a cry for help or just my last remaining escape?
anonymous
April 26 2004, 14:38:19 UTC
I miss you, painfully. There is nobody here like you, nobody who appreciates poetry or art. Everyone is so fucking normal, and judgemental. I feel trapped in this life I have, here in the most beautiful city I have ever seen. It feels like a spiritual hell, dry and devoid of true passion, and the hazy, dreaming buildings are destroyed by the total lack of passion of people here. My family has fallen apart completely, and I feel so...alone. I wish that I could see you, talk things over and see how you are, truly. I only just found this journal, I made it my task to find out where you were tonight, because I feel like you are the only person who understands me. Maybe I'm a fool. Maybe. But this feeling of being so trapped and frustrated is almost like I'm going mad, I cry so much.
Sorry to pour these things out when we haven't spoken for so long, but I needed someone who understood what it's like to feel trapped in your own mind with no escape, and no air to draw into your mouth to even enable you to scream.
Re: a cry for help or just my last remaining escape?_________mirrorApril 28 2004, 10:01:12 UTC
:( you can always come and visit me angela. yes, i do know how you feel, i'm a tearful girl too at the moment.. i'm going through my own nightmares too.. i don't want to talk about that here though, but you can probably guess the root of it, it's the same as it's always been.. it manages to taint everything.. i'm not even sorry for it, it's just like, a fact, like the inevitability of sunrise..
it does sound horrible that everyone seems so normal there, most people here are pretty normal really too, underneath. i think it's a representation of life sadly enough.
it would be good to talk about things, email me.. i'm so sorry to hear that you feel alone.. yes, you must email me and maybe you'll feel a little less like you are trapped..
actually, apart from my counsellor, i don't talk to people here about things that are hurting me, so it would be nice to talk about it all..
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Sorry to pour these things out when we haven't spoken for so long, but I needed someone who understood what it's like to feel trapped in your own mind with no escape, and no air to draw into your mouth to even enable you to scream.
xx ♥ xx
Angela
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yes, i do know how you feel, i'm a tearful girl too at the moment.. i'm going through my own nightmares too.. i don't want to talk about that here though, but you can probably guess the root of it, it's the same as it's always been.. it manages to taint everything.. i'm not even sorry for it, it's just like, a fact, like the inevitability of sunrise..
it does sound horrible that everyone seems so normal there, most people here are pretty normal really too, underneath. i think it's a representation of life sadly enough.
it would be good to talk about things, email me.. i'm so sorry to hear that you feel alone.. yes, you must email me and maybe you'll feel a little less like you are trapped..
actually, apart from my counsellor, i don't talk to people here about things that are hurting me, so it would be nice to talk about it all..
i hope things are better for you ♥
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