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Fic: Feel as You Believe (3/3)
Title: Feel as You Believe (3/3)
Author: Erin (erinm_4600)
Characters, Pairing: DG, the Queen and Cain (mention of Glitch and Roland)
Rating: PG
Summary: DG goes a little crazy on her mother.
Warnings: post-series, probably an annual or so *This started out as this, then went somewhere else. I stopped working on that to try and get this out as it was. The other one, I'm still working on.
Disclaimer: The original characters belong to L. Frank Baum and their respective actors. The current characters belong to Sci-Fi, the movie folks and their respective actors. The rest of 'em are mine. Title comes from Circles 'round the Moon by Geri Halliwell, which I love.
Part One | Part Two | Part Three
We can't hide it / We can't fight it / Just to feel as you believe
I put a spell on my heart for ya / Wishin' on a little star for ya / Kinda magic in everything we do
DG moved into her mother's office without knocking and stopped at the desk. The Queen glanced up from her paperwork but said nothing. DG planted her hands on the edge of the desktop and leaned forward.
"Roland is going home," she stated simply. The Queen blinked and gave DG a half-nod. "And he's not coming back," DG added, matter-of-factly. The Queen blinked again and sat up, wondering what had happened.
"And we are okay with this," DG continued slowly, giving her mother a nod. As the Queen leaned back a bit further, her eyes moved to the desk. DG pushed away from the desk and started pacing slightly. "We're still friends. You don't have to worry about that. The alliance is solid," she said, shaking her fists in the air.
DG took a deep breath and turned away, letting her eyes fall to the floor for a moment. The Queen stood up and slowly stepped around her desk, stopping at the corner and letting her fingers run along the carved relief.
She wanted the alliance to happen, but not at the sacrifice of her daughter's happiness. And, it was quite obvious to her that DG's happiness would not be found in marriage. She'd noticed a change in her daughter over the past annual, but she’d never been able to put her finger on anything in particular.
"He's got a woman he loves, Mom," DG said, turning to face her mother with a sad look. "And I don't love him. He shouldn't have to give up what he wants just to-" she said quickly. "I’m sorry," she stated a moment later, looking up to her mother. The Queen took DG's arms and pulled her close.
"You needn't apologize, dear," she assured with a smile and led DG over to the loveseat near the window. "Please, DG... Tell me," she asked. DG sighed and looked at her lap for a moment, then nodded.
"My heart isn't in it, Mom," she said quietly. "I'm not looking for-" That was a lie, DG knew. She'd take a husband in a second, if it was the man she wanted. She wanted Cain. No matter how many ways she tried to convince herself otherwise. She could blame the magic, the incident, the curiosity...
No matter the list of reasons why it could never happen, DG knew that she wanted Cain.
She'd never been in love - that she knew - but she also knew that she'd never felt the same way about anyone. Ever. Not even her wicked crush on a certain boyband member while she was in high school was on the same level as her feelings toward Wyatt Cain.
She knew what it would look like; a princess and a widower, twice her age. Her bodyguard. Her friend.
The idea of the bad press running rampant at the announcement made her sick; there was no way it could have a positive spin. She was staring to understand how celebrities felt more and more, which was a laugh, because she was just a nobody from Podunk, Kansas.
'No,' she corrected herself. 'You are a princess of the Outer Zone. And, one day, you will be the queen.'
Besides, who was to say Cain even felt the same way? A year is a long time and both of them had acted like it never happened. Maybe he'd moved on... it wasn't like she expected him to pine away forever, after all.
But she did.
She hoped he was just as miserable as she was; always wondering, remembering...
She was pathetic.
A nudge from her mother brought DG back to the moment and she shook the rambling thoughts away.
"I screwed up, Mom," DG admitted quietly. "Beyond screwed up," she added with a nervous laugh. The Queen frowned and raised a hand to smooth DG's hair. "I was just trying to prove I could do it," she started, remembering the day she went looking for the book.
"I knew it was a bad idea, but I just didn't want to..." DG reached up and wiped at her eyes as the tears started to form. "I wanted you to be proud of me." The Queen pulled DG toward her and frowned.
"I am always proud of you, my darling," she whispered, running her hand up and down DG's arm.
