I feel so trapped in who I am right now. I feel like i'm at the bottom of a well that i couldn't possibly ever climb out of. What am I supposed to do to stop feeling so shitty. I can't even think of anything anymore.
I think (and I really don't know your situation and don't know you well enough to tell you what to do or how to solve your problems or even what your problems are, so how could I possibly have a solution? Nevertheless: I THINK) you should start a project of some sort (besides a cadence-weapon-covering ukelele band, though that's good too) so you can take your mind off who you are and think instead about what you're working on.
Also, I had a big tantrum the other day because I think people don't spend any time alone ever, and then they feel too busy and don't know themselves and are afraid of actually spending time with themselves and grow to loathe themselves. Not that I know that you don't spend time alone. Perhaps you do. But it doesn't seem like anybody ever does.
So. Everyone should have more alone time, and that way, when I have alone time, I won't spend it being paranoid that everyone but me is having a big, awesome party.
Pretty much the only time that I ever post in this thing is when I want people's opinions. So your opinion was actually non-un-asked-for. it's appreciated.
And I do try to keep busy, im just bad at not thinking about things. and I always have terrible dreams. It's hard to keep busy when you're sleeping.
I guess it is silly to think that being depressed is just like a question that has an answer. Maybe you just have to think about the things you're thinking about, even if you don't want to. Or maybe you should jsut watch a bunch of tv and never think about your own life ever.
I still think it's good to have a lofty goal, though, so that when you can't think of a good reason to keep persevering, you can go, "Oh yeah, it's because I'm going to write the great (North) American novel!"
Acutally, when I start feeling depressed or trapped with things I try and just change something big, something that seems related to the problem. It's obviuosly much easier when there's something that I'm depressed or worried over. These things include (but are by no means excluded to) getting a new job, moving, going unemployed for a while, give some sort of recreation up for an indeterminate amount of time (ie. video games, comic books, tv, even music.) But everything is different and I really have no idea what your life's like right now because I never see you.
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Also, I had a big tantrum the other day because I think people don't spend any time alone ever, and then they feel too busy and don't know themselves and are afraid of actually spending time with themselves and grow to loathe themselves.
Not that I know that you don't spend time alone. Perhaps you do. But it doesn't seem like anybody ever does.
So. Everyone should have more alone time, and that way, when I have alone time, I won't spend it being paranoid that everyone but me is having a big, awesome party.
There's my un-asked-for opinion.
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And I do try to keep busy, im just bad at not thinking about things. and I always have terrible dreams. It's hard to keep busy when you're sleeping.
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I still think it's good to have a lofty goal, though, so that when you can't think of a good reason to keep persevering, you can go, "Oh yeah, it's because I'm going to write the great (North) American novel!"
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