Adrift: Talking in circles.
Title: Adrift
Author: Amaroqwolf
Rating: pg-13 to NC-17
Pairings: VAM, Chad/Deron and Jussi/Bam (shrugs)
Synopsis: Ville meets Bam, but its not the Bam we know and love. Something is seriously wrong here, can Ville catch on before its to late.
A/N: Yet another serious AU. Previous Chapters on my LJ http://amaroqwolf-inc.livejournal.com/
“Four more shows boys,” Chad said looking at Deron and Matt who both looked up.
“What?” Matt asked.
“I said four more shows,” Chad said rubbing his chin.
“Yeah, so why are you counting down? Do you want to go back home?” Deron asked looking confused.
“No, but you do realize we need to come up with a Drummer when we get home,” He said.
“Sooner,” Jussi said from the doorway.
The three members of CKY looked up in surprise. “What do you mean?” Deron asked.
Jussi sighed. “Jyriki called, we have a gig next night, and well he wants me to come home and practice.” He said shrugging. “He says you need to get back into the Finnish Music, that american Music might have messed you up.” He explained.
“So when are you leaving?” Chad asked finally.
“In about 20 minutes,” Jussi said. “But might I make a suggestion for your drummer?” He asked.
“Not another Finnish freind is it?” He asked.
Jussi chuckled and shook his head then nodded towards the sleeping Bam. “He’s good, real good.” He explained. “Better then he should be for as little practice as he’s had.”
The three bandmates looked at Bam silently but no one said anything. “He won’t do it,” Matt said.
“Let me talk to him, I think I can get him to do it.” Chad responded.
Deron nodded. “Alright, will leave you be.” He said.
Chad grinned. “Thanks,” He said with a small smile.
Deron nodded looking away blushing slightly. “No problem,” He said blushing still.
Chad got up and walked over kissing the Singer gently. “You’re going to have to get over that Blushing thing, cause every time you blush it makes me want to throw you down and-“
“To much info!” Matt cried getting up leaving the room with Jussi.
Deron chuckled and kissed Chad’s forehead. “Maybe later okay, you know after we know we have a drummer.” He said.
Chad sighed resting his forehead on Deron’s shoulder. “Yeah, I don’t think talking to Bam during my current situation is a good idea,” He supplied.
Deron blinked. “What do you,” His eyes went wide when Chad pressed his hips against his leg. “Oh,” He mumbeled. “Need some help?” He asked.
“Might be nice,” Chad said keeping still now.
Deron tilted Chad’s head up and kissed him deeply, he groaned into his lovers mouth shivering slightly. “Oh,” He whispered softly as Deron’s hand grazed his stomach.
“Shhh, don’t wanna wake up Bam,” Deron whispered in his ear as he unbuckled his belt and pushed his jeans down. He gently began stroking his lover. “Shhh,” He whispered.
Chad buried his face in Deron’s shoulder the hot puffs of his moist breath brushing through the thin T-shirt he was wearing. Deron sped up his strokes slowly gently tenderly.
A soft whimpering whine escaped Chad’s throat and he came into his lovers hand. Deron smiled and kissed the older man’s temple and slowly pulled back helping him clean himself off. He smiled and kissed Chad deeply. “I’ll let you have your chat with Bam now.” He said softly his voice horse.
Chad nodded. “Will, continue this later,” He supplied.
Deron nodded. “Yeah,” He said then quickly turned and slipped from the room shutting the door behind him.
“Did that feel good?” Someone asked from behind him.
Chad turned around his brown eyes wide. “Bam?”
Bam was looking at him eyebrows arched but his emotions were clearly being guarded. “I mean, did it feel good to let him do that with you?” He asked sounding scared.
Chad swallowed trying to find the right words. He couldn’t think of what to say he’d thought Bam was asleep. But Bam had just witnessed Deron jacking him off. “Um..” He took a deep breath. “Yes, it felt good.” He said slowly.
“What’s it like to let someone else,” He paused again. “Do that to you?”
Chad slowly moved to the couch where Bam had been laying but had sat up to accommodate Chad’s need to sit down. “Its very nice,” He said slowly. “I mean it feels good, it sends pleasure coursing through your veins. It goes straight to your core.” He said softly.
Bam looked thoughtful blinking slowly then nodded slowly. “Oh, okay.” He said drawing his knee’s up to his chest. He rubbed silently at the bridge of his nose. The stitches had come out but he said it still itched.
Chad studied the younger man silently he’d always thought of Bam as a kid brother. He always wanted to protect him but right now Bam was confused about who he was. His dreams that he’d told Chad and Deron about had been proof enough of that. Had Jess’s screwing with his head fucked up what he wanted. Had the dark-haired boy sitting there rubbing his nose and staring at his jean clad knee’s have once wanted to make love to a woman? Had the boy ever had a chance to be attracted to a woman. Had he wanted to hold the softness of a woman smell them and fall in love with them? Or had Jess screwed him before his young mind had made that decision for itself? Chad slowly reached out touching Bam’s shoulder gently. “Hey?” He said softly.
Bam slowly looked up his hand dropping away from his nose as he studied Chad silently. “Yeah?”
“Um, look whatever it is your feeling, your thinking about its not wrong.” He said softly gently. “I don’t know what he told you, but whatever you want in life isn’t wrong you can do whatever you want.” He said.
