43. Spring ~ Blind II~
Title: Blind (2/4)
Theme: 43. Spring
Pairing: TeruxHisashi (Glay)
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Not my boys, no money to make!
Comments: …kinda AU…Hisashi has no children (as far as I know) but Teru has 3 of them (2 daughters and 1 son if I remember right?). Comment, ne! I start to like this story. *_*
Other persons: mentioning of Teru's niece, mentioning of Hisashi's daughter
Check out my other fics if you want to: Blind I , When the rain begins to fall , Sweet Surprises, Decisions (part I-V) , Chance , Confessions , Hidden Desires , It's always the same... , Regretful Thoughts , A new friend , How I see him... , Who's the fool? , Overslept
Blind II
Spring, yeah, spring is mostly considered as a ‘new beginning’ and I agree. Everything seems to become alive at that season, new plants are showing up, animals return or come out of their hiding places and, the most funny thing (as I put it), humans also have a new start in some ways.
I really think they’re infected by the nature around them or maybe it’s just an old instinct? Ah, I don’t know but I prefer the romantic option. Am I naïve? If you think, ‘yes’…just call me that way but I don’t mind at all!
So, I met him again at 11th of April, after 3 hole agonizing (I admit, I’m overdoing it a bit…) months I finally saw him once more and would have bounced over there if that wouldn’t be too childish for a man to do. I didn’t want to scare him away, you know.
Instead I neared him as casually as I was able to and sat down right away this time with a “Remember me?”, obviously surprising him by that
First he bent a brow but then smiled a bit. “Sure. I don’t forget that easily.”
“Haven’t seen you here for some time.”
“Well, some things in my life changed during the last few months…” Hisashi looked down at his hands and one could nearly sense the sadness he was radiating. It was hard to see him that unhappy all the time in autumn and now he was even more sad than before.
“I’m sorry…” I only said and really meant it.
“Why? You don’t know me…we met just once…and you don’t know what happened…so why?” He asked, all the time his voice sounding kind of broken but steady though.
“Uhm…I don’t know.” Lie number one. “I’m just worried, that’s all.” Lie number two…okay, it was a half truth because it’s not only because I was worried, I also…had a crush on him but I would never have told him then and you and I both know it wouldn’t have done anything good right at that time.
“Yeah, but it’s kinda odd if a stranger is worried about someone…I just don’t understand.” He went on and he had a point.
“Ano…I saw you pretty often sitting here right at that bench and I began to wonder. I wasn’t able to not notice you.” I hoped pretty much I wasn’t too rude and also didn’t went too far.
Was that a slight blush I discovered at his face? I would have giggled if I weren’t a man. “Hm…you don’t have to be sorry. It was my fault…it is my fault she isn’t with us anymore.” Tears threaded into hi eyes but he bravely held them back, swallowing a few times.
“You…you mean….your daughter?” Right after that I quickly covered my mouth and apologized. “Oh, I’m sorry. I didn’t want to…”
I had to stop when he looked at me with his studying gaze for some seconds, still those watery eyes. Slowly he shook his head. “It’s okay…my….former wife wanted me to talk to somebody and said it would be the best…but I just couldn’t back then…” He put his gaze upwards and I just waited for him to continue, surprised to no end he really was telling me something that private.
He sighed but then obviously decided he would trust me but also he probably thought it wouldn’t harm him to tell his story to a stranger he most likely wouldn’t see again.
“…my daughter, she was five when she…left us.” Hisashi took a deep breath in then. “She…was kidnapped by some criminals which mixed something up, thought we’re some rich family they could get money from…but we weren’t that rich and we paid all we could…as they found out it was the wrong child…they-they…” At that he embraced himself and I saw him shudder slightly. “…they just murdered her. She was innocent and even the wrong child and they just…” A lonely tear made it down his face as he grabbed his arms tightly. “And…it’s all my fault. Mine!” He struggled very hard not to start crying and stopped for a while to calm down a bit.
“I-I didn’t take care of her enough…when I was at that park with her. A few seconds I didn’t watch her and…they knocked me down and…she was gone.” He grabbed his face then. “I wish I could turn back time…I really wish…”
His bottom lip quavered then and I just couldn’t hold it back anymore, so I neared him as well as put an arm around his shoulders to soothe him a bit. First Hisashi stiffened but then relaxed and surprisingly leaned up against me.
It hurts so much to see somebody like this, and then even him! I felt a pain in my stomach I’ve never felt before. “I’m sorry…but as far as I can say anything at that…you couldn’t have done anything to prevent it.” As I patted his shoulder he somewhat calmed down. “Who could have imagined a thing like this would happen? Your wife will think so, too.”
