A few years ago I fell in love for the first time with a girl. She was one of my best friends and it ate me that a couldn't tell anyone. So a told a friend of mine. I was so ashamed of my crush that I was terrified anyone else would find out. I really trusted and relied on that one friend that knew.
But she broke her promise to not tell anyone and told a few others. It was horrible and I don't like to think about it too much. I was so ashamed that I could barely go to school. And every time I saw that friend that betrayed me, I felt a deep pain.
Now, everything is cool again. The friend I had a crush on is still my friend, even though the friendship isn't that strong anymore. And the friend that betrayed me is a good friend of me again =D. But I doubt I can fully trust her ever again.
I would really like to erase this out of every ones memories because I'm still ashamed of it. It was stupid to trust that friend so much, it really broke me and I just wish the whole thing could disappear.
It's really terrible that you should be made to feel regret, when your idiot friend is the one that should feel crappy. Blabbing a secret is one thing. Something like this, that made you feel destroyed, is a shitty form of betrayal. Your friend should feel ashamed, not you.
Cutting myself. My friends always bring up that part of my life and start laughing about it. It makes me feel like shit and it always ruins spending the day with them.
If I could erase something from EVERYONE'S memory:
I once (shamelessly) flirted with a woman I volunteered with. I'm a heterosexual woman but I admit I was a little confused at the time. She was beautiful and funny and I just got sucked in. I just wish I had been a little more discreet about my feelings for her.
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I was so ashamed of my crush that I was terrified anyone else would find out. I really trusted and relied on that one friend that knew.
But she broke her promise to not tell anyone and told a few others. It was horrible and I don't like to think about it too much.
I was so ashamed that I could barely go to school. And every time I saw that friend that betrayed me, I felt a deep pain.
Now, everything is cool again. The friend I had a crush on is still my friend, even though the friendship isn't that strong anymore. And the friend that betrayed me is a good friend of me again =D. But I doubt I can fully trust her ever again.
I would really like to erase this out of every ones memories because I'm still ashamed of it. It was stupid to trust that friend so much, it really broke me and I just wish the whole thing could disappear.
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I've never been the same.
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I once (shamelessly) flirted with a woman I volunteered with. I'm a heterosexual woman but I admit I was a little confused at the time. She was beautiful and funny and I just got sucked in. I just wish I had been a little more discreet about my feelings for her.
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