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Title: Love On The Rocks
Author: myforgottenpain
Pairing: Vam
Rating: PG-13 Foul Language, Alcohol References, and adult situation.
Summary: Bam's new found friendship with Ville had made him question parts of his life he has long since repressed. Through an unexpected visit from the Finnish rock star, many bottles of beer, and a special tattoo; Bam must decide if he wants to embrace a side of himself that he has always longed to explore.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything connected to HIM, Ville Valo, or Bam Margera. Nor do I imply that in reality they are anything but friends.
Authors Notes: This chapter is dedicated to my "Willa" nailsnoir777 and her lovely patiences with me hording her update, to read when I have more time. XD
The door slowly opened and Ville moved so he could sit up. Bam walked in sideways, turning so he could face Ville. "Dinner is served." Bam announced proudly, walking over to the older man.
Without even realizing it, Ville's hand covered his mouth. He watched Bam walk over to him silently, not realizing the effect this on the younger man, until Bam was right next to him. The jubilant expression that had shone so brightly from Bam, faltered, and he now chewed on his lip nervously.
"I hope you like..." Bam started to say, setting the tray on Ville's lap. But he stopped when Ville placed his hand on Bam's cheek, pulling the him in for a kiss.
Ville drew in Bam's bottom lip and sucked on it as Bam knelt next to him. He placed his other hand on Bam's hip, encouraging him to sit next to him. Leaning on his opposite hip now, Bam returned the kiss, his hands cupping Ville's face. Ville continued to slide his hand along Bam's hip after the kiss ended. They brushed their lips together, eyes closed, as Ville whispered "I love it."
And Ville really did. Some how it was perfectly Bam and perfectly sweet.
Bam gasped happily, "I'm glad."
Ville gazed at Bam, his eyes partly closed. He ran his hand along Bam's face and through his hair. "Why wouldn't I?" Ville asked softly, his hand cupping Bam's cheek, his thumb moving against the corner of Bam's mouth. "You did it for me." He whispered, brushing his noses against Bam's, before pressing their foreheads together.
Leaning into the touches, he slide his hand along Ville's to hold it, while Ville held his face. Bam whimpered softly, drawing his lips in, trying not to cry. "I don't know why..." He finally answered, shrugging his shoulders. He drew in a shaky breath and looked up finally, leaning in to kiss Ville gently, which Ville gladly returned.
"You have been so nice to me Bam." Ville said softly, smiling as they finally leaned away from each other. "It means the world to me and I really do appreciate it." He added as Bam fluffed the pillows behind his back.
Bam smiled as he picked up a cigarette from the tray and lit it, handing it to Ville. "I know it does." He paused, lighting his own cigarette. He watched the smoke for a moment before adding, "I just want you to know how much I love you."
Ville gagged on the drag he had just taken from his cigarette. He looked to Bam quickly, wide-eyed with surprise. It was far from perfect, but the last sentence had clearly been in Finnish.
"You... you... how?" Ville asked softly, amazed as much as he was impressed at Bam.
Bam blushed and continued to look down. "Lets just say... I know a little more then I did before." Bam explained.
Ville's face glowed with happiness. "I don't know what to say." He replied, running his hand along Bam's arm.
Bam shrugged, blushing some more. "It was like... it all suddenly made sense. Like... everything just came together finally." He took another drag of his cigarette, before putting it on the ashtray. Bam then picked up the crackers to crush them into the soup, stirring it around as Ville drank some coffee.
Ville smiled happily, "Mmm.... my favorite."
Bam smiled, "I know, its been waiting for you all month." Carefully, Bam brought the spoon up, which was now full of soup and crackers. He twisted his torso, bringing it to Ville. "Only the best for my Zilla Zalo."
Ville tried not to smile too much when Bam used that version of his pet name. "So you're going to feed me now?"
Bam nodded, "Yup."
"Who said I needed someone to feed me?" Ville posed playfully, arching one eyebrow carefully.
"Umm.... I did, since your hands fell off in that horrible accident, rendering you unable to feed yourself?" Bam offered, with a slight shrug. "Pleeeeease let me Willa." Bam added, pouting while batting his eyes.