Bam blinked tears welling in his blue eyes he nodded. “Thanks,” He whispered then before glancing away he spoke again. “I’ll do it,”
Author: Amaroqwolf
Rating: pg-13 to NC-17
Pairings: VAM, Chad/Deron and Jussi/Bam (shrugs)
Synopsis: Ville meets Bam, but its not the Bam we know and love. Something is seriously wrong here, can Ville catch on before its to late.
A/N: Yet another serious AU. Previous Chapters on my LJ http://amaroqwolf-inc.livejournal.com/
“Four more shows boys,” Chad said looking at Deron and Matt who both looked up.
“What?” Matt asked.
“I said four more shows,” Chad said rubbing his chin.
“Yeah, so why are you counting down? Do you want to go back home?” Deron asked looking confused.
“No, but you do realize we need to come up with a Drummer when we get home,” He said.
“Sooner,” Jussi said from the doorway.
The three members of CKY looked up in surprise. “What do you mean?” Deron asked.
Jussi sighed. “Jyriki called, we have a gig next night, and well he wants me to come home and practice.” He said shrugging. “He says you need to get back into the Finnish Music, that american Music might have messed you up.” He explained.
“So when are you leaving?” Chad asked finally.
“In about 20 minutes,” Jussi said. “But might I make a suggestion for your drummer?” He asked.
“Not another Finnish freind is it?” He asked.
Jussi chuckled and shook his head then nodded towards the sleeping Bam. “He’s good, real good.” He explained. “Better then he should be for as little practice as he’s had.”
The three bandmates looked at Bam silently but no one said anything. “He won’t do it,” Matt said.
“Let me talk to him, I think I can get him to do it.” Chad responded.
Deron nodded. “Alright, will leave you be.” He said.
Chad grinned. “Thanks,” He said with a small smile.
Deron nodded looking away blushing slightly. “No problem,” He said blushing still.
Chad got up and walked over kissing the Singer gently. “You’re going to have to get over that Blushing thing, cause every time you blush it makes me want to throw you down and-“
“To much info!” Matt cried getting up leaving the room with Jussi.
Deron chuckled and kissed Chad’s forehead. “Maybe later okay, you know after we know we have a drummer.” He said.
Chad sighed resting his forehead on Deron’s shoulder. “Yeah, I don’t think talking to Bam during my current situation is a good idea,” He supplied.
Deron blinked. “What do you,” His eyes went wide when Chad pressed his hips against his leg. “Oh,” He mumbeled. “Need some help?” He asked.
“Might be nice,” Chad said keeping still now.
Deron tilted Chad’s head up and kissed him deeply, he groaned into his lovers mouth shivering slightly. “Oh,” He whispered softly as Deron’s hand grazed his stomach.
“Shhh, don’t wanna wake up Bam,” Deron whispered in his ear as he unbuckled his belt and pushed his jeans down. He gently began stroking his lover. “Shhh,” He whispered.
Chad buried his face in Deron’s shoulder the hot puffs of his moist breath brushing through the thin T-shirt he was wearing. Deron sped up his strokes slowly gently tenderly.
A soft whimpering whine escaped Chad’s throat and he came into his lovers hand. Deron smiled and kissed the older man’s temple and slowly pulled back helping him clean himself off. He smiled and kissed Chad deeply. “I’ll let you have your chat with Bam now.” He said softly his voice horse.
Chad nodded. “Will, continue this later,” He supplied.
Deron nodded. “Yeah,” He said then quickly turned and slipped from the room shutting the door behind him.
“Did that feel good?” Someone asked from behind him.
Chad turned around his brown eyes wide. “Bam?”
Bam was looking at him eyebrows arched but his emotions were clearly being guarded. “I mean, did it feel good to let him do that with you?” He asked sounding scared.
Chad swallowed trying to find the right words. He couldn’t think of what to say he’d thought Bam was asleep. But Bam had just witnessed Deron jacking him off. “Um..” He took a deep breath. “Yes, it felt good.” He said slowly.
“What’s it like to let someone else,” He paused again. “Do that to you?”
Chad slowly moved to the couch where Bam had been laying but had sat up to accommodate Chad’s need to sit down. “Its very nice,” He said slowly. “I mean it feels good, it sends pleasure coursing through your veins. It goes straight to your core.” He said softly.
Bam looked thoughtful blinking slowly then nodded slowly. “Oh, okay.” He said drawing his knee’s up to his chest. He rubbed silently at the bridge of his nose. The stitches had come out but he said it still itched.
Chad studied the younger man silently he’d always thought of Bam as a kid brother. He always wanted to protect him but right now Bam was confused about who he was. His dreams that he’d told Chad and Deron about had been proof enough of that. Had Jess’s screwing with his head fucked up what he wanted. Had the dark-haired boy sitting there rubbing his nose and staring at his jean clad knee’s have once wanted to make love to a woman? Had the boy ever had a chance to be attracted to a woman. Had he wanted to hold the softness of a woman smell them and fall in love with them? Or had Jess screwed him before his young mind had made that decision for itself? Chad slowly reached out touching Bam’s shoulder gently. “Hey?” He said softly.
Bam slowly looked up his hand dropping away from his nose as he studied Chad silently. “Yeah?”
“Um, look whatever it is your feeling, your thinking about its not wrong.” He said softly gently. “I don’t know what he told you, but whatever you want in life isn’t wrong you can do whatever you want.” He said.
Bam blinked tears welling in his blue eyes he nodded. “Thanks,” He whispered then before glancing away he spoke again. “I’ll do it,”