Missed Chances - Part 1
Title: Missed Chances
Rated: PG-13 for words and kissing
Chapter: 1
Pairing: Ryan MillerxZdeno Chara
Why now? Why did this have to happen to me? First it was Danny, then Brian, and then Paul. But now…… why as I having these feelings, for a guy I did not even know? And the worse part of it all was, the guy played for a rival team. My hand hit my forehead slightly as I let out a groan. These things always happened to me, but I never knew why.
“If you keep hitting yourself Ryan, you’ll go brain dead.” A snicker came from my left, but I truly did not care right now. Looking over finally, my soft, chocolate brown eyes came to look in a pair of dark blue eyes. Ones that I knew all to well, no not like that we were just really good friend.
Rolling my eyes softly, I brushed dark brown hair out of my eyes. Looking at the shorter guy next to me I scoffed a bit. “Yeah, yeah Derek.” I murmured, more to myself than to anyone else that was around us in the locker room. Grabbing the leg pad that I had set off to the side, I looked once more at Derek. “you always say that, even if I brush my hair out of my eyes.” I then said, looking over at Derek.
Well I did not look over, but I looked down at him. With him being the shortest guy on the team now, it was hard not to pick on him for it. He ran a hand through his light brown hair, and that caused me to realize that I was staring. My eyes quickly darted back to the task at hand, strapping the straps on the leg pad so it would not come off.
Hearing the talk around the locker room, I looked up every once and a while, catching some of the small talk. But I choose to ignore it to the best I could, thinking of the game ahead. One that should be a exciting one, yet brutal at the same time. Letting out a deep breath, I finished up with the straps and put on the rest of my gear.
‘Get a hold of yourself Mills.’ I thought closing my eyes, taking in a few more deep breaths. ‘He’s just another guy, a really tall, and ho….’ My eyes snapped open at the thought, as I shook my head trying to get the thought out of my head. Okay so maybe yeah he was hot, but I did not think that, did I?
Feeling a hand on my shoulder once more, I looked up into the concern eyes of my coach. “You okay there son?” Lindy asked, as I smiled up at him showing that I was just fine. “Yep, couldn’t feel better, just thinking about the game that’s all.” I said quickly as he watched me before letting me finish getting my gear on.
‘That was a close one.’ I thought, as I finished getting the rest of my gear on. Hearing our captain Craig Rivet, telling us to hurry up.
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The screams of the crowd, flowed through my body as I caught that puck. I was lucky, due to the very low visibility. Letting out a sigh, I looked up at the player in front of me. It sucked that I had to look up to give him a slight glare, but what sucked worse was that he just smiled down at me before skating away.
My stomach did a flip as I caught that smile, making me suck in a breath and turn to look away. Tossing the ref the puck, I flicked off my one glove and grabbed the water that was sitting there. Taking a quick drink, before spraying my face with water, I turned to look over my shoulder. Letting out a sigh, as I could not see the Bruin’s player anymore.
But that did not mean I could not see him again, since maybe sometime here in the next several minutes he might be back out on the ice. Which caused me to shudder slightly, just thinking of him made me feel as if I truly……. ‘DON’T EVEN SAY IT!’ I snapped in my head as I got ready to see the puck drop.
‘Just focus on the game, that’s all I need to do.’ I thought watching the puck now.
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All I saw was a flash of gold and black, and then something hit me. Not all to hard, but hard enough to have me land on my ass. The force did knock the air out of me, and caused me to gasp for my breath. Looking up, all I saw was a number 33, before I saw Paul come up and push the guy. Snapping something about hitting me, and that he was going to pay for it.
Standing up, I quickly grabbed Paul’s arm and went to pull him back. It was a accident or from what I saw it was. And Paul was taking it to seriously, making me think Paul would hurt the guy. “Paul, it was a accident, don’t do something you’ll regret.” I said quickly as he shrugged me off. Looking over at the Bruins guy, hoping that maybe he would say something that would help with what I was saying.
But he only just looked at me, gave another smile as if to dare me to say something to him. Clenching my jaw slightly, I went to go say something else but the ref was now there getting between the two. Letting out a sigh of relief, I watch the Bruin skate back to his bench. ‘Cocky bastard…’ Was all I could think at the time.
Looking at Paul once more, who had a look of anger, I skated back towards my net. This was going to be one long game if I did not find a way to get him out of my mind. Taking in a deep breath, I just wished that the game would end as soon as possible.
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‘Thank god…’ was all I could think as I heard the horn blare, signaling that we had just won the game. It was close 3-2, and we had gone to over time. There was so many times I could of seen that puck go into the next, but it never did. My body was sore, some of those shots really hurt when they hit my body.
As we made our way to the locker room, I could not help but look over my shoulder. Hoping to catch a glimpse of him, and maybe find something to put my mind at ease. But no, he was already off the ice, and more than likely in the locker room. Sighing I finally stepped on the bench, receiving a pat on the back from Lalime. Nodding my head, I followed into the locker room, my mind wandering to what happened on the ice today.
While getting out of my gear, one by one my teammates left, leaving me to an empty locker room. This really did not bother me, I was kind of grateful that I was alone. Gave me time to think about the days events, and what else had been going through my head all day. Taking a quick shower, I then got dress, grabbing my bag I headed out of the locker room.
But stopped when I saw who was standing just down the hall, like he was waiting for someone. Sucking in a deep breath, I walked on hoping that I was just imaging things. But I was stopped as I went to pass him, by a hand that seemed to engulf my upper arm.
I froze as I felt the hand, turning only my head I had to look up to look into the eyes of the guy. “Yes?” I asked taking in a low yet deep breath, trying to keep my voice stern. Shifting the bag that was on my shoulder, so that it was not digging into my neck now. “I’m sorry for the…” The Bruin started, before I waved a hand like it was nothing. “Don’t worry about it, I’m use to it Zdeno.” I said quickly looking at him before shifting as he let go of my arm.
Seeing the look that crossed his face when I said his name was different. ‘What? Was he not use to being called by his own name?’ I asked myself shifting once more. Shaking my head I sighed, and gripped the strap on my bag. “What is it that you really want?” I finally asked looking up at him once more. ‘God damn him for being so tall…’ I snapped in my mind.
“Can’t I just make sure your okay? I mean you hit the ice pretty hard.” Zdeno said a smile placed on those delectable lips. ‘What am I thinking?’ I thought to myself once more, shaking my head. “Like I said before, the hit was nothing.” I said quickly just wanting to get away from him and do something to clear his head. Turning to walk away, I was stopped once more by Zdeno grabbing my arm.
But instead of just stopping me, I was turned and the last thing I could remember was his face near mine. And that was it, but I could feel his lips on mine, his hands holding me there in place. My bag slumped down to the ground at our feet, as I took my arms and wrapped them around his neck to hold him there. But all too soon, he pulled away, a mischievous smile placed on his lips.
Pulling away from me, he gave me one soft peck to the forehead. “Take care of yourself Ryan.” He said that smile still placed on his lips. Turning he walked away, leaving me to stand there gasping for breath. ‘What in gods name just happened…..’ Was all I could think about right now. Blinking a few time’s I shook my head, looking around I realized what had happened. “SHIT!” I snapped.