A seemingly long silence settled between us until he decided to speak again. “She obviously didn’t…”
“Huh? So she…” I started.
“Yes, she blamed me…and I think she’s right. And even if she’s not right…I still can understand her. Everyone has his own way to cope with a situation like this.” Hisashi closed his eyes then but then opened them slowly. “She wants a divorce…already moved out. Now even she’s going to leave me…” A sniffling sound could be heard before he suddenly sat up, slowly lifting his gaze. My heart wrenched at that sight, the loneliness, the regret…he seemed so lost. “Thank you, I guess. Thank you for listening.” He said gratefully, the tiniest of a smile reclaiming his features.
“You’re welcome. Always. I’d like to help you…if I could. I don’t know what it is like to lose a daughter…but it’s enough to me to imagine something like that would happen to Hotaru. To be honest, I really don’t -want- to know.” I shuddered at the mere thought.
“I’m afraid there’s nothing you can do…you listened to me and I think…I really think it helped in some way.” Again his gaze drifted off and got locked at the sky, which now was showing a nice, soft blue and some little clouds. “I’m feeling better right now…and it’s because of you.” Hisashi admitted all of a sudden but he seemed as surprised at his statement as I was due to his slightly red cheeks.
“Well, I’m gonna go then…arigato!” He stood then and already was a few steps away when I realized if I wouldn’t do anything right now I would probably never see him again.
“Ah, wait…” I started as I scribbled down my mobile number at a little paper I luckily found within my wallet. Hisashi turned, looking at me quizzically but also a bit surprised. “…in the case you need someone to listen to you again…or if you need any help…” I trailed off, hoping he would take the piece of paper I was holding up.
For some moments he looked kind of unsure but then smiled and took it with a nod. “Thanks.” He said and then walked off. There was something in his way of moving which told me something had changed within him, his shoulders didn’t hang as much as they did before, his steps weren’t that ‘heavy’.
I hoped so much it wouldn’t be just my imagination but also I hoped I would see him again. I had my doubts at that…somehow.
Maybe it was the way the wind played with his hair, maybe it were the leaves of Sakura which the gust of wind blew around him…I don’t know anymore. I just watched him as he increased more and more and all the time that rose-coloured leaves sinking to the floor without any noise.
Next part will follow soon! ^_^V Ha~ I somehow really like this story...that's seldom. XDD~ Enjoy!
Theme: 43. Spring
Pairing: TeruxHisashi (Glay)
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Not my boys, no money to make!
Comments: …kinda AU…Hisashi has no children (as far as I know) but Teru has 3 of them (2 daughters and 1 son if I remember right?). Comment, ne! I start to like this story. *_*
Other persons: mentioning of Teru's niece, mentioning of Hisashi's daughter
Check out my other fics if you want to: Blind I , When the rain begins to fall , Sweet Surprises, Decisions (part I-V) , Chance , Confessions , Hidden Desires , It's always the same... , Regretful Thoughts , A new friend , How I see him... , Who's the fool? , Overslept
Blind II
Spring, yeah, spring is mostly considered as a ‘new beginning’ and I agree. Everything seems to become alive at that season, new plants are showing up, animals return or come out of their hiding places and, the most funny thing (as I put it), humans also have a new start in some ways.
I really think they’re infected by the nature around them or maybe it’s just an old instinct? Ah, I don’t know but I prefer the romantic option. Am I naïve? If you think, ‘yes’…just call me that way but I don’t mind at all!
So, I met him again at 11th of April, after 3 hole agonizing (I admit, I’m overdoing it a bit…) months I finally saw him once more and would have bounced over there if that wouldn’t be too childish for a man to do. I didn’t want to scare him away, you know.
Instead I neared him as casually as I was able to and sat down right away this time with a “Remember me?”, obviously surprising him by that
First he bent a brow but then smiled a bit. “Sure. I don’t forget that easily.”
“Haven’t seen you here for some time.”
“Well, some things in my life changed during the last few months…” Hisashi looked down at his hands and one could nearly sense the sadness he was radiating. It was hard to see him that unhappy all the time in autumn and now he was even more sad than before.
“I’m sorry…” I only said and really meant it.
“Why? You don’t know me…we met just once…and you don’t know what happened…so why?” He asked, all the time his voice sounding kind of broken but steady though.
“Uhm…I don’t know.” Lie number one. “I’m just worried, that’s all.” Lie number two…okay, it was a half truth because it’s not only because I was worried, I also…had a crush on him but I would never have told him then and you and I both know it wouldn’t have done anything good right at that time.
“Yeah, but it’s kinda odd if a stranger is worried about someone…I just don’t understand.” He went on and he had a point.
