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[24hourmama]

Have been working like a fiend on my novel, which is 104,000 words and counting. The agent had originally said 50-70,000, but I have been assured that a) my book doesn't read and feel like a 100,000 word novel and b) a lot of readers won't even bother to pick up such a slight volume anyway

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[veggiemama]

I so often feel like that, too, that I channel the impatience, anger, and disrespect of my childhood. It's difficult to step out of that; I feel like I fail more than succeed. Hugs to you.

And WTG on the book!

[24hourmama]

Thanks for the understanding. It's so difficult - I feel like I am doing battle with forces deeper and older than anything - generations of abusiveness and poison.

This is an example of my sister's venom - spewed recently on Facebook when I confessed that I'd broken down and screamed at the girls...

"Rhonda... you have created the expectation that your girls can do whatever they want because you always say yes. Therefore... YOU are to blame for their supposed ungrateful/spoiled behavior. I am continuously appalled at your dislike of your children when many of my childless friends and also - ME, ME, ME - would LOVE to have spoiled rotten children. ANY children. Also, stop being eco-friendly to the stupid lice and use detergent/shampoo/lice killing products on the market that will work. I can't wait for you to delete me."

She unfriended me just hours later. Sigh. Gotta be NICE.

[womanoffaith]

wow, i'm so sorry. good on you for the book!! also, wanted to share that i've done quite a bit of breaking off generational curses (weird as it may sound). so what you are feeling/experiencing has validity. furthermore:), it's absolutely ok to be honest about parenting. it's hard work. sometimes it's unpleasant, as are ALL relationships. you are doing it, and your girls will one day recognize that you did the very best, and that your intentions were pure and true. stay strong mama! you are loved.