josh has chance to move to portland on june 1st. i'm really thinking about it. i'd be closer to a lot of my friends and would be living with some really nice kids i met when i was involved with portland free picnic. the rent is only $250 a month which i nothing. i'm thinking i'll run to portland some time this week and really push to find a job ( Read more... )

you are creeping in under my skin, and i can't help but feeling like this barrier is getting thin. i need to really stop having these crushes they are not helping me.

silence fills the space ( Read more... )

regret is a terrible thing i am never really comfortable with thinking that if i had acted differently things would be different now. but lately i can't stop thinking that if i had done things differently my life would be different, not necessarily better but maybe the relationships i have with people would be closer, maybe people would actually ( Read more... )

I can die happy now. today has been a really great day, with only minor set backs. one of which was getting my cell phone to work... but the man from a far off land was really nice and helped me get my phone back in working order. Arms and Sleepers makes my heart pitter patter their video while they played was beautiful they are beautiful. seeing B ( Read more... )

21 dayz ( Read more... )

ask yourself if you like what you've become? ask yourself if you thought that this was how it was going to end. ask yourself if in that last waking second you can truly accept what you've become.

yesterday i was going to go to the movies with my cousin. but i thought i should get my paper done first. instead of writing it though i went to bed. this morning i got up at 4:50 and spent three hours writing that paper. the lady that read it said i did a fine job. i lied and said i had written a few small parts and then jammed them together. i ( Read more... )

how is it that i'm stuck here while most of my family is going to florida for a month? why can't i up and leave why can't i feel free. everything i do and every where i go i feel trapped in this shit. i look at my family and i see them all living the way they want. doing what they want. i feel like my father and i are the only ones unable to live ( Read more... )

i think i might try and get an internship on a farm this spring/summer. i've been looking on this site that talks about all these different organic farms and there are a bunch in maine there is one up past bar harbor i think that might be the best place i've seen so far. but that doesn't really tell me much since i cant physically see the place and ( Read more... )