Ville smiled and let Bam feed him. He never really intended to stop Bam in the first place. The soup felt nice going down and despite it being a cheap can of soup, it never tasted better. "Whats that?" Ville asked, in between bites, indicating to the mango.
"A mango evidently." Bam replied, poking the mango with the spoon. "I figured we could try it out."
Ville smiled, "Good enough."
Ville let Bam feed him a few more bites before he shook his head, indicating that he didn't want any more. Bam nodded and put the spoon down. He finished his cigarette, raising his eyebrow when Ville picked up the spoon. "What are you doing?" Bam asked as he watched Ville.
"Feeding you." Ville replied, spooning out some of the soup and offering it to Bam. His hand was still shaking, but not as badly as before.
"But this was my treat for you." Bam replied, actually looking a little sad.
"And it was a very lovely gesture. One I want to share with you." Ville replied, holding it out, closer to Bam. "I wont take no for answer." When Bam continued to look at the spoon, Ville added, "Have you had anything to eat yet?"
Bam couldn't argue with that, so he open his mouth and let Ville feed him. He chuckled since some spilled onto his chin. Ville chuckled and feed him another bite. They both held their hands under the spoon in an attempt to catch the soup before it made a huge mess. After a few bites, Bam insisted on feeding Ville the last of the soup. Once that was done, they ate the crackers and enjoyed the coffee. "I forgot how good this coffee was." Bam commented.
Ville smiled, running his hand through his own hair. "It is good. You did a great job making it. I would ask you how much you used, but I'm sure you didn't measure it."
Bam nodded, "I never do. That way its always different and a surprise!"
They waited a while after the soup was gone before they attacked the mango. And they literally attacked it. Bam stabbed and hacked at the defenseless piece of fruit like it was a wild animal and he was protecting Ville from it. The whole scene just made Ville laugh uncontrollably. Finally, when hunks of mango laid all over the tray, they tried it. Laughter ensued as they were soon covered in mango juice.
Ville's laughter slowed and his eyes lingered for a moment on Bam's lips. Remembering how nice it had been to feel their lips together again, made Ville long to taste them once more. His gaze finally moved to Bam's eyes, as he licked his lips. "Bam.. you have something on your cheek." Ville replied, indicating for Bam to lean closer. Bam did so without even thinking about it. Ville picked up a napkin like he was going to wipe something from Bam's cheek. He leaned closer and indicated for Bam to come closer. Ville waited for Bam to get close enough and then dropped the napkin, kissing Bam again.
Bam's eyes went wide when Ville suddenly kissed him-again. Their lips lingered near each other and Ville brushed his against Bam's. Bam leaned in and kissed Ville. Their kisses were soft and gentle, but there was an underlying desire for more. A heated passion that couldn't be denied much longer.
Bam placed his hand on Ville's cheek, smearing sticky mango juice in the process. Ville reached out and grabbed Bam's shirt and pulled him closer, sucking and nipping at Bam's bottom lip. Despite the sickly feeling that still lingered, Ville ached for more.
Ville jumped when Bam suddenly pushed the tray away from them. His eyes moved to the floor as glass shattered and the tray tumbled away. His eyes were quickly on Bam again, when the skater straddled his lap. Without thinking around it, his hands slide up Bam's back, holding him close.
Their lips meet again and he shivered as he felt Bam's tongue brush against his lips, wanting entrance. Bam's fingers snaked through Ville's hair as Ville opened his mouth, moaning when he felt Bam's tongue moving against his own.
Then the door burst open.
Bam's (as well as Ville's) heart fell into his stomach as he turned and looked to see who it was. "What?!"
Jess came into the room with a determined stride. "Alright... your holiday is over. You've been in bed for three whole days and I'm tired of making excuses to all the people who call needing you to sign for something, or need your opinion about something. I'm happy that you two are talking to each other again. And I wish you the best of luck with recovering Ville. But Bam needs to work." Jess replied, indicating to the door.
Bam shook his head, "Later. I'll work later. I'll actually be able to concentrate!"
Jess shook his head, "Now."
