Illusions (4/?)
Title : Illusions (4/?)
Pairing : Ruki x Kai
Theme : IV - 4 - Static
Rating : NC 17 (in future)
Summary : “You doing okay?”
A/N : A damn stressful day today. Realise I forgot to post up the chptrs I wrote previously ^^; C&C welcomed. This is from Ruki's POV
Past chapters
Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3
The concert was grueling, us playing more of our louder songs than normal, the decision of that taking its toll on our bodies. I sipped the hot lemon honey drink passed to me by our manager, it soothing my throat as I watched one by one of the rest of the guys lie on the ground and couch in similar manner of exhaustion. We still have the encore to do but that could wait a while. A soft groan drew my attention to him, not that it was never at him in the first place.
“You doing okay?”
He shrugged, holding an icepack to his shoulder, pain etched on his face. He jerked away from my light touch to his shoulder, backing to lean against the wall, avoiding me. This is becoming ridiculous. And it is really pissing me off. He had refused to listen to my explanations about Reita, avoiding the topic and just plain behave like I do not exist in his life. This still situation between us is driving me up the way. Uruha calling me distracted me then as I gave Kai one last hard stare before turning to Uruha.
After the show and being the first to shower, I was comfortably leaning against the wall cooled with the early winter air, smoking perhaps my third cigarette for the night, waiting for the rest to appear so we can all return to the hotel together. The perks with being alone in the cold is that your mind then to wander off, thinking of stupid things sometimes, and on others, things that could mean a lot. Why am I afraid of being committed to him? He is not a toy to me. He is more than that. But then, can I trust myself to stay true to him?
The door slamming alerted me to another’s presence. When the said person did not join me, I knew that it must be him. True enough, a quick glance to my left confirmed that he is leaning against the wall, eyes fixed on the sky high above us, us being in Mie tonight allowing us to see the stars which if we were in Tokyo, it would have been impossible.
“Pretty”
So he decided to speak to me first now. I gave a soft hum of assent before turning my eyes on him. He looked more refreshed now, better than the pale self he was earlier, but that doesn’t mean I do not worry about him any less.
“Kai?”
“Hmm?”
How do I start? Ah forget about it. Just let the inner me take over. I do not want to think of repercussions or what ifs anymore. My cigarette barely reached the ground as I reached to cradle his surprised face between my palms, my thumbs stroking his cheeks as I leant forward, my lips capturing his, his own scent overwhelming my senses as his hands reached to fist at my shirt, pulling me nearer. After the week of stagnant lock hold between us, this felt so much more. This is all that I want, this moment. After what seems like forever, we pulled apart, our breaths irregular. I released his face, my hands falling to my sides, him detecting the change in mood, his hands too fell to his own side, uncertainty filling his eyes.
“Goodbye”
The door opened, letting out our remaining three members who were all joking around good-naturedly as they joined us. Kai nodded at me, no words from him as he led the walk back to our hotel.
What have I done?
Pairing : Ruki x Kai
Theme : IV - 4 - Static
Rating : NC 17 (in future)
Summary : “You doing okay?”
A/N : A damn stressful day today. Realise I forgot to post up the chptrs I wrote previously ^^; C&C welcomed. This is from Ruki's POV
Past chapters
Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3
The concert was grueling, us playing more of our louder songs than normal, the decision of that taking its toll on our bodies. I sipped the hot lemon honey drink passed to me by our manager, it soothing my throat as I watched one by one of the rest of the guys lie on the ground and couch in similar manner of exhaustion. We still have the encore to do but that could wait a while. A soft groan drew my attention to him, not that it was never at him in the first place.
“You doing okay?”
He shrugged, holding an icepack to his shoulder, pain etched on his face. He jerked away from my light touch to his shoulder, backing to lean against the wall, avoiding me. This is becoming ridiculous. And it is really pissing me off. He had refused to listen to my explanations about Reita, avoiding the topic and just plain behave like I do not exist in his life. This still situation between us is driving me up the way. Uruha calling me distracted me then as I gave Kai one last hard stare before turning to Uruha.
After the show and being the first to shower, I was comfortably leaning against the wall cooled with the early winter air, smoking perhaps my third cigarette for the night, waiting for the rest to appear so we can all return to the hotel together. The perks with being alone in the cold is that your mind then to wander off, thinking of stupid things sometimes, and on others, things that could mean a lot. Why am I afraid of being committed to him? He is not a toy to me. He is more than that. But then, can I trust myself to stay true to him?
The door slamming alerted me to another’s presence. When the said person did not join me, I knew that it must be him. True enough, a quick glance to my left confirmed that he is leaning against the wall, eyes fixed on the sky high above us, us being in Mie tonight allowing us to see the stars which if we were in Tokyo, it would have been impossible.
“Pretty”
So he decided to speak to me first now. I gave a soft hum of assent before turning my eyes on him. He looked more refreshed now, better than the pale self he was earlier, but that doesn’t mean I do not worry about him any less.
“Kai?”
“Hmm?”
How do I start? Ah forget about it. Just let the inner me take over. I do not want to think of repercussions or what ifs anymore. My cigarette barely reached the ground as I reached to cradle his surprised face between my palms, my thumbs stroking his cheeks as I leant forward, my lips capturing his, his own scent overwhelming my senses as his hands reached to fist at my shirt, pulling me nearer. After the week of stagnant lock hold between us, this felt so much more. This is all that I want, this moment. After what seems like forever, we pulled apart, our breaths irregular. I released his face, my hands falling to my sides, him detecting the change in mood, his hands too fell to his own side, uncertainty filling his eyes.
“Goodbye”
The door opened, letting out our remaining three members who were all joking around good-naturedly as they joined us. Kai nodded at me, no words from him as he led the walk back to our hotel.
What have I done?