Music Challenge, by Loz

[lozenger8]

Title: Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometimes
Rating: Blue Cortina
Word Count: 3000+ words.
Notes: Sam/Gene slash. Written for the music challenge. Spoilers for 2.08. Title and inspiration from Beck's "Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometimes", known most notably from the Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind soundtrack. This story is also written as part of

Comments

[space_oddity_75]

Wow, Loz... this is so beautiful and sad!
Poor Sam! Brilliant writing, though! :)

[lozenger8]

Thank you, SYLVY :)

[tabula_x_rasa]

Oh, ouch, wow.

Ooh, I loved Sam's obliviousness in relationships, and this line: the man he wants to be, sometimes, so if he can’t be him, he’ll settle for being with him because YES and also his subconscious mirroring, also because YES, and the way the weather reflects Sam's moods. And it was creepy and deeply appropriate at the end how without that connection with Gene, the worlds fades back to the boring, meaningless, predictable present.

Of course, I'm also horribly depressed. ;)

[lozenger8]

Of course, I'm also horribly depressed. ;)

SCORE!

;) The weather was informed by the line in the song that goes, "I need your loving, like the sunshine". I thought, if he hasn't got loving, he probably hasn't got sunshine either.

Thank you!

[m31andy]

Oh perfect! That made me smile so much! Sam really is that much of a prick!!!

[lozenger8]

You were smiling? You're reading it wrong. :p

Thanks Andy.

Sick, Andy. SICK.

[talkingtothesky]

I really liked this. It's cleverly, beautifully written but it feels effortless, like the words are somehow meaningless too. I like how each scene seems to get shorter towards the end; there's less and less to say because Sam cares a little less each time.

I also loved the part about the spoons; it feels very real that he would start to think about little things such as spoons when the big picture starts to fade away.

Sam is meaningless when he doesn't have that other person there to feel anything for him; Gene represents feelings and Sam has learnt through him that without feelings he is nothing. You've managed to say all that without actually saying it, and that's why I think this is really clever! ;)

[lozenger8]

I really liked this. It's cleverly, beautifully written but it feels effortless, like the words are somehow meaningless too.

It really wasn't effortless, but this sentiment is wonderful in ways I can't articulate. When you've spent ten minutes rearranging a sentence, to have someone say it appears effortless is a grand compliment.

Thank you :D

[catwalksalone]

OK, first I'll get the freaking out of the way that you quoted Del Shannon and I looked up those lyrics about 5 minutes ago for my own purposes. *freaks*

Done.

Loz, that was painful and heartbreaking and you have this way of twisting words in just the right way. The way that Sam thought he couldn't bear not to feel but finds that he can't bear to feel and the way that is inextricably linked with where he is in time. That everyone loses. Not just Sam. Everyone is dampened and flattened out. Just, ouch.

[lozenger8]

Del Shannon! Wooo!

Thanks :D It was my first attempt to write something that ended on a sour note. I didn't want to, you know, I kept saying, 'maybe I could reset to---', but it had to be done.