Give My Heart For You
Band: Dir en grey
Rating: R-NC/17
Pairing: KaoxKyo main
Disclaimer- I dun own Diru, yo 0.0 but what i do own is this compu... BWAHAHA
AN: x-X i love reviews~ it gives me something to read while im like.. in the middle of stuff! so please review~ lol, i dun mind if ya dun >_> i just preffer cause im bored like that usually... wow my normal typed grammer sucks compared to when im writing something like a fic XD wow, im dumb... i get sidetracked easily and am vary lazy XD so if i randomly like die or something... dont be afraid to E-Mail me from my profile and bitch me out, okay?(be nice please T_T not my fault im slightly retarded)
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Chapter 1 - Taiyou No Ao
#~#~#Kyo’s POV#~#~#
I open my eyes slightly but am blinded by a bright light so I close them again before I can see anything. My head hurts so bad but I don’t know why either. I can’t hear anything, weren’t my ears just being blown out by sonic booms from amps and the screaming of fans? ‘Wait... This isn’t the concert hall! Where the FUCK am I?!’
#~#~#Normal#~#~#
Kyo sat up immediately, straining to ignore the drowsiness he felt and as he looked around he knew exactly where he was. ‘FUCK! SHIT! CUNT! DAMNIT TO HELL!!’ he hated hospitals most of all and of course with all his luck, this is where he seemed it be stuck at the moment. He heard a loud annoying beeping and glared at the heart monitor, which drifted into a blank stare as he watched the frequent spasms of the needle.
He was brought out of his trance as the door suddenly opened and in walked his fellow band members and a man he’d never seen before but judging by his attire could obviously assume to be the doctor. He glanced along each of their faces to see concern stained into them. The doctor directed them all to take seats as he stood aside Kyo’s quite uncomfortable bed. Before Kyo could say anything the doctor cleared his throat and began to speak.
“You’ve been unconscious for about 36 hours now, and we have taken the liberty with the consent of your friends to run a few tests. Before I get into anything further I would like to let you know that we will be working continuously to find a way to help you.” He paused for a moment, looking down at his clipboard and clearing his throat again. “Your friends have not heard of the situation yet either so I’m sure this will be quite a shock to all of you. You have been diagnosed with a rare heart disease,” Shinya gasped right away, clenching Die’s hand as the man in white continued on “which has not even been given a name yet. What happens is it eats away very slowly at certain arteries right as they branch off into the body. This is the reason for your frequent blackouts, the blood being cut off somewhat from your brain. It may also have helped in your history of ear problems, cutting the flow of blood to the organ.”
By now Shinya had his head buried against Die’s arm who was deep in thought clenching the arm of the chair, and Totchi had tears slowly running down his cheeks as he stared at his friend Kyo. Kaoru just sit there staring in disbelief. Kyo tried to breath but choked slightly. “What... What exactly is going to happen, can this… be stopped?”
The doctor sighed not so encouragingly as he adjusted his glasses for no apparent reason. “Well the only known cure so far is a transplant, but with this disease it’s hard to find a suitable donor. I’m sorry but if we don’t find one, and I have consulted other doctors in the hospital for their opinions, but I give you only 4 months. I’m truly sorry, sir.” With that the doctor bowed in respect and took his leave.
Kyo stared down at the sheets in front of him, shaking slightly as thoughts of everything the doctor had just said and what it meant raced through his mind, clashing into eachother like speeding semis. Silence filled the room aside from Totchi’s sobs and Shinya’s silent sniffles. Kaoru looked up at Kyo and it jolted his own heart to see the Warumono in such a position. Die held onto Shinya, not wanting to break the silence nor knowing what to say to help at all.
~+~Later that night, Die and Shinya’s apartment~+~
“FUCK! How could I have let this happen?! This is bullshit!” Kaoru shouted as he punched the wall across him. Die rested a hand on Kao’s fist as he walked into the room from the kitchen. As he eased the fist down, he handed the older man another beer. Shinya would have disagreed but he could tell nothing he could say would justify it after what they’ve gone through. Totchi who was asleep on the couch with still smudged eyeliner, his face slightly contorted within his dreaming state.
The doctor had told them that Kyo couldn’t leave until the next day, that they wanted to watch over him and run some more tests. Everyone feared for the blonde, everyone feared the worst would come and he’d be taken from them so suddenly they wouldn’t even know.
Die spoke up as he sat down next to Shinya on the couch, moving Totchi’s legs slightly for room. “Hey, What are we gonna do about where he lives? I mean.. We can’t really have him be living on his own like this. What if something happens?” Kaoru looked up.
“He can live with me.” He didn’t know why he was so worked up but he just knew he needed to have the vocalist near him. He couldn’t think of how it would be, worrying all the time while Kyo was with someone else watching over him. “It’s only me there as it is and Totchi’s apartment is too small, plus I don’t want you two to have to deal with more.”
“Are you sure?” Shinya finally said.
“Yes, I’m the leader as it is so I need to take care of you all anyways.” He said, slightly calmed from before as he continued to sip his beer. “I’ll go pick him up tomorrow.” He then yawned, having finished the can.
“You gonna drive home like that, Kao? I don’t think so.” Die said, standing up “We don’t mind, you can crash here for the night if ya want.” Kaoru shook his head.
“Nah, that’s okay, I’m fine.” He declined as he stood as well to get his things.
“No, stay here tonight. I’ll go get you some blankets,” he looked to Die, “Die, could you please take Kaoru to the room?” The tall redhead nodded and shrugged to the defeated Kao, then led him down the hall to the spare room. Shinya smiled sadly as he disappeared into the room before going to the closet to get Kaoru’s blankets.
