I know this won't last but I want to live it anyway because this is the only thing beautiful that has ever happened to me. And I have you to thank for that.

Oh, and Alevels is fast approaching. Time to give all I've got.

I knew it. It was too good to be true.
I don't know what to do.

 Everything is taking a toll on me!
I'm sick, I'm worried, I'm flustered all the damn time, I can't breathe!
I really want to sleep, and feel good about sleep instead of worry about school and prelims and alevels and grades !

3 hours of lit tmr. I CAN DO THIS! but oh dear, how I can't stand modern literature. Owen and I can never be good friends. I ( Read more... )

I actually really do think that this will be good for me.

Broken poetry.
Lately, my nights have been this way :
Waking up at 3am, rolling in bed till 5, waking up again at 6.30.

And I have red marks on my face.
which are totalllly unsexy, damn!

This isn't right.

Do not force me. There is no point because 1)I don't care and 2) I don't feel bad that I don't care.
And I'm being polite here. This is how I work even if it is not always right.

Different wavelengths, y/n?
Trivial, y/n?

I'm a little scared now. Okay I won't think about it anymore. I really want my own little fluffy place up in the clouds.

I swear you wouldn't think I'm this way IRL.

I was drifting in and out of sleep today.
Four cups of black coffee today.
Not too thick, just right.

I am 110 pounds of worthless existence.
I deserve to be nothing. I deserve to not exist because I don't deserve to occupy space.
It makes me feel really really sad inside. 
Like I don't deserve the air I'm breathing in now.
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I want to do the most impulsive things like ____________. But I _______ you too much.

I want to die.

I'm tired, and sick and I wil take my medicine, get drowsy and go to sleep.

So long, _________.

I'm ________ from tmr onwards. No more excuses.
I need to at least have control over this.

Since people are so aware of their own emotions, why can't they ( Read more... )