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"Do you hear that?" April asked, coming back into the kitchen with a basket of clean clothes. She was doing laundry when she thought she heard screaming and a loud dragging sound from upstairs.
Phil looked away from his paper. "I know Jess was going to tell Bam about the pile up of work on his desk. He hasn't done much for a month. Not that I really blame him. But he has some deadlines coming up that need to be addressed."
April nodded and put the laundry basket down on the counter and went to to see what was happening. When she got to the top of the stairs, she cried out in surprise. She could see Bam's legs danging out of the doorway and her youngest son was screaming for Jess to give him five more minuets. As she moved closer to the bedroom, she saw that Jess was attempting to pull Bam from his room.
Bam was holding on to foot board of the bed. Ville was curled up in the blanket by the head board, a pillow over his head. The loud dragging noise was the bed slowly making its way to the doorway, which was why Bam's legs were dangling through it. The bed was now right against the door frame. Jess' band mates, had offered to help him in prying Bam from his boyfriend long enough to get some work done.
"Jess!" April yelled, surveying the chaos.
"Hi mom." Jess replied, putting his foot against the end of the bed for leverage.
"APPPPPE!!!" Bam yelled, finally loosing his grip. Jess and his friends stumbled backwards, but recovered enough to start caring Bam down the hall.
"Is this all really necessary?" April asked, following them. Ville crawled to the foot of the bed and peeked out. "I love you Bam!" He cried out before laying in the bed once more, his head hurt all over again from the screaming. And all the noise and the bed shaking that had followed had left his stomach queasy. If he had been in a healthier state, he might have fought more to keep Bam with him.
"Can't Ville come?" Bam asked pouting, having resigned to his fate.
"No... you'll never get work done." Jess replied, finally putting Bam down, once they got to the bottom of the stairs. Before he had a chance to bolt, Jess turned him and started walking his brother to his office. "I'm sure mom can keep an eye on your Ville until you..." He trailed off as the front door slammed catching their attention.
"Where is he?!" A familiar voice yelled as a soaked and frantic looking Jonna came storming into the house. She ran over to Bam and started hitting him with her purse, as well as slapping him with her free hand. "Where is he?! If anything happened to him I swear I will kill you!!" Jonna yelled, distraught and crying. She continued to hit Bam, who ducked and covered, like some sort of fire drill.
"What are you talking about?!" Bam yelled, as Jess pulled Jonna off of him.
Missy came running from the kitchen, gasping happily when she spotted Jonna. "Jonna!" She yelled, distracting the enraged woman. As soon as her eyes left Bam, they filled with happiness, as she embraced Bam's wife.
"Missy! Its so good to see you." Jonna replied, keeping her arms around Missy. Missy looked down and whispered, "Its good to see you too." The pair giggled as Jonna whispered something in Missy's ear in Finnish. Missy blushed faintly and nervously tucked some hair behind her ear, chewing on her bottom lip.
Bam cleared his throat and the two broke away from each other. He was kneeling on the floor in front of them. "Now that your not as possessed as you just were. What the hell is your damage?!"
Jonna pouted, "I'm sorry. We got your DVD in the mail and Ville ran out of the house when he saw you crying. He didn't tell me where he was going, he hasn't called me since he left, and its almost been three days! I'm worried sick about him!" She replied, brushing away some tears.
"He's upstairs." Bam replied, meeting Jonna's shocked expression.
"He is?!" Jonna exclaimed, the happiness growing in her eyes.
Bam nodded, " I'm sorry that we haven't called you. I didn't even think about it. We spent most of the time sleeping." Jonna turned to Missy and hugged her, then went running up the stairs. "Hey! No beating on Ville!" Bam called after her.
Jonna paused and smiled at him. "Of course not!" She blew a kiss to Missy and finished running up the stairs. Missy caught it and sighed dreamily.
Bam pouted, "Oh but its alright to beat on me?!"
http://myforgottenpain.livejournal.com/18301.html#cutid1
http://myforgottenpain.livejournal.com/14222.html
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Sorry Slasher48! I couldn't resist posting it! Its not beta'd but its full of love! I swear I will do my homework now, like a good student!
