i just spent 7 and a half hours at the hospital at the request of Dr. Steiger, to acheave what? nothing i didn't already know, i will not throw large books at my psychiatrist....
Well I am on the waiting list to get into treatment for my ED at the local ed clinic. Dr stieger is the head of the unit, and when i asked him if there was anything i could do to speed up the wait, he sugested i get a psych assesment. I know i want to get better, of course i also want to lose as much weight before going in and yes i am insane.
so there was not really anything that spurred the dicision to get better other than that is the general direction i am going on paper in the hospitals, mean while i am destrouing my body.
at the moment starving myself is my way of dealing while i wait for help learning how to deal.
i'm ok, just tired and frustrated. not unusual for me though. <3 Anna-Kate
when i said spurred the decison i meant what spurred your doctors decsion to put you in the hospital =*(. please be careful until you get in.. ok.. you are so small you cant just waste away.. =*(. your too beautiful and intelligent to be wasted into a complete walking corpse.. and i am especially directing that twoards your brain.. if you starve too long your brain might get too terrible =*(.i dont want you to forget everything you cherish in this world.. and all things beautiful.. please hang in there.. youll get there.. and i cant wait until they accept you! damn these hospitals.. keep a smile.. sorry you spent 7 hours in there x.x
How are you feeling? I'm sorry hun, I know it must have been horrible. I hate doctors and have a blood phobia ( ironic for a cutter, eh?). Get some sleep tonight, everything looks better in the morning. Remember that everyday brings a new chance happiness.
If you really want to toss books at someone there is my therapist. I wouldn't mind! Take care hun, and feel better.... lily
whoa for a second i was confused... then i remembered, i just added you recently b/c you said i look like Audry Hepburn (((loving you for that!)))
that is ironic for a cutter to have a blood phobia... i like looking at the nurses take my blood, and i used to enjoy watching the blood bead-up or gush from my arm... yeh i know that is sick, i don't get off on that anymore, and i don't cut anymore either.
i wont throw books at anyone... it's a bit of a joke, i tend to bark loud and never bight. Anna-Kate
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so there was not really anything that spurred the dicision to get better other than that is the general direction i am going on paper in the hospitals, mean while i am destrouing my body.
at the moment starving myself is my way of dealing while i wait for help learning how to deal.
i'm ok, just tired and frustrated. not unusual for me though.
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Anna-Kate
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<3 jas
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If you really want to toss books at someone there is my therapist. I wouldn't mind! Take care hun, and feel better....
lily
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that is ironic for a cutter to have a blood phobia... i like looking at the nurses take my blood, and i used to enjoy watching the blood bead-up or gush from my arm... yeh i know that is sick, i don't get off on that anymore, and i don't cut anymore either.
i wont throw books at anyone... it's a bit of a joke, i tend to bark loud and never bight.
Anna-Kate
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