i haven't been very believing of God lately, but i think i need to start praying. i have a lot of things i need to talk to someone about, and if there is anyone who would understand me, it is supposed to be him, right? my heart feels so heavy right now.

i went to a show tonight with my best friends. i had a really good time, and i was pleasantly surprised to find out that day of lions was playing. i haven´t seen them since...last summer, and at the time it was only gena. jessie´s band(s) were good too, especially the first one, hot air balloon ride or something like that?

anyway, today was a good ( Read more... )

i decided to finish my hair tonight, if my cousin follows through. it'll give me something to do, and something to take my mind off of shit that is getting me down. she always can make me smile, no matter what.

it's worse than you think.

i wish that i had two different colored eyes. that would be sexy. it's like being two different people at once...
i love eyes, they tell a lot about a person.

meh.

i don't understand myself sometimes. eh.

so we pass the time and occupy our minds
and close our eyes and hope that we'll be fine

i wish everyone could be happy, including myself.
i know no one can be happy all the time, but it seems like i, and most people i know, can be unhappy most of the time. this was a blah day and i don't think tomorrow will be any better. what an outlook huh.

i don't know anymore. i don't think i ever knew.

you always say goodnight.

i really don't have much to say...i am doing well...that's about it.

have a good night/day.

what you think you know doesn't necessarily have to do with reality.
-sam, life as a house

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH i am so overwhelmed with school right now. i have so much to do and no time to do it. i think i'll drop out. maybe not, we'll see.

and life goes on.

p.s. the juliana theory is coming to portland on my birthday.

my tmj is coming back. i need to stop clenching my teeth, and i need to stop stressing myself out. it gets me nowhere ( Read more... )

why do i feel so lonely even though i have people all around me?

how come i waste so much time on things that are so trivial? i could be quite happy right now, but of course not. i do it to myself i guess.

easier said than done though, right?
confused, are you? i hope so.