Author: myforgottenpain
Pairing: Vam
Rating: PG-13 Foul Language, Alcohol References, and adult situation.
Summary: Bam's new found friendship with Ville had made him question parts of his life he has long since repressed. Through an unexpected visit from the Finnish rock star, many bottles of beer, and a special tattoo; Bam must decide if he wants to embrace a side of himself that he has always longed to explore.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything connected to HIM, Ville Valo, or Bam Margera. Nor do I imply that in reality they are anything but friends.
Authors Notes: This chapter is dedicated to my "Willa" nailsnoir777 and her lovely patiences with me hording her update, to read when I have more time. XD
The door slowly opened and Ville moved so he could sit up. Bam walked in sideways, turning so he could face Ville. "Dinner is served." Bam announced proudly, walking over to the older man.
Without even realizing it, Ville's hand covered his mouth. He watched Bam walk over to him silently, not realizing the effect this on the younger man, until Bam was right next to him. The jubilant expression that had shone so brightly from Bam, faltered, and he now chewed on his lip nervously.
"I hope you like..." Bam started to say, setting the tray on Ville's lap. But he stopped when Ville placed his hand on Bam's cheek, pulling the him in for a kiss.
Ville drew in Bam's bottom lip and sucked on it as Bam knelt next to him. He placed his other hand on Bam's hip, encouraging him to sit next to him. Leaning on his opposite hip now, Bam returned the kiss, his hands cupping Ville's face. Ville continued to slide his hand along Bam's hip after the kiss ended. They brushed their lips together, eyes closed, as Ville whispered "I love it."
And Ville really did. Some how it was perfectly Bam and perfectly sweet.
Bam gasped happily, "I'm glad."
Ville gazed at Bam, his eyes partly closed. He ran his hand along Bam's face and through his hair. "Why wouldn't I?" Ville asked softly, his hand cupping Bam's cheek, his thumb moving against the corner of Bam's mouth. "You did it for me." He whispered, brushing his noses against Bam's, before pressing their foreheads together.
Leaning into the touches, he slide his hand along Ville's to hold it, while Ville held his face. Bam whimpered softly, drawing his lips in, trying not to cry. "I don't know why..." He finally answered, shrugging his shoulders. He drew in a shaky breath and looked up finally, leaning in to kiss Ville gently, which Ville gladly returned.
"You have been so nice to me Bam." Ville said softly, smiling as they finally leaned away from each other. "It means the world to me and I really do appreciate it." He added as Bam fluffed the pillows behind his back.
Bam smiled as he picked up a cigarette from the tray and lit it, handing it to Ville. "I know it does." He paused, lighting his own cigarette. He watched the smoke for a moment before adding, "I just want you to know how much I love you."
Ville gagged on the drag he had just taken from his cigarette. He looked to Bam quickly, wide-eyed with surprise. It was far from perfect, but the last sentence had clearly been in Finnish.
"You... you... how?" Ville asked softly, amazed as much as he was impressed at Bam.
Bam blushed and continued to look down. "Lets just say... I know a little more then I did before." Bam explained.
Ville's face glowed with happiness. "I don't know what to say." He replied, running his hand along Bam's arm.
Bam shrugged, blushing some more. "It was like... it all suddenly made sense. Like... everything just came together finally." He took another drag of his cigarette, before putting it on the ashtray. Bam then picked up the crackers to crush them into the soup, stirring it around as Ville drank some coffee.
Ville smiled happily, "Mmm.... my favorite."
Bam smiled, "I know, its been waiting for you all month." Carefully, Bam brought the spoon up, which was now full of soup and crackers. He twisted his torso, bringing it to Ville. "Only the best for my Zilla Zalo."
Ville tried not to smile too much when Bam used that version of his pet name. "So you're going to feed me now?"
Bam nodded, "Yup."
"Who said I needed someone to feed me?" Ville posed playfully, arching one eyebrow carefully.
"Umm.... I did, since your hands fell off in that horrible accident, rendering you unable to feed yourself?" Bam offered, with a slight shrug. "Pleeeeease let me Willa." Bam added, pouting while batting his eyes.
Ville smiled and let Bam feed him. He never really intended to stop Bam in the first place. The soup felt nice going down and despite it being a cheap can of soup, it never tasted better. "Whats that?" Ville asked, in between bites, indicating to the mango.
"A mango evidently." Bam replied, poking the mango with the spoon. "I figured we could try it out."
Ville smiled, "Good enough."
Ville let Bam feed him a few more bites before he shook his head, indicating that he didn't want any more. Bam nodded and put the spoon down. He finished his cigarette, raising his eyebrow when Ville picked up the spoon. "What are you doing?" Bam asked as he watched Ville.
"Feeding you." Ville replied, spooning out some of the soup and offering it to Bam. His hand was still shaking, but not as badly as before.
"But this was my treat for you." Bam replied, actually looking a little sad.
"And it was a very lovely gesture. One I want to share with you." Ville replied, holding it out, closer to Bam. "I wont take no for answer." When Bam continued to look at the spoon, Ville added, "Have you had anything to eat yet?"
Bam couldn't argue with that, so he open his mouth and let Ville feed him. He chuckled since some spilled onto his chin. Ville chuckled and feed him another bite. They both held their hands under the spoon in an attempt to catch the soup before it made a huge mess. After a few bites, Bam insisted on feeding Ville the last of the soup. Once that was done, they ate the crackers and enjoyed the coffee. "I forgot how good this coffee was." Bam commented.
Ville smiled, running his hand through his own hair. "It is good. You did a great job making it. I would ask you how much you used, but I'm sure you didn't measure it."
Bam nodded, "I never do. That way its always different and a surprise!"
They waited a while after the soup was gone before they attacked the mango. And they literally attacked it. Bam stabbed and hacked at the defenseless piece of fruit like it was a wild animal and he was protecting Ville from it. The whole scene just made Ville laugh uncontrollably. Finally, when hunks of mango laid all over the tray, they tried it. Laughter ensued as they were soon covered in mango juice.
Ville's laughter slowed and his eyes lingered for a moment on Bam's lips. Remembering how nice it had been to feel their lips together again, made Ville long to taste them once more. His gaze finally moved to Bam's eyes, as he licked his lips. "Bam.. you have something on your cheek." Ville replied, indicating for Bam to lean closer. Bam did so without even thinking about it. Ville picked up a napkin like he was going to wipe something from Bam's cheek. He leaned closer and indicated for Bam to come closer. Ville waited for Bam to get close enough and then dropped the napkin, kissing Bam again.
Bam's eyes went wide when Ville suddenly kissed him-again. Their lips lingered near each other and Ville brushed his against Bam's. Bam leaned in and kissed Ville. Their kisses were soft and gentle, but there was an underlying desire for more. A heated passion that couldn't be denied much longer.
Bam placed his hand on Ville's cheek, smearing sticky mango juice in the process. Ville reached out and grabbed Bam's shirt and pulled him closer, sucking and nipping at Bam's bottom lip. Despite the sickly feeling that still lingered, Ville ached for more.
Ville jumped when Bam suddenly pushed the tray away from them. His eyes moved to the floor as glass shattered and the tray tumbled away. His eyes were quickly on Bam again, when the skater straddled his lap. Without thinking around it, his hands slide up Bam's back, holding him close.
Their lips meet again and he shivered as he felt Bam's tongue brush against his lips, wanting entrance. Bam's fingers snaked through Ville's hair as Ville opened his mouth, moaning when he felt Bam's tongue moving against his own.
Then the door burst open.
Bam's (as well as Ville's) heart fell into his stomach as he turned and looked to see who it was. "What?!"
Jess came into the room with a determined stride. "Alright... your holiday is over. You've been in bed for three whole days and I'm tired of making excuses to all the people who call needing you to sign for something, or need your opinion about something. I'm happy that you two are talking to each other again. And I wish you the best of luck with recovering Ville. But Bam needs to work." Jess replied, indicating to the door.
Bam shook his head, "Later. I'll work later. I'll actually be able to concentrate!"
Jess shook his head, "Now."
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"Do you hear that?" April asked, coming back into the kitchen with a basket of clean clothes. She was doing laundry when she thought she heard screaming and a loud dragging sound from upstairs.
Phil looked away from his paper. "I know Jess was going to tell Bam about the pile up of work on his desk. He hasn't done much for a month. Not that I really blame him. But he has some deadlines coming up that need to be addressed."
April nodded and put the laundry basket down on the counter and went to to see what was happening. When she got to the top of the stairs, she cried out in surprise. She could see Bam's legs danging out of the doorway and her youngest son was screaming for Jess to give him five more minuets. As she moved closer to the bedroom, she saw that Jess was attempting to pull Bam from his room.
Bam was holding on to foot board of the bed. Ville was curled up in the blanket by the head board, a pillow over his head. The loud dragging noise was the bed slowly making its way to the doorway, which was why Bam's legs were dangling through it. The bed was now right against the door frame. Jess' band mates, had offered to help him in prying Bam from his boyfriend long enough to get some work done.
"Jess!" April yelled, surveying the chaos.
"Hi mom." Jess replied, putting his foot against the end of the bed for leverage.
"APPPPPE!!!" Bam yelled, finally loosing his grip. Jess and his friends stumbled backwards, but recovered enough to start caring Bam down the hall.
"Is this all really necessary?" April asked, following them. Ville crawled to the foot of the bed and peeked out. "I love you Bam!" He cried out before laying in the bed once more, his head hurt all over again from the screaming. And all the noise and the bed shaking that had followed had left his stomach queasy. If he had been in a healthier state, he might have fought more to keep Bam with him.
"Can't Ville come?" Bam asked pouting, having resigned to his fate.
"No... you'll never get work done." Jess replied, finally putting Bam down, once they got to the bottom of the stairs. Before he had a chance to bolt, Jess turned him and started walking his brother to his office. "I'm sure mom can keep an eye on your Ville until you..." He trailed off as the front door slammed catching their attention.
"Where is he?!" A familiar voice yelled as a soaked and frantic looking Jonna came storming into the house. She ran over to Bam and started hitting him with her purse, as well as slapping him with her free hand. "Where is he?! If anything happened to him I swear I will kill you!!" Jonna yelled, distraught and crying. She continued to hit Bam, who ducked and covered, like some sort of fire drill.
"What are you talking about?!" Bam yelled, as Jess pulled Jonna off of him.
Missy came running from the kitchen, gasping happily when she spotted Jonna. "Jonna!" She yelled, distracting the enraged woman. As soon as her eyes left Bam, they filled with happiness, as she embraced Bam's wife.
"Missy! Its so good to see you." Jonna replied, keeping her arms around Missy. Missy looked down and whispered, "Its good to see you too." The pair giggled as Jonna whispered something in Missy's ear in Finnish. Missy blushed faintly and nervously tucked some hair behind her ear, chewing on her bottom lip.
Bam cleared his throat and the two broke away from each other. He was kneeling on the floor in front of them. "Now that your not as possessed as you just were. What the hell is your damage?!"
Jonna pouted, "I'm sorry. We got your DVD in the mail and Ville ran out of the house when he saw you crying. He didn't tell me where he was going, he hasn't called me since he left, and its almost been three days! I'm worried sick about him!" She replied, brushing away some tears.
"He's upstairs." Bam replied, meeting Jonna's shocked expression.
"He is?!" Jonna exclaimed, the happiness growing in her eyes.
Bam nodded, " I'm sorry that we haven't called you. I didn't even think about it. We spent most of the time sleeping." Jonna turned to Missy and hugged her, then went running up the stairs. "Hey! No beating on Ville!" Bam called after her.
Jonna paused and smiled at him. "Of course not!" She blew a kiss to Missy and finished running up the stairs. Missy caught it and sighed dreamily.
Bam pouted, "Oh but its alright to beat on me?!"
http://myforgottenpain.livejournal.com/18301.html#cutid1
http://myforgottenpain.livejournal.com/14222.html
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Sorry Slasher48! I couldn't resist posting it! Its not beta'd but its full of love! I swear I will do my homework now, like a good student!