your choice and I'm sure you'll talk about it as soon as you're ready.
Right now i'm just relieved that you're going to see a doctor. He need to check if he's hurt you and you've to get the morning after pill if it's possible.
I wish *I* could do more though..:/
You're so strong and I know you can do it. You'll get through it, okay?
*hugs*
Josh
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I have a couple friend I could tell that would probably help, but at the same time I think "what will they think of me?" My parents would chop me up in little pieces...I definitely can't tell them.
I really hope they give me the pill...and I hope there aren't any std's.
You are doing a lot helping. I'm scared and exhasted and I can't sleep...I feel uncomfortable and dirty. I think I just need someone to talk to right now.
I hope I get through this okay...I don't want to have ruined my life.
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take care hun.
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He violated your boundaries. You didn't invite him to do something, and you felt awful anyway. Sex in my opinion requires consent, not just a lack of kicking and screaming, and many people that virginity can only be lost to sex. While saying "no" is a great thing, it's very normal to have difficulty saying it, esp. for someone who was assaulted before.
Okay, I'm way too tired to write out a coherent post... I really hope you'll be okay :S
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