Say goodnight and go.

[___lovesmenot]

You could go anywhere anytime and find someone,
but how will you know if he's kind?
The sun is out, but happiness only reminds 
you of the people you hurt...
mistakes that you made when you were down.
And where are you now?
You're sweeping up these sorry streets.
And i knew somehow when you looked up and over me,
that you could look up these words,
but you

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[fairyroyalty]

i hear in my mind,
all these voices
i hear in my mind,
all this music
and it breaks my heart
and it breaks my heart.

[___lovesmenot]

i don't get you.

[fairyroyalty]

okay so i know we're not on speaking terms or whatever we are.
but i wanted to tell you something because, i dont know. i feel like you needed to know this.
yeah, you may think i'm getting whats coming to me, because i'm some malicious "cunt" but whatever.

i'm really sick.
i went in for an ultrasound and it turns out i only have one kidney.
i'm missing a left one.

i dont care what mean things you may have to say to me,
i just wanted you to know.

..yeah

[___lovesmenot]

I don't think you're getting what's coming to you or anything like that.
I'm really sorry to hear that you're sick, and i wish nothing but the best for you honestly.
I'm just confused as to why i was called a "backstabbing slut". And why when i texted you to say hello i got bitched out for "trying to get you back".
I assumed you never wanted to speak to me again.
I don't hold any ill feelings towards you, i'm just a bit confused.

[fairyroyalty]

david gets pretty pissy when you text me or try to get in contact with me. he says cheaters don't deserve second chances. and you dont deserve an explanation to my actions. but i think thats all pretty dumb. since all of those things happened so very long ago. he says he only wants whats best for me, but i think he just thinks i'm just stupid. i was with him when you texted me. and he the things he wanted to say, were so rude and i told him it was none of his business. he likes to go through my phone when i'm not around. but i'm rambling.
thank you. i wish nothing but the best of luck for you, in life whether i talk to you or not. i like talking to you, but sometimes i feel guilty because i start to rethink everything, and if things ended up right or if it was realer than what we'd seen. but, i cant think about these things anymore. it'd just cause too much shit. and i dont want to be the one who just might fall back and get hurt for being stupid. you know. its hard, and i'm confused.

[___lovesmenot]

I kind of figured that was the case. But really, it's not that big of a deal. I have a lot going on right now so i didn't let it get to me that much.
When I texted you, I was just wanting to tell you about all the amazing things that've been going on lately, I guess I just got in the habit of doing that.
I understand what you mean, I like talking to you too, but it does seem like it's difficult for you.
And I don't want to cause problems for anyone.