Rating: R-NC/17
Pairing: KaoxKyo main
Disclaimer- I dun own Diru, yo 0.0 but what i do own is this compu... BWAHAHA
AN: x-X i love reviews~ it gives me something to read while im like.. in the middle of stuff! so please review~ lol, i dun mind if ya dun >_> i just preffer cause im bored like that usually... wow my normal typed grammer sucks compared to when im writing something like a fic XD wow, im dumb... i get sidetracked easily and am vary lazy XD so if i randomly like die or something... dont be afraid to E-Mail me from my profile and bitch me out, okay?(be nice please T_T not my fault im slightly retarded)
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Chapter 1 - Taiyou No Ao
#~#~#Kyo’s POV#~#~#
I open my eyes slightly but am blinded by a bright light so I close them again before I can see anything. My head hurts so bad but I don’t know why either. I can’t hear anything, weren’t my ears just being blown out by sonic booms from amps and the screaming of fans? ‘Wait... This isn’t the concert hall! Where the FUCK am I?!’
#~#~#Normal#~#~#
Kyo sat up immediately, straining to ignore the drowsiness he felt and as he looked around he knew exactly where he was. ‘FUCK! SHIT! CUNT! DAMNIT TO HELL!!’ he hated hospitals most of all and of course with all his luck, this is where he seemed it be stuck at the moment. He heard a loud annoying beeping and glared at the heart monitor, which drifted into a blank stare as he watched the frequent spasms of the needle.
He was brought out of his trance as the door suddenly opened and in walked his fellow band members and a man he’d never seen before but judging by his attire could obviously assume to be the doctor. He glanced along each of their faces to see concern stained into them. The doctor directed them all to take seats as he stood aside Kyo’s quite uncomfortable bed. Before Kyo could say anything the doctor cleared his throat and began to speak.
“You’ve been unconscious for about 36 hours now, and we have taken the liberty with the consent of your friends to run a few tests. Before I get into anything further I would like to let you know that we will be working continuously to find a way to help you.” He paused for a moment, looking down at his clipboard and clearing his throat again. “Your friends have not heard of the situation yet either so I’m sure this will be quite a shock to all of you. You have been diagnosed with a rare heart disease,” Shinya gasped right away, clenching Die’s hand as the man in white continued on “which has not even been given a name yet. What happens is it eats away very slowly at certain arteries right as they branch off into the body. This is the reason for your frequent blackouts, the blood being cut off somewhat from your brain. It may also have helped in your history of ear problems, cutting the flow of blood to the organ.”
By now Shinya had his head buried against Die’s arm who was deep in thought clenching the arm of the chair, and Totchi had tears slowly running down his cheeks as he stared at his friend Kyo. Kaoru just sit there staring in disbelief. Kyo tried to breath but choked slightly. “What... What exactly is going to happen, can this… be stopped?”
The doctor sighed not so encouragingly as he adjusted his glasses for no apparent reason. “Well the only known cure so far is a transplant, but with this disease it’s hard to find a suitable donor. I’m sorry but if we don’t find one, and I have consulted other doctors in the hospital for their opinions, but I give you only 4 months. I’m truly sorry, sir.” With that the doctor bowed in respect and took his leave.
Kyo stared down at the sheets in front of him, shaking slightly as thoughts of everything the doctor had just said and what it meant raced through his mind, clashing into eachother like speeding semis. Silence filled the room aside from Totchi’s sobs and Shinya’s silent sniffles. Kaoru looked up at Kyo and it jolted his own heart to see the Warumono in such a position. Die held onto Shinya, not wanting to break the silence nor knowing what to say to help at all.
~+~Later that night, Die and Shinya’s apartment~+~
“FUCK! How could I have let this happen?! This is bullshit!” Kaoru shouted as he punched the wall across him. Die rested a hand on Kao’s fist as he walked into the room from the kitchen. As he eased the fist down, he handed the older man another beer. Shinya would have disagreed but he could tell nothing he could say would justify it after what they’ve gone through. Totchi who was asleep on the couch with still smudged eyeliner, his face slightly contorted within his dreaming state.
The doctor had told them that Kyo couldn’t leave until the next day, that they wanted to watch over him and run some more tests. Everyone feared for the blonde, everyone feared the worst would come and he’d be taken from them so suddenly they wouldn’t even know.
Die spoke up as he sat down next to Shinya on the couch, moving Totchi’s legs slightly for room. “Hey, What are we gonna do about where he lives? I mean.. We can’t really have him be living on his own like this. What if something happens?” Kaoru looked up.
“He can live with me.” He didn’t know why he was so worked up but he just knew he needed to have the vocalist near him. He couldn’t think of how it would be, worrying all the time while Kyo was with someone else watching over him. “It’s only me there as it is and Totchi’s apartment is too small, plus I don’t want you two to have to deal with more.”
“Are you sure?” Shinya finally said.
“Yes, I’m the leader as it is so I need to take care of you all anyways.” He said, slightly calmed from before as he continued to sip his beer. “I’ll go pick him up tomorrow.” He then yawned, having finished the can.
“You gonna drive home like that, Kao? I don’t think so.” Die said, standing up “We don’t mind, you can crash here for the night if ya want.” Kaoru shook his head.
“Nah, that’s okay, I’m fine.” He declined as he stood as well to get his things.
“No, stay here tonight. I’ll go get you some blankets,” he looked to Die, “Die, could you please take Kaoru to the room?” The tall redhead nodded and shrugged to the defeated Kao, then led him down the hall to the spare room. Shinya smiled sadly as he disappeared into the room before going to the closet to get Kaoru’s blankets.