"I did a spell," DG said, pulling back to look her mother in the eyes. "And it worked," she nodded. "And I wish it hadn't, because it screwed everything up." She pulled away and jumped up, starting to pace again. "If it hadn't, I never would know and probably would have met Roland and maybe everything would be different," she said quickly. "Well, probably not," she shrugged. "-because he’d still have his girlfriend. But, maybe there'd be someone else. Who knows..."
"DG," the Queen breathed, trying to get her daughter's attention. "DG," she said again, a bit louder. DG stopped and looked at her mother in confusion. "What happened, darling?" she asked calmly. DG's shoulders fell and she wrung her fingers together, giving the Queen a flash to a memory of DG at age five, being questioned as to her involvement in a situation which left Ambrose with orange hair for a month.
The slightest smile growing up her face was wiped away when DG announced: "I slept with Cain."
"I'm sorry, Mom," DG breathed. "I mean, I'm not sorry it happened because-" she said with a slight nod. As the magic wore off, the play-by-play had come back to DG and her recollection of the whole event had been extremely detailed. Not that her mother probably wanted to know that, of course.
"It was a one-time thing and we never even talked about it again. It was my fault and..." she trailed off and let her hands fall to her sides. "I love him, Mom." DG finally admitted. She'd never said it out loud before, but saying it made it seem fact. "I mean, I think it's love. I don't know. I just know that I want to be with Cain," she nodded.
"But I screwed all that up," she huffed and started pacing again. The Queen sat in silence, staring straight ahead as her daughter confessed. "We barely even speak to each other," DG started, oblivious to the fact that she was letting this all spill out to her mother. But getting out was making her feel better, for the first time in almost a year.
"I don't even know why he stayed," she shrugged. "I'd probably have run as far away from me as possible..." DG sighed and stared at the ceiling for a moment. "After everything," she breathed a disgusted laugh. "-I'm still screwing with people's lives. Why can't I stop? What the Hell is wrong with me?" she continued on her personal rant.
"I could blame Az and Glitch," she said, raising a finger. "They showed me the book and told me what kinds of magic were in it. Telling a person to stay away from something is a sure way to get them to dig right in! But I went to the book," she corrected with a shake of her head. "And Cain just happened to stop by. Why did he hear me? The magic was only supposed to go one way. Maybe he has magic?" she mused, then shook her head again.
"Why did he stay?" she asked again. "Maybe," she said, pointing to her mother. "It was because he likes it here and this whole mess has nothing to do with it. Or he's trying to mess with my head; see how long I can go before a snap." She laughed at herself, ready to call this a snap.
"Maybe I'm just happy in my delusion that he stayed because he can't bear to leave. Awkward as it is, he's rather be here than away. 'course, I did ask him not to go. So maybe it's just that simple. Maybe he's moved on and I'm the idiot dwelling..." she sighed again.
"You aren't," she heard, causing her eyes to go wide and her entire body to go rigid. DG looked to her mother and then let her eyes close as she turned to see Cain standing behind her in the doorway.
He'd stepped up to the doorway, coming to tell the Queen that the boy was preparing to leave for whatever reason and heard DG confessing. He'd rather have disappeared into the wallpaper, but the Queen had seen him and he froze at the sound of DG saying she loved him.
She wasn't speaking to appease his ego or defend his honor to a crowd. She was telling her mother the truth. And, after everything that had happened, as much as he'd tried to disappear from view and stay out of things, she still wanted him.
Him: the screwed-up grump who had a grown son and more demons than half the men his age. He didn't care what anyone else thought about him - he'd stopped caring long ago - but how people saw DG... She was to be their Queen. She deserved respect and dedication and he didn't want to be the reason she got neither.
Perhaps she only thought she loved him. She had admitted that she wasn't sure what love was, so it was entirely possible she was simply in love with the idea of loving him. If she really knew him, she might want to run in the other direction.
But she did know him, Cain realized. She'd seen him at his worst, his best and every point in-between. And she was still there. He couldn't get rid of her if he tried. And he really didn't want to be rid of her.
He just wanted her.
The Queen had watched him during DG's entire speech, wanting to see his reactions while, at the same time, putting all the pieces together. It explained much more about her daughter's actions the last annual. Not to mention her bodyguard's nearly invisible presence.
