recently ive found myself not at an extreme high or low, as far as how easy things are. i think a lot more than i used to. it's difficult to understand whats going on, so im not always going to try to. i trust life will take me to a fine place eventually, so im not worried ( Read more... )

so ive realized that shortly after now ill be back in schoool, without too many significant breaks. the days will go by very fast including sigma things and lacrosse starting again. noooo mooore highschool. none. and its not like the work i do now matters a ton, ive already applied and basically am into college. ill graduate, work over the summer, ( Read more... )

lately i think ive been too believing. its hard to try to get your facts from other people if theres no fact at all, and its all just opinion. sifting through my opinion on things is difficult, but when i have four opinions goin at it in my head, its rough. im not exactly sure what aspects of each i believe ( Read more... )

so the past few days ive spent at least an hour after school in the stained glass lab... its really fun. its weird, i can just do stained glass and listen to christmas music all day.

ive decided that church is really healthy for me, and that im gonna go more. maybe not morning, but definitely vespers.

its weird cause i really notice a difference in myself from the times i do go to church compared to the times when i dont. i like church me better.

ive decided that going to church regularly is really beneficial to my character. im gonna do it every week now. or at least vespers.

i've also found a new appreciation for tea. i drink two cups a day about. its warm and tasty.

my hand smells like gasoline.

so i played in the all star game, scored a goal, burned the shit out of my knee on the turf, but all in all had a good time. some kid from westtown has my digits now which is weird. but he's cool so whatever. uuuummmmm... i feel mexican... because of... mexicano.

the waffles i loved betrayed me ( Read more... )

a lot of times i think about why i do some of the things i do. motivations are freakin ridiculous to think about. but i usually have no idea why i do things. someone told me that as long as i was thinking about why i was doing the things i did and trying to do them for the right reasons i was fine ( Read more... )

turns out that soccer at anc for me is over. no more games no more friends league (minus indoor). a lot of people are asking me if im sad that its over, and im really not at all. i mean, it was going to end sometime... and lets face it, our last games were awesome. charterday coach got his 100th win and we beat westtown on a prayer of a shot from ( Read more... )