I've been boys and girls, young and old. I've left a trail on many different sites and in some games as well. I've made people fall in love with me and pretended I've felt the same, and yet there's nothing. There is always nothing. I do it for entertainment, really.
For a while I would have rather been who I was portraying, rather than who I am.
None of them will ever realize the person they were talking to was a fabrication, because I've been so many different people. There is no real 'connection' between them, I was very careful that way.
I once hacked onto my friend's Blogdrive account and saw that she had created a secret blog where she ranted about her friends and her problems. There were things about me on there, which were upsetting at first, but it showed me how careless I could be as a friend. I wanted her to feel not as alone, so I created this person with her won blog who happened to find my friend's blog. The person I created felt alone too and wrote about that in her blogs. I told my other friend about it all and she created a blog too for a pretend person. I like to think that I somehow helped my friend not feel as alone even though what I did was wrong.
Perhaps the answer would be... is that we desire to know what life would be like if we born as the individual we pretended to be? Would we be more loved/desireable/like if we were the fake individual?
For many... it just seems fun to live in alternate reality where we can be like the people we pretend to be, young, pretty/handsome, and attractive and when we push that 'log in' button, for several hours, we can be whoever we want to be.
For the select few... some individuals just enjoy toying with other's emotions, enjoying the fact when people fall in love with them, despite the fact the person they fall for is a liar, and for the deciever, it's just a game of how long they pull the ruse off.
I'm sure there are more reasons, but I'm guessing most fall under these 3 categories.
I portrayed mainly girls older and more beautiful than I yet I would still use my same personality. Many guys claim to have been in love with me before they even asked how I looked, so I am not sure about the "looks do count" theory; in those cases, I'd say looks are a bonus.
I never had relationships; only did it for entertainment. There were no real attractions except on the other person's part. However, I became careless one time and let one person slip by me, and soon, we had an online and phone relationship. He swore he was in love with me; I still am not sure about myself.
One time he told me that he was starting to plan our future together once we meet. He told me he was going to keep trying to save up money, so he could come visit me.
I guess I did develop a sort of strong likeness towards him...because it hurt a lot when I told him the truth. I have been afraid to chat online since then due to the fear of someone becoming too close--and a fear of me becoming too soft. Being soft takes the fun out of it.
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I've been boys and girls, young and old. I've left a trail on many different sites and in some games as well. I've made people fall in love with me and pretended I've felt the same, and yet there's nothing. There is always nothing. I do it for entertainment, really.
For a while I would have rather been who I was portraying, rather than who I am.
None of them will ever realize the person they were talking to was a fabrication, because I've been so many different people. There is no real 'connection' between them, I was very careful that way.
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For many... it just seems fun to live in alternate reality where we can be like the people we pretend to be, young, pretty/handsome, and attractive and when we push that 'log in' button, for several hours, we can be whoever we want to be.
For the select few... some individuals just enjoy toying with other's emotions, enjoying the fact when people fall in love with them, despite the fact the person they fall for is a liar, and for the deciever, it's just a game of how long they pull the ruse off.
I'm sure there are more reasons, but I'm guessing most fall under these 3 categories.
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I never had relationships; only did it for entertainment. There were no real attractions except on the other person's part. However, I became careless one time and let one person slip by me, and soon, we had an online and phone relationship. He swore he was in love with me; I still am not sure about myself.
One time he told me that he was starting to plan our future together once we meet. He told me he was going to keep trying to save up money, so he could come visit me.
I guess I did develop a sort of strong likeness towards him...because it hurt a lot when I told him the truth. I have been afraid to chat online since then due to the fear of someone becoming too close--and a fear of me becoming too soft. Being soft takes the fun out of it.
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