So I am torn between living my life the way I know is right for me and at the same time feeling unwanted or changing into something I know its not for me and loathe myself, but feeling wanted. The right answer is painfully obvious, but the questions is still there. All the time.
So I really dyed my hair. I actually managed to find a shade that doesnt clash with my skin color. I also bought the cheapest bright red hairdye I could find and it ended up the exact shade I wanted.
As scapegoat1989 (screen name relevant) mentioned, those DBZ songs by Ishihara Shin'ichi? They sound just like Zetsuai songs. And it's freaking awesome.
So, we're all still alive. They're just turning the thing on today, so I'll have to wait until Oct 21 to repent and all that. That's when the real fun starts, and I hope the CERN streaming thingy will work for me then.