SEPTEMBER 19TH, 2004

[2_b_or_not]

This entry I wrote on paper b/c I didn't have access to the internet so noe including it in LJ.

I'm lost & confused. #1 reason why I think I'm always so stressed is b/c i try so hard to understand myself but somethings I don't know and can't control.  my feelings and emotions seem so unstable & uncontrollable at times that now I thunk I know

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[humor_me]

let it out, i used to feel that way about not being heard but it wasnt because he was joking , it was because he got offended and took things too personally. ok , so they are personal but they are meant to help not destroy, why dont they see this.? Well after a few years of this and after my own personal growth I realised that i needed to leave him alone. I needed to stop trying to make him see what I felt, and i stopped expecting him to rescue me from my insecurities. I thought that if he could only empathie a little he could say just the right things or do the right things to make me feel me! But nooooo, I was wrong.. once i took that responsibilty off of him , I began to see how I can give those things to myself. Now i just focus on the fact that we dont communicate as we should and that is what really needs to be worked on..

hang in there.. you will need to figure out what YOU need before asking him to understand. You may know what you need but maybe there is a little something inside of you waiting to save yourself. :) <33 hugs