I'm coming to terms with myself, I think.

[1863_project]

I'm not weird. I'm not different. I'm just myself. I'm a nerd, but that's not a bad thing. It's just who I am.

And oddly enough, this is because of this guy:

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[blinding_voip]

I know I'm autistic (my Asperger's isn't overly-severe, but it's been enough to hinder me socially) and I know I'm a geek and I know I've never been one of the popular girls, but I'm myself, and I'm proud of that. There's no reason for me to make excuses for myself or my behavior - I ought to just be myself. I'm not going to use Asperger's as an excuse for anything - it's just part of me, and it's what makes me the person that I am.

♥♥♥♥♥♥

[1863_project]

D'awwwww, thank youuuuu! (hugs)

...how did you get the hearts to be bigger?

[blinding_voip]

< font size = + 2 > & hearts ; < / font>

Without the spaces, of course. :p

[1863_project]

Ah, grazie! I'm so code-illiterate (although if I need code I usually just make Dad do it because he used to be a programmer).

[soprano_no_eiji]

I don't know you. Scares me how we're kinda doing this again.

[1863_project]

Doing what again? I'm confused.

[soprano_no_eiji]

Better?

I understand more now.

[1863_project]

Sorry about that, you...they just laced into me when you were at work tonight. It was unpleasant. I cried so much my eyes still tear up when I look at screens.

[ecl1958]

Hey Steph? This post brings to mind a reconnection I've had since I've been back on FB. Really sweet guy I knew for a long time during my first go-round on the music scene. He is, as another music scene friend described him, "a nerd's nerd." Totally geeky. I wouldn't say he was the most popular guy on the scene. People made fun of him...hell, *I* even made fun of him and we were (and are once again) dear friends.

Where am I going with all this? Well, he's totally himself, different drummer and all. It took awhile, but he met his Ferio (or maybe in his case it's Feri-A) about 10 years ago, and they are now married and blissfully happy. I haven't seen them in person YET, but I've heard that they're so incredibly close that they sometimes wear matching shirts, LOL!

So don't give up...keep on being yourself and yes, Ferio will be out there for you. :::makes mental note to absorb this lesson as well:::

[1863_project]

That honestly gives me a ton of hope and confidence in myself. I actually thought of myself as 'undateable' at one point in time, but I'm starting to grow out of that...it just always means a lot to have some extra reassurance!

We'll both get ours. I promise.

[ecl1958]

Always glad to be supportive when I can! And we had BETTER both get ours...otherwise I will stomp my feet and throw things at the walls. LOL...

[1863_project]

After a load of drama today, it's so nice to talk to someone mature (my most recent post should tell you everything). But yeah - we'll both find 'em! Then we just have to reel 'em in, hee!