i can be a really jealous person if i look around livejournal or myspace to much i become jealous of everyone elses lives and begin to think how much my own life sucks i wish i was truly happy.
And then I wrote him a letter last night. Not the kind I will ever give him, but the kind I would like to, if I had some spine. It's not even a "bad" note. It's just a note that tells him that I think he's amazing and that I'm always there, if he needs me. But I know he doesn't, and that's why I can't give it to him. It'd be flattering myself.
I'm afraid that I will always compare people to him, forever. My friend wants me to like someone else, and I'm trying a little bit, but I can't stop thinking about him.
I wish I were angry at him, but I'm not.
I'm not pretentious enough to say that I love him, because I'm probably stupid and just think so... but if I ever loved anyone, it would be him.
i read your post on christcore. i hope the decision went well if you allready had to do it. goodluck with everything. and feel free to im me if you ever want to talk "a fallen affair"
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if i look around livejournal or myspace to much i become jealous of everyone elses lives and begin to think how much my own life sucks
i wish i was truly happy.
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but in fact, i think alot of people on myspace//lj have tres sucky lives because their only friends are online ones.
so be happy with what you have.
:)
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And then I wrote him a letter last night. Not the kind I will ever give him, but the kind I would like to, if I had some spine. It's not even a "bad" note. It's just a note that tells him that I think he's amazing and that I'm always there, if he needs me. But I know he doesn't, and that's why I can't give it to him. It'd be flattering myself.
I'm afraid that I will always compare people to him, forever. My friend wants me to like someone else, and I'm trying a little bit, but I can't stop thinking about him.
I wish I were angry at him, but I'm not.
I'm not pretentious enough to say that I love him, because I'm probably stupid and just think so... but if I ever loved anyone, it would be him.
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