i guess in college the answers are already known,
you can drink, you can smoke if you choose to, you can love a man
who prides himself on all of these things.
and forget about me.

it works out better this way.

when we allow our deepest fears ( Read more... )

i don't need you to consider
if you think we could be together
like a dog awaiting scraps from his
master's table.
i am lonely, it's admitted,
but i'll never be desperate enough
to have to wait for someone to decide
how they feel about me.

so go fuck yourself.

"when there's nothing left to burn you've got to set yourself on fire ( Read more... )

so i got drunk officially for the first time last night ( Read more... )

i woke up this morning. 4:26. it would never be :25 b/c things in life are never rounded. they are always exact. everything is precise. i slowly crawl out of bed and towards the bathroom. the room is moving with me. i wish it would wait its turn. it reminds me of kindergarden where it was always your turn and everyone else's and nobody got anywhere ( Read more... )

Im expected to fall in love ( Read more... )

jealousy?
who would've thought?
i am jealous of a kid who really has no individuality
because there are three of them, and he is just a carbon copy
of the others,
but his writing is amazing,
and i can't match it,
so do i pretend to be happy and respect that
or get upset at the fact that he makes my writing
obsolete?

fuck you patrick.
your gay and everyone knows it.
so just admit it already
or we are going to be in for a long
year in drama.
thanx.
fucker.

we sat there, reminiscing about how many things have changed in our lives. just yesterday i was alone, at home, sitting there with my to do list, and solely focused on what i had to acomplish that day. its suprising how alone, single people like me are, and yet we are so consumed in our day to day lives that we never notice how truly alone we are. ( Read more... )