“Ano…I saw you pretty often sitting here right at that bench and I began to wonder. I wasn’t able to not notice you.” I hoped pretty much I wasn’t too rude and also didn’t went too far.
Was that a slight blush I discovered at his face? I would have giggled if I weren’t a man. “Hm…you don’t have to be sorry. It was my fault…it is my fault she isn’t with us anymore.” Tears threaded into hi eyes but he bravely held them back, swallowing a few times.
“You…you mean….your daughter?” Right after that I quickly covered my mouth and apologized. “Oh, I’m sorry. I didn’t want to…”
I had to stop when he looked at me with his studying gaze for some seconds, still those watery eyes. Slowly he shook his head. “It’s okay…my….former wife wanted me to talk to somebody and said it would be the best…but I just couldn’t back then…” He put his gaze upwards and I just waited for him to continue, surprised to no end he really was telling me something that private.
He sighed but then obviously decided he would trust me but also he probably thought it wouldn’t harm him to tell his story to a stranger he most likely wouldn’t see again.
“…my daughter, she was five when she…left us.” Hisashi took a deep breath in then. “She…was kidnapped by some criminals which mixed something up, thought we’re some rich family they could get money from…but we weren’t that rich and we paid all we could…as they found out it was the wrong child…they-they…” At that he embraced himself and I saw him shudder slightly. “…they just murdered her. She was innocent and even the wrong child and they just…” A lonely tear made it down his face as he grabbed his arms tightly. “And…it’s all my fault. Mine!” He struggled very hard not to start crying and stopped for a while to calm down a bit.
“I-I didn’t take care of her enough…when I was at that park with her. A few seconds I didn’t watch her and…they knocked me down and…she was gone.” He grabbed his face then. “I wish I could turn back time…I really wish…”
His bottom lip quavered then and I just couldn’t hold it back anymore, so I neared him as well as put an arm around his shoulders to soothe him a bit. First Hisashi stiffened but then relaxed and surprisingly leaned up against me.
It hurts so much to see somebody like this, and then even him! I felt a pain in my stomach I’ve never felt before. “I’m sorry…but as far as I can say anything at that…you couldn’t have done anything to prevent it.” As I patted his shoulder he somewhat calmed down. “Who could have imagined a thing like this would happen? Your wife will think so, too.”
A seemingly long silence settled between us until he decided to speak again. “She obviously didn’t…”
“Huh? So she…” I started.
“Yes, she blamed me…and I think she’s right. And even if she’s not right…I still can understand her. Everyone has his own way to cope with a situation like this.” Hisashi closed his eyes then but then opened them slowly. “She wants a divorce…already moved out. Now even she’s going to leave me…” A sniffling sound could be heard before he suddenly sat up, slowly lifting his gaze. My heart wrenched at that sight, the loneliness, the regret…he seemed so lost. “Thank you, I guess. Thank you for listening.” He said gratefully, the tiniest of a smile reclaiming his features.
“You’re welcome. Always. I’d like to help you…if I could. I don’t know what it is like to lose a daughter…but it’s enough to me to imagine something like that would happen to Hotaru. To be honest, I really don’t -want- to know.” I shuddered at the mere thought.
“I’m afraid there’s nothing you can do…you listened to me and I think…I really think it helped in some way.” Again his gaze drifted off and got locked at the sky, which now was showing a nice, soft blue and some little clouds. “I’m feeling better right now…and it’s because of you.” Hisashi admitted all of a sudden but he seemed as surprised at his statement as I was due to his slightly red cheeks.
“Well, I’m gonna go then…arigato!” He stood then and already was a few steps away when I realized if I wouldn’t do anything right now I would probably never see him again.
“Ah, wait…” I started as I scribbled down my mobile number at a little paper I luckily found within my wallet. Hisashi turned, looking at me quizzically but also a bit surprised. “…in the case you need someone to listen to you again…or if you need any help…” I trailed off, hoping he would take the piece of paper I was holding up.
For some moments he looked kind of unsure but then smiled and took it with a nod. “Thanks.” He said and then walked off. There was something in his way of moving which told me something had changed within him, his shoulders didn’t hang as much as they did before, his steps weren’t that ‘heavy’.
I hoped so much it wouldn’t be just my imagination but also I hoped I would see him again. I had my doubts at that…somehow.
Maybe it was the way the wind played with his hair, maybe it were the leaves of Sakura which the gust of wind blew around him…I don’t know anymore. I just watched him as he increased more and more and all the time that rose-coloured leaves sinking to the floor without any noise.
Next part will follow soon! ^_^V Ha~ I somehow really like this story...that's seldom. XDD~ Enjoy!