As DG considered her theories as to why he stayed, the Queen noticed Cain's head shake slightly at one idea, and a smile ghost across his face at another. She didn't need to know the details to see how much they cared for each other.
As, as much as she wanted to consider the image of the family and protect both of them from the stories and remarks that were sure to come from every side, she had no room to argue what was proper for the royal family. She, herself, had sent the Zone into a tizzy when she announced her intentions to Ahamo.
The Queen pushed herself up from the loveseat and stepped over to DG's side. "I'm going to go see if Roland needs anything for his return trip," she said simply, giving a slight nod to Cain and patting DG's arm.
As she stepped out of the room, Cain turned to watch her leave and then took a deep breath before turning back to DG. She has looked at the floor again and was biting her lower lip, trying to come up with something to say.
"How much did you hear?" she asked quietly.
"Enough," Cain replied. He took a step closer to her and reached for her.
"DG," Cain started.
"Cain," DG began.
Both of them forced a laugh and Cain reached for her hand, weaving their fingers together as she had done that day, so long ago.
"I'm not leaving you, Princess," he said quietly. DG didn't want to smile, but she couldn't force it back.
"But you heard me raving like a lunatic," she shrugged. "It doesn't scare you away?" Cain smiled and pushed some hair off her face.
"Honestly, Princess," he said with a slight grin. "-only thing that scares me is the idea of you not needing me around anymore." DG ducked her head slightly and stepped closer.
"I always need you, Cain," she confessed. "Just took a little magic to see how much," she added with a shrug.
"I'll just bring you down, Kid," he said, leaning a little closer, letting his hand move to her wrist. His fingers lingered on the bracelet.
"I don't care," she replied, shaking her head. 'I love you,' she thought, as loud as she could.
'I know,' he thought back, giving her a smile as he leaned even closer. Just as their lips met, DG reared back and raised an eyebrow.
"Did you just go Han Solo on me?" Cain shrugged, having no idea what she was talking about and pulled her toward him.
THE END
no, really
______________________
Yeah, I noticed that DG really didn't tell her mother anything either. *facepalm*
Author: Erin (erinm_4600)
Characters, Pairing: DG, the Queen and Cain (mention of Glitch and Roland)
Rating: PG
Summary: DG goes a little crazy on her mother.
Warnings: post-series, probably an annual or so *This started out as this, then went somewhere else. I stopped working on that to try and get this out as it was. The other one, I'm still working on.
Disclaimer: The original characters belong to L. Frank Baum and their respective actors. The current characters belong to Sci-Fi, the movie folks and their respective actors. The rest of 'em are mine. Title comes from Circles 'round the Moon by Geri Halliwell, which I love.
Part One | Part Two | Part Three
We can't hide it / We can't fight it / Just to feel as you believe
I put a spell on my heart for ya / Wishin' on a little star for ya / Kinda magic in everything we do
DG moved into her mother's office without knocking and stopped at the desk. The Queen glanced up from her paperwork but said nothing. DG planted her hands on the edge of the desktop and leaned forward.
"Roland is going home," she stated simply. The Queen blinked and gave DG a half-nod. "And he's not coming back," DG added, matter-of-factly. The Queen blinked again and sat up, wondering what had happened.
"And we are okay with this," DG continued slowly, giving her mother a nod. As the Queen leaned back a bit further, her eyes moved to the desk. DG pushed away from the desk and started pacing slightly. "We're still friends. You don't have to worry about that. The alliance is solid," she said, shaking her fists in the air.
DG took a deep breath and turned away, letting her eyes fall to the floor for a moment. The Queen stood up and slowly stepped around her desk, stopping at the corner and letting her fingers run along the carved relief.
She wanted the alliance to happen, but not at the sacrifice of her daughter's happiness. And, it was quite obvious to her that DG's happiness would not be found in marriage. She'd noticed a change in her daughter over the past annual, but she’d never been able to put her finger on anything in particular.
"He's got a woman he loves, Mom," DG said, turning to face her mother with a sad look. "And I don't love him. He shouldn't have to give up what he wants just to-" she said quickly. "I’m sorry," she stated a moment later, looking up to her mother. The Queen took DG's arms and pulled her close.
"You needn't apologize, dear," she assured with a smile and led DG over to the loveseat near the window. "Please, DG... Tell me," she asked. DG sighed and looked at her lap for a moment, then nodded.
"My heart isn't in it, Mom," she said quietly. "I'm not looking for-" That was a lie, DG knew. She'd take a husband in a second, if it was the man she wanted. She wanted Cain. No matter how many ways she tried to convince herself otherwise. She could blame the magic, the incident, the curiosity...
No matter the list of reasons why it could never happen, DG knew that she wanted Cain.
She'd never been in love - that she knew - but she also knew that she'd never felt the same way about anyone. Ever. Not even her wicked crush on a certain boyband member while she was in high school was on the same level as her feelings toward Wyatt Cain.
She knew what it would look like; a princess and a widower, twice her age. Her bodyguard. Her friend.
The idea of the bad press running rampant at the announcement made her sick; there was no way it could have a positive spin. She was staring to understand how celebrities felt more and more, which was a laugh, because she was just a nobody from Podunk, Kansas.
'No,' she corrected herself. 'You are a princess of the Outer Zone. And, one day, you will be the queen.'
Besides, who was to say Cain even felt the same way? A year is a long time and both of them had acted like it never happened. Maybe he'd moved on... it wasn't like she expected him to pine away forever, after all.
But she did.
She hoped he was just as miserable as she was; always wondering, remembering...
She was pathetic.
A nudge from her mother brought DG back to the moment and she shook the rambling thoughts away.
"I screwed up, Mom," DG admitted quietly. "Beyond screwed up," she added with a nervous laugh. The Queen frowned and raised a hand to smooth DG's hair. "I was just trying to prove I could do it," she started, remembering the day she went looking for the book.
"I knew it was a bad idea, but I just didn't want to..." DG reached up and wiped at her eyes as the tears started to form. "I wanted you to be proud of me." The Queen pulled DG toward her and frowned.
"I am always proud of you, my darling," she whispered, running her hand up and down DG's arm.
"I did a spell," DG said, pulling back to look her mother in the eyes. "And it worked," she nodded. "And I wish it hadn't, because it screwed everything up." She pulled away and jumped up, starting to pace again. "If it hadn't, I never would know and probably would have met Roland and maybe everything would be different," she said quickly. "Well, probably not," she shrugged. "-because he’d still have his girlfriend. But, maybe there'd be someone else. Who knows..."
"DG," the Queen breathed, trying to get her daughter's attention. "DG," she said again, a bit louder. DG stopped and looked at her mother in confusion. "What happened, darling?" she asked calmly. DG's shoulders fell and she wrung her fingers together, giving the Queen a flash to a memory of DG at age five, being questioned as to her involvement in a situation which left Ambrose with orange hair for a month.
The slightest smile growing up her face was wiped away when DG announced: "I slept with Cain."
"I'm sorry, Mom," DG breathed. "I mean, I'm not sorry it happened because-" she said with a slight nod. As the magic wore off, the play-by-play had come back to DG and her recollection of the whole event had been extremely detailed. Not that her mother probably wanted to know that, of course.
"It was a one-time thing and we never even talked about it again. It was my fault and..." she trailed off and let her hands fall to her sides. "I love him, Mom." DG finally admitted. She'd never said it out loud before, but saying it made it seem fact. "I mean, I think it's love. I don't know. I just know that I want to be with Cain," she nodded.
"But I screwed all that up," she huffed and started pacing again. The Queen sat in silence, staring straight ahead as her daughter confessed. "We barely even speak to each other," DG started, oblivious to the fact that she was letting this all spill out to her mother. But getting out was making her feel better, for the first time in almost a year.
"I don't even know why he stayed," she shrugged. "I'd probably have run as far away from me as possible..." DG sighed and stared at the ceiling for a moment. "After everything," she breathed a disgusted laugh. "-I'm still screwing with people's lives. Why can't I stop? What the Hell is wrong with me?" she continued on her personal rant.
"I could blame Az and Glitch," she said, raising a finger. "They showed me the book and told me what kinds of magic were in it. Telling a person to stay away from something is a sure way to get them to dig right in! But I went to the book," she corrected with a shake of her head. "And Cain just happened to stop by. Why did he hear me? The magic was only supposed to go one way. Maybe he has magic?" she mused, then shook her head again.
"Why did he stay?" she asked again. "Maybe," she said, pointing to her mother. "It was because he likes it here and this whole mess has nothing to do with it. Or he's trying to mess with my head; see how long I can go before a snap." She laughed at herself, ready to call this a snap.
"Maybe I'm just happy in my delusion that he stayed because he can't bear to leave. Awkward as it is, he's rather be here than away. 'course, I did ask him not to go. So maybe it's just that simple. Maybe he's moved on and I'm the idiot dwelling..." she sighed again.
"You aren't," she heard, causing her eyes to go wide and her entire body to go rigid. DG looked to her mother and then let her eyes close as she turned to see Cain standing behind her in the doorway.
He'd stepped up to the doorway, coming to tell the Queen that the boy was preparing to leave for whatever reason and heard DG confessing. He'd rather have disappeared into the wallpaper, but the Queen had seen him and he froze at the sound of DG saying she loved him.
She wasn't speaking to appease his ego or defend his honor to a crowd. She was telling her mother the truth. And, after everything that had happened, as much as he'd tried to disappear from view and stay out of things, she still wanted him.
Him: the screwed-up grump who had a grown son and more demons than half the men his age. He didn't care what anyone else thought about him - he'd stopped caring long ago - but how people saw DG... She was to be their Queen. She deserved respect and dedication and he didn't want to be the reason she got neither.
Perhaps she only thought she loved him. She had admitted that she wasn't sure what love was, so it was entirely possible she was simply in love with the idea of loving him. If she really knew him, she might want to run in the other direction.
But she did know him, Cain realized. She'd seen him at his worst, his best and every point in-between. And she was still there. He couldn't get rid of her if he tried. And he really didn't want to be rid of her.
He just wanted her.
The Queen had watched him during DG's entire speech, wanting to see his reactions while, at the same time, putting all the pieces together. It explained much more about her daughter's actions the last annual. Not to mention her bodyguard's nearly invisible presence.
As DG considered her theories as to why he stayed, the Queen noticed Cain's head shake slightly at one idea, and a smile ghost across his face at another. She didn't need to know the details to see how much they cared for each other.
As, as much as she wanted to consider the image of the family and protect both of them from the stories and remarks that were sure to come from every side, she had no room to argue what was proper for the royal family. She, herself, had sent the Zone into a tizzy when she announced her intentions to Ahamo.
The Queen pushed herself up from the loveseat and stepped over to DG's side. "I'm going to go see if Roland needs anything for his return trip," she said simply, giving a slight nod to Cain and patting DG's arm.
As she stepped out of the room, Cain turned to watch her leave and then took a deep breath before turning back to DG. She has looked at the floor again and was biting her lower lip, trying to come up with something to say.
"How much did you hear?" she asked quietly.
"Enough," Cain replied. He took a step closer to her and reached for her.
"DG," Cain started.
"Cain," DG began.
Both of them forced a laugh and Cain reached for her hand, weaving their fingers together as she had done that day, so long ago.
"I'm not leaving you, Princess," he said quietly. DG didn't want to smile, but she couldn't force it back.
"But you heard me raving like a lunatic," she shrugged. "It doesn't scare you away?" Cain smiled and pushed some hair off her face.
"Honestly, Princess," he said with a slight grin. "-only thing that scares me is the idea of you not needing me around anymore." DG ducked her head slightly and stepped closer.
"I always need you, Cain," she confessed. "Just took a little magic to see how much," she added with a shrug.
"I'll just bring you down, Kid," he said, leaning a little closer, letting his hand move to her wrist. His fingers lingered on the bracelet.
"I don't care," she replied, shaking her head. 'I love you,' she thought, as loud as she could.
'I know,' he thought back, giving her a smile as he leaned even closer. Just as their lips met, DG reared back and raised an eyebrow.
"Did you just go Han Solo on me?" Cain shrugged, having no idea what she was talking about and pulled her toward him.
THE END
no, really
______________________
Yeah, I noticed that DG really didn't tell her mother anything either. *facepalm*