she noticed ( Read more... )

Today, I got my lazy ass to the gym and ran on the treadmill for a mile and then walked for another 1 and a half miles. It's not much but at least, it's a start. I also hula-twirled for about 15 minutes which is good because I love hula-hoop twirling! It's so fun and I hear it really tones your stomach. After gym, I went to the store to get the ( Read more... )

My new scale says I'm 101lbs.

My old one says I'm 97lbs.

How do I know how I much I truly weigh?

God. I hate scales. A perfect, accurate, standardised scale should exist.

How do I join pro_ana? I used to be a member until I deleted my old journal and got a new one. I need to get back on track again. =/

I'm a disgrace to myself. I went out with my friends for lunch today and ended up consuming like 200-300 calories. I want to die. I hate making excuses for myself and trying to justify my eating by thinking "Oh, it's alright, you didn't have dinner yesterday or anything today either." It's so frustrating. I really don't know what's wrong with me. ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in ages. The last month or so, I've been consuming 200-800 cals a day. Everything's been crazy - the weird food patterns, eating habits. Only one thing remains the same admist all the crazy calorie consuming - my fuckin weight. I'm stuck on a plateau no matter what I do. I was down 3lbs at one point but other than that, it's the ( Read more... )

My friend accuses me of not eating but when she goes out with me, she orders whatever it is that I order (which is usually like mineral water and a small "meal" just to show my other friends that I'm fairly normal). We were in McDonald's today and I ordered some chicken nuggets (6 pieces) and she decides to follow me as well. No offense but it's ( Read more... )

My hair is falling out like crazy and I'm getting scared. I haven't been noticing many things but the other day when I was out bicycling, I realised my hair was flying behind me. I held my hair in my palm and realised the clench was so much smaller. It freaked me out. I got home and made some salad out of tuna, carrots and raisins. My hair is the ( Read more... )

Just a tip for you guys: if your stomach burns or you need something to fill it up, try fibre shakes/drinks. They fill you up real good and they help if you want something sweeter than soup/tea. Mine's lemon-flavoured (although it tastes more like orange) and it's pure fibre from oats, corn and stuff so I know it's not going to affect my weight. ( Read more... )

Why didn't I check the nutrtitional information for pecans/almonds online first?? I just found out that 1 cup of those fucking nuts = 700-800 calories. OMFG. I feel like crying now. I don't know what to do. Should I try to purge? Somehow, I don't purge "good foods" as in proper stuff like vegetables and fruit. I only purge the bad ones (junkfood